Epic share Ely. Nice to see you check in.
That’s one hellova number you got there!
So many great things going on for you. I’m very happy for you.
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Hi Kat here at 87 days
Had a crash day yesterday where I slept for like 20 hrs… it was not good. Dog didn’t get taken out. Had to order fast food for dinner to feed hungry 14 year old. Not ensuring household chores are done. Didn’t pack gym bag for the next day.
Have missed a few meetings due to fatigue and just not feeling like it.
Well today I realized, RED ALERT 
WARNING this is how my relapses start. So pulled up my socks today. Talked to an NA friend and my sponsor about my realization that I was not doing all the things I needed to do and needed to change.
So today’s been pretty good worked this morning, shopped, took dog to dog park, made dinner, did dishes, swept floor. Now on my way to NA meeting.
Thanks guys for being here
Kat
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I did not get it checked out no. I’ve had a few minor head injuries in the past (I should really crash my bikes less 
) and being taken in to hospitals was always a waste. They never seem to want to do any scans or anything unless Im showing obvious signs of a concussion.
Im definitely feeling off. Headache, light sensitivity (yet here I sit on a glowing electronic device), and (possibly related?) exhaustion. Just trying to take it easy.
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Will I’m glad your ok and it’s not too bad. I hope you can rest a bit… And yes the phone in moderation would be good😄 LOL. I’ve actually been getting more headaches lately and I’m wondering if it’s because I’m on this app so much but I’d rather have a headache than drink. Have to make an appointment to get my eyes checked soon anyways- haven’t done that in a while.
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I appreciate you checking in on me and asking and I’m glad you’re back on here more again. not glad for the headaches but definitely better to be sober! Hopefully an eye check will help or it’ll go away on its own. Maybe blue light blocker glasses could help for all the screen time? 
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I don’t know if I believe in hell in general, but I do believe there is an especially terrible place where bike thieves go to rot in the end. I’ve definitely cried over having a bike stolen before. If you were closer I would borrow you one of mine!
Big congrats on your 3 months my friend. In case I haven’t said it to you enough, I am so stinking proud of you and your progress! 
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That’s a super good idea about the blue light glasses! I’ve never had trouble with my eyes before or never needed any kind of glasses but I’m also getting to the age where I should get my eyes checked again 
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Also sorry I just have to check in to complain because I’m just about to start my class that I really was talking about not wanting to teach earlier and sometimes it’s hard for me not to feel resentful as two people called in late to cancel 
I mean I don’t know what’s going on in their lives and I shouldn’t let it bother me but it’s just frustrating. I start to think in my head that they’re probably canceling for the same reason of wanting to sit out on the patio on the super hot day and have a drink but that’s probably not the case. I’m just fabricating that idea in my head to make an excuse so that after class I can drink and I’m not going to. I’m also hungry but didn’t want to eat right before teaching so as soon as I’m done I’m going to shower and make a quick dinner and then if I want to drink I will but I know I won’t so that’s my plan I just had to say it
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Aaah. This resonated. I have similar tells. So glad you recognized the red flags and reached out for help.
Reinvigorate your sobriety! Its hard to stay present and get those day to day things done but you are not alone in climbing out of that hole.
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Checking in with almost a week AF. Today would have been a perfect storm set up for relapse, but I took a nap and went for a walk instead. It went through my mind and I kept telling myself, just don’t do it, don’t pick up. I played the tape through and thought about all the things I enjoyed about the last week and remembered that shit will not happen if I pick up a drink. I remembered how miserable I was the last time I drank and how much I’ve been able to accomplish by staying sober. I wish I understood why this horrific keeps pulling me back, but for now I will not drink today. I’ll wake up tomorrow and hope to not drink then either.
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Congrats on winning today! Stay strong. Youve got this.
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Checking in here. Feeling pretty overwhelmed with all that we have to do to start the new school year. I know it is normal, but it is giving me some extra anxiety tonight. I’m also anxious because a job offer for my husband is taking extra long to get finalized and I just want to see resolution!
The good news that I realized tonight is that in past school year jitters I would have popped open the wine to “calm my nerves” and I didn’t even think of that for relief. I’m just at 10 months sober now so I’m pretty pleased that I didn’t have a craving. Woooot!
One day at a time and steady effort is paying off.
Now if I could just settle down and relax about school. 
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Girl I am sooo proud of you right now!! You learned alot from ur last relapse and arr using all the tools u got to pull thru. Great self awareness 
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Day 178
Sort of a nightmarish day in my head but an…ok day otherwise.
I will remain sober and set the timer for 15 min tonight. @DryIn785 [quote=“DryIn785, post:366, topic:149870”]
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I think a very simple timed 15 min of tidying is a very solid first step. A whole mood can change in 15 min. And I have just been remembering more. It can be at any time of day and the timer really helps me get started bc theres an end in sight - either ill get in a flow or finish more things or im allowed to say “done” immediately at 15 min and like, some mess is reduced.
Obviously this is adaptable if clutter/cleaning isnt a main problem for you, but i would highly recommend at least trying something like this adapted to you - a simple daily commitment.
I have been working daily on assorted creative projects. I talked to my mom and sisters. I talked to my roommate and am worried i was weird. I probably was weird! Massive tension in my body.
Got tacos with amazing vegetables but not enough beans. Need to figure out what im eating tomorrow probably leftover rice, a bagel, granola bar for lunch and pizza bagel for dinner. Im trying to buy groceries more strategically so i spend less money and less things go bad. So right now im holding out.
Full relapse into social media nightmare scrolling!! My phone is sucking my soul away and i make myself too paralyzed to be accountable to my own life. I will delete these apps soon!
Support to others who are Overwhelmed tonight.
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Evening Check In
Day 197
Definitely feeling burnt out right now. I think I overdid it on the cardio this morning tho. I’ve been feeling tired most of the day. I have eaten well so far today also, which makes it almost 2 days of healthy eating and exercising. Pretty proud of myself actually Other than the health related stuff, I actually did my recovery/spiritual readings today too. That felt good! Did a meditation also. Did some reading with my son once he got home from school. He is slowly picking up words and I was helping him sound out the words he didn’t know. Overall a good day. Can’t complain really. I’m finding my days to be very the much same. Not boring but very routine. And in alot of ways I love routine. I have always thrived on it. But I feel like I’m missing out on excitement. So need to find those healthy ways to gain excitement I guess lol have a great night everyone
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Had a good day today. Brought the mrs to some volunteer work, then we lifted at the gym and then ate some good Indian food. Since reintroducing meat into the diet (about a meal a day, but not every day) our family dinners are better. Really butted heads with my youngest tonight, but then read a bit and did some tidying up and floor laying in the basement gym. Over all it was a pretty good day.
Think I’m going to check out some jujitsu prices tomorrow as I def have at least 150 more bucks or so monthly without buying pot. I have trained a bit in the past, but either my habits or back injuries kinda halted that (mostly my habits honestly).
I hope everyone’s doing well. Looks like there were some awesome victories here today.
Keep up the good fight y’all.
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What an awesome idea for a healthier lifestyle! All that money u saved can definitely do more good now. Would probably be a good feeling get back into it after all this time!
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It’s good to be seen… congratulations on 1700 days of recovery 
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I have much to catch up on and I just don’t have the energy. I’m about to make a cup of tea and call it a night. Which is bizarre, I slept great, and had a nap in the afternoon. I’ve been tired all day today. Aside from going out with my case mgr. and the library, didn’t really do much of anything.
I’m on day 22 now, and I’m doing better on cigarettes, but I still have one a day and I’m not setting my official timer until I’m completely quit. So, I’ll check in again if I wake up in the middle of the night. Until then, everybody have a great sober evening! 
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@kat261 - You go girl! Way to master managing triggers. It takes work to do what you are doing. Well done!
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