I’m so sorry you are struggling. Sometimes we can’t fix those feelings. Sometimes we just have to feel them and remind ourselves that these feeling will pass. I’m the moment it can feel as though they are swallowing us up, but there is a light that will shine bright again for you soon.
Is there anyone you can call to talk to, or maybe have come over? If not, we are here. Please let me know how you are. I haven’t scrolled down to check if there’s more of your posts or others responses, but I will now. I just wanted to reach out. You’re not alone.
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Good to see you, Chris 
Yes, balance is important.
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Cheers, I know right?!
Actually was ok. Lovely weather and nice food.
Hope everyone else is well
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Hey guys. Starting to checkin again. I will be free the few next week so will be checkin frequently.
I actually relapsed last week. 3 times. It was horrible. But now I am feeling much better and I have actually talked to someone about it.
It is day 3 today but now I will be focusing on the person I want to become rather than focusing on just counting days. I written some goals and set small habits that will help towards that goal. I feel confident but I also know that there will be difficult times ahead.
Have a nice day guys. Peace.
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Thank you Flannery, have a good day too!!! 
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Checking in day 125. Hope you all have a great monday!
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Checking in Day 18
Just been relaxing around the house until work this evening. Been having a slight headache since yesterday that’s being annoying. Was thinking about how much better my anxiety has gotten since I quit alcohol. And I ran across this which was soooooo true for me. Everyone have a blessed sober day. Talk to you later❤️
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Tomorrow is my 11 month milestone, I was feeling really excited about it if I’m honest, rang my mum where one of my brothers live my mum and dad altogether, and as my son and brother are going to watch a football match at the stadium tomorrow I explained its 11 months for me and il cook everyone’s favourite dinner and come over to just be told No, my mum doesnt want any company while they are at football.
Kind of making me think it’s not a big deal when I actually felt so happy and proud.
So I’m going to wait for my son for 5 hours to finish at football in my mums area by myself and thought I might as well go to a meeting up there and a long walk and coffee shop by myself.
It did cross my mind what is the point I might as well have a few glasses in the pub while i wait no one else cares (i know my son does) if i drink or not they still treat me like I’m not welcome unless they need something. Quite hurt my heart.
But I’m ok. I will find a way to celebrate like still cook the dinner for me and my son and find something to do as my mum doesnt want any company… maybe I’m being silly and sensitive or even childish that I wanted my mum to at least say that’s good I dno … for my mum she made such a big deal out of me needing to stop drinking but shows coldness and no feeling about me stopping.
She just pulled some face when I said 11 months that made me lose my courage and self worth and happiness how far iv come.
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Welcome back 
Im sorry to hear about ur relapse but great idea on checking in everyday! Happy to see u posting
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11 months is amazing! We are proud of you!
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Ur 11 month milestone IS a big deal!!! I’m sorry that ur mom isn’t feeling up for company tho. I wonder why? Ur sobriety is a huge accomplishment. We know how hard it is to get clean and sober and u have put in a hell of a lot of work!!! I find that sometimes family or friends just don’t get it lol like they don’t understand how hard it is for us on a daily basis to battle those demons and work our recoveries. Maybe ur mom doesn’t understand? Idk. My husband too. He isn’t an “addict” like me and he doesn’t get how I work hard daily for what I have in my life today. He doesnt get that nagging addictive voice lol But we will all be cheering u on, supporting u on ur milestone. I hope u can find something special to do. I’m really very proud of you! And plz be proud of urself. We as humans want that recognition but at the end of the day we have no control over how other people respond. We can’t guarantee that we will get the response we want from others but we can guarantee to get that from ourselves. Hugs lady!
flowers for u on ur 11 months of amazing sobriety!!!
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This one is for you, by you, 100%. They don’t get it. Too bad for them. We do. You do. Your son does. This is HUGE! The countdown to your full year of freedom is on! This is the biggest gift you have given yourself, you’ve done this all yourself and NO ONE is going to take that away from you. Be very very proud dear friend. I am of you. HUGE congrats one day ahead. Keep going. ODAAT and all that. Love and hugs and everything good your way, you so deserve it. x
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@Cjp @Butterflymoonwoman @Bluekoolaid @Mno
Thank you all so much 
I think your right I feel let down, but as long as I don’t let myself down that’s all that matters.
I dont know what I’d do without you all here, I know this is the same for many of us.
I think il look for meetings in that area tonight so I have it all set up.
Thank you all, for being so caring and supportive.
I feel okay I know I wont drink, but it’s so easy for all the right circumstances (really there wrong, but right to head to a relapse) to just pop up when we dont expect it for example we feel low, then we have bad cravings then we feel let down then all we need to relapse is that excuse that no one cares… and it can happen to any of us at any time and tomorrow I can see myself sitting in a coffee shop that just happens to be opposite a pub where everyone looks like there having fun and I happen to be feeling sorry for myself 
so I will have a good plan in place and il be okay and the meeting is definitely the best place to be for the support I guess I’m looking for.
Thank you all for helping me realise and feel this is a great achievement and just because my family dont get it doesnt actually matter all that matters is I make it special for me, and I really appreciate your guys care and support so much.
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Everytime guaranteed you all make me feel so nice, and like I matter. I love that we all share this care toward eachother each and eveyone of us matter and we let eachother know this.
I’m also really proud to be here with such caring people
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11 months is amazing. Congratulations! Dont let the sour moment totally put out the flame of joy! You deserve to feel proud and cook something good.
Im glad your son is supportive!
Depending on your situation, maybe you could have a conversation with them about how hard you worked and plan a real celebration for your 1 year? anniversaries are more commonly understood and might be a good time to talk about it.
Either way, congratulations and im glad youre not drinking today.
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Thank you, I think I may need to just get used to the idea that my sobriety doesnt matter to some.
And that that’s okay.
Lower my expectations but keep my head up high and keep going one day at a time 
The meeting I think is what il concentrate on, and being here, being around those who do understand.
Thanks.
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Thank you, I will keep updated.
My mums is a 30nmin bus ride away so I have the plan that I can just come back home if I need to, but the idea of doing something felt good too.
And I think a meeting and sharing will help, I usually just listen at meetings.
Thank you for your support.
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5 months today- so far the defusion mindfulness is helping as a follow up of getting into more ongoing action regarding taxes, employer and getting settled in to what’s next in that arena. Shit felt really messy and I’ve been feeling on vapor lock status for a few weeks until another person helped with phrasing that just made sense and kicked off a gameplan. Sometimes I have to remember it takes more than just opening up to a couple of people for what makes sense- wishing you all positivity.
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Hiking, love it. What part of the country are you in Rob?
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