Decided to make a check in since a long time, must have been at least half a year ago. Last week my father died after some years of deteriorating health. I knew it was coming but still it happened suddenly. I felt sadness but above all relief. He was suffering a lot and it was so sad for him, it weighed on me. Still i can’t help feeling guilt for feeling relieved. The past ten days were a rollercoaster i realize now, sitting here in his nearly empty house. Thinking about it i realize my sobriety hasn’t really been in danger. I definitely binged on sweets and other foods but alcohol wasn’t a huge temptation. It makes me think i’m doing better than i thought. Another feeling that starts to appear is that i’m finally free to change my life. Have i felt so restricted because of my dad?? I don’t know yet, i will need more time to reflect on that. Lots of thoughts.
Wow girl. This made my heart smile 
Got my 5 day chip today.
Feeling a little better each day. Went for a run yesterday because I felt like I was crawling out of my skin, only made it 2.5 miles but I melted the anxiety off and I slept amazing after. Not going to drink today! God Bless everyone.
Congrats on the 4 years. Thats incredible. Sorry about the COVID. Hope you feel better soon so you can celebrate
Day 831 clean and sober. It’s Monday for me yay! 
Have a beautiful day everyone, love you guys!!! 
Hey @Bart_pt its nice to see you checking in. Im sorry about your father. But im happy to hear you feel secure in your sobriety. Keep pushing forward my friend!
My sincere condolences, im glad to see you are checking in here and talking it over.
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,517.
Thanks
Hey all, checking in on day 829. I hope everybody has a good one!
Been for a lovely swim, can feel my strength and stamina are improving very much. I dont feel exhausted either like i had been after going, hmmmm maybe time to add another work out before the swim again.
Going to go to a meeting tonight, hsvent been for a while and i feel like i need to go.
Going to pop to the shops today to pick up my favourite oven pizzas and il lool forward to that when back from the meeting. Its at 7:30pm until 9pm so will keep me busy.
Trying hard not to watch tv yet and keep myself busy. Its getting colder so i think this winter il spend snuggled up in pyjamas with my laptop finishing off my courses i started, keep learning, keep busy and keep evolving.
Have a great day to you all 
Mélanie… You are so reflected… Love your post and how you describe dealing with emotions!
I made similar experiences coping with emotions… It is a bit harder for a short time to feel things so clearly, but not putting it away (with any kind of diversion like alcohol, drugs, nonsense sex, shopping, eating) is not solving it and not making me able to reflect and work with it.
Feeling it, even for a short time … Naming it, makes it smaler and brings ease. I will try your technique to “say basic things”… Thank you for that!
Sending hope and ease 
Day 27. I didn’t feel like checking in, so I figured I’d better make sure to do it.
Super! 1 full month! Nicely done!
Day 61 checking in…
Nothing special to report.
Life would be better for me without work and unlimited money…
And Peace in the world!
Group therapy was nice and helpful.
My new playlist is nice (changed from dramatic to powerful and happy).
Did my strength workout yesterday… 
Will do another one tonight…
And maybe a walk afterwork.
I don’t know, feel like something is missing today.
Hugs, peace, ease… 
Take care and stay sober! 
Awe thank you! 
Congratulations to freaking, mind-blowing 4(!) years of sobriety, Mister!
Wooooohoooooo!!!
Congrats on your 365 consecutive days of sobriety. That is no small feat.
Congrats Dan thats awesome, also no small feat. 
I hope you recover quickly.