Dragging my ass out of bed on the morning of day 446. I am happy to be sober. I really enjoy reading the check ins here. I am proud of you all. Let’s keep fighting the good fight.
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Day 92. I’ve noticed some really addictive behavior and thinking. I’m really people pleasing ATM, my ego is getting the best of me. and I’m noticing myself want to run, it’s my fault my bike got stolen when I went home on my weekend pass, they’re is a guy who tattoos here and I let him talk me into bringing my tattoo equipment back as well. I knew I’d have to sneak it back so on Monday when I came back I got dropped off at the gym so I could have him sneak the stuff to his friends house. Well when I did that I left my bike unlocked at the gym to lift and he noticed that, I believe he stole my bike but no camera’s and no proof. since Monday I’ve put out two tattoos which sure I’m proud of, but still my time here is to focus on recovery not tattooing, but now my machine is a sitting duck at his buddies house ready to be picked off. I’m lost, confused, mad, I need to get this shit figured out and quick. Much love, glad I told on myself. Still pretty proud in many areas of my recovery
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Day 13. Finally had a night of sleep without waking up and I didn’t even use a sleep aid. Feeling hopeful today. Starting to see some really positive effects of sobriety along with therapy and mental health meds. My relationship with my partner is improving. I’m more confident in my decisions. I’m sticking to my plans. Thankful for all this.
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Hey all, checking in on day 808. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Week in. 100% sober. Fucked up dreams last night and honestly thought I wet the bed 
I did not, but man it was a vivid drug dream where at the end I stood in front of a toilet and voided my bladder! It was so real I was instantly wide awake, sober and freaked out! Anywho despite lack of sleep I feel clearer than I have in a bit and feel myself stabilizing nicely.
RECYCLED my pipes n stuff yesterday. I was going to throw them away and then I thought “what would Al Gore do with his drug paraphernalia???” Reduce…to zero (check), Reuse (nope), and Recylce!! Lol I mean it’s all Glass and Metal so 
. Aside from the humor that this action provided me I am happy I can say I now live in both a completely alcohol-free and drug-free home 
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I hope everyone has a great, sober day.
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And what a tribute. 
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It really would! I got a passport over 4 years ago so do that through www.workaway.info, but vodka had other plans. Still in the back of my mind of course.
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DUDE THANK YOU!!! I’m going to check that out hell yeah!!! 
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My pleasure!! Have fun!
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Happy hump day! Blessed with awesome weather this week here in Chicagoland. Have great sober day my friends.
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We’re with you. 
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Thank you so much!! That really helps!!!
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Reminds me of my neighbor when I try to explain it to him. "Have you ever tried to… you know… not drink? “Wow! I would have never thought of that! Thank you for solving all of my problems instantly!” 
But you’re doing awesome, Dana, keep it up!
That’s a beautiful place! Isn’t that where they filmed the ending of Inferno?
@BrianP Sounds like fun, I may do that myself. Go gentle on that ankle!
@anon53116147 Noticing your behavior and thinking is the important part. Keep fighting it!
Weird dreams happen in early recovery. And nicotine patches crank up the fun level! 
@Lorelai That’s a fantastic tribute, hang in there!
@mx_elle We do believe in you, we’ve all been there before. 
Day 22½ Woke up after being up and down all night long, got an appointment to run to, but I thought I’d check in early today since I didn’t do it for real yesterday. Everybody have a great sober Wednesday! I’ll be back later!
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Yes, it was! 
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Omg ur comment response to my post made me laugh 
Its true tho… if it was that easy there would be no one with am addiction or alcoholism. Have an awesome day Mark! Hope ur appt goes well!
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Congratulations on your marriage!
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You are absolutely right. If my husband still used or even took up something else like drinking (oddly enough he’s never had a sip of alcohol in his life due to family stuff), either I wouldn’t be clean (or really struggling to stay clean), or I would’ve left him. I’ve been in relationship with those that still used or drank, while I have been working on my recovery and the relationship never worked out. Along with me relapsing in the end. So I am grateful. I understand that he doesn’t understand. And I’ve never really told him what I do everyday for my recovery either. Idk why I’ve never brought it up to him. Never the opportunity to talk about it I guess. I definitly need the support!! Thats without a doubt. And even tho I didn’t go to mtgs where I currently live, I spent 9 years in the rooms back home and I definitely took everything I learned from Big Book studies and from reading the Big Book etc. And then of course without you all on TS… idk where I’d be honestly. I truly don’t. I don’t think I would’ve gotten thru some of the hardest times without u all! I don’t think I’d be where I am today in my recovery if it wasn’t for u all. Grateful for u Alisa and for everyone here!!!
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I’m excited for you. Have a great time. That must have been sob frustrating to have to wait.
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Wow 84 days without smoking? That’s amazing👏
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It must be hard to feel “trapped” in your job. I don’t know what I’d do for work either if I didn’t do my current job. I’m sure there are other short courses you could take to start something new?? I mean I don’t really have any suggestions, but there must be some other options 
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