Congrats on staying strong, great decision making.
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I wish you all the best during the process! 
Just remember that it can took up to 2 years to rebalance the brain after alcohol misuse. 
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Start of day 7 by tomorrow morning it will officially be a week 
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Morning Check In
Day 199
Son is at home today from school due to an appt. Will be nice to spend the whole day with him. I had to adjust my workout time so that I can get exercise in before 7am. So I woke up at 530am to workout and boy do I HAAAAATE working out that early. Since Iāve got a taste of a normal morning workout at 9am (since my son has been at school the past 3 weeks), I now despise working out at 530am. Itās just not the same for me. Anyway, Iām grateful that I aftually got my butt out of bed and did something. Just enjoying a coffee now and will get ready for his appt. Then lunch and then Iām thinking a wagon ride for my son thru the park if it isnāt too hot. Hubby is working late tonight due to a concrete pour. So itāll be me and my boy the whole day basically 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Thank youā¦ 
I planned how to integrate my priorities 
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Good morning all. Checking in on day 377. Went from the 90ās to the 60ās overnight so it feels amazing outside! Will definitely be getting in as much yard work as possible today. Dinner tonight with my wife and brother in law at a local hibachi restaurant. Miss the food from Okinawa and this is the closest I can find! I go back to work Saturday and feel like this may be my last shifts. Iām not going to be Affiliated with that kind of treatment at all and will volunteer my hours there but feel like my boss wonāt even allow me in the building. Was offered a forklift job making double the money, but am going to look around for something that aligns with my degree. Hope everyone has a good day and stays safe!
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Iāve seen a few posts lately about quitting smoking.
I did that over 17 years ago! Hard to believe its been so long. I smoked soooo much! Would wake up and barely have my eyes open and light a cigarette first thing in morning. Iād even wake up in the middle of the night for a smoke! It was so hard to quit but I did it and I never have cravings for nicotine, ever at all!
I hope one day I can say that about alcohol.
Anyways, I donāt know if itās okay to recommend this on here but honestly what helped me quit smoking was using the nicorette gum. Then eventually I switched to just regular gum and now I donāt chew gum at all. I wish you luck
I know thereās other things available to help as well.
Thinking of youā¤ļø
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Two weeks today. 14 days. Remembering that sobriety doesnāt solve any of my problems. However, it makes space for me to work on them. Everyday is a decision to face my troubles instead of numbing myself to escape them. On easy days, I have no trouble abstaining. On hard days, the cravings can be intense. I hate feeling tension and strife. Hereās to another day of pressing through for my own good.
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Hi Kat here at 89 days. Almost 90!
Feeling good have a busy day ahead. Caffeinated and pumped though need to avoid the evening crash so I donāt miss meetings.
Got a lot to do but not feeling overwhelmed.
Meeting tonight which am looking forward to.
Hope you all have a great day!
Kat
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Huge congratulations on 2 weeks!!! Love ur outlook and positivity in ur post
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Congratulations to two weeks of sobriety! 
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Day 243 sober. Exercise and reading inspirational books definitely helping me. I read today ābe wary of looking back at your previous life with rose tinted glasses when life gets hard, thereās a reason you chose to move away from that lifeā. Keep going all 
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Good Morning,
I havenāt done a check in for a while. I am 80 days today. I donāt think much about how hard it is not to drink or want to drink anymore. Yes I get the occasional craving and yes on those days I have to dig a little deeper into my will power but those days are not as common as they use to be. The times I have felt like drinking I shoot my sister a message and tell her how I am craving a beer or a drink. She semi scolds me with a big (NO) Lol and thatās that. Thatās as much of head space it takes now. I quickly move on and get to whatever I am doing through out my day. I have also had that internal dialogue of perhaps I can have a drink now and then (special events or holidays) but then I also analyze why I want to. I know alcohol brings nothing to the table. Nothing I am missing at all and I know that when I have those thoughts itās only the engrained idea that we all have that these events will only be more fun if we are drinking. Once I have that conversation in my head I quickly realize I can enjoy the holidays/ special events just like I have everything else thus far. I had on of those dreams wherein I have drank and in my dream I dint feel bad at all. I did feel bad when I woke from my dream. That was a weird situation I guess. What I gather from it is that the old me would be very much like I was in my dream. Careless that I had drank saw no issue with it however in my real life I feel that if I were to drink I definitely would feel bad because I have put work into this. I keep myself accountable for many things that I do now. I like to be as honest with my feelings as possible and I like to feel all the feels now. Work through them and grow. Something I know I wasnāt doing before. I knew I had feelings about certain things but I wouldnāt try and analyze and rid of whatever feelings those were. I just drowned them in alcohol. Over all the experience I have had theses past 80 days has been great. I still love to wake up clear headed and ready for my day. I love the fact that I no longer have a beer belly. I didnāt realize I had one but definitely love my new look. Havenāt had anxiety in a long time as well. things are just looking great at the moment and I am very grateful for that.
Now I must read some of you guysā check ins to catch up over here.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day.
ODAAT 
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Iām happy to read this L.
I been thinking about you. Havenāt seen you around.
Iām glad your doing what it takes for a better life.
Itās worth it.
Congratulations on your 80 days.
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Hi, Eric
Thanks!!!
The past month got really busy but I hope to contribute here as much as I can.
I have miss reading the updates and seeing what everyone is up to.
I noticed lots of new journeys! That makes me very happy.
I hope things are good with you now. Last I was on here I think you were going through one of those blue moons if Iām not mistaking.
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Hi Maxine, I can relate very much to what youāre writing.
Iāve been living in my own for 21 years now, never had a serious relationship. The last crappy relationship broke 7 years ago, he broke my heart and I said ānever againā.
Thatās when I slipped into booze badly. Home alone drinker, didnāt want to see people anymore, Covid didnāt make it easier. Tense relationship with my family.
Lately my social anxiety had gotten very bad, I could easily be 3-4 months without seeing anybody (except my colleagues), but no hanging out with friends, nice talk over a coffeeā¦ I just couldnāt do it, there was something that made me cancel every single event that came up.
I started going to therapy, and Iām working on this right now, baby stepsā¦
The thought of death and dying alone crosses my mind very often.
Maybe you can try and start socializing little by little? It doesnāt have to be a 100 people Bbq!
Are you seeing a specialist about your fears?
Well done on your 19 days by the way!
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Checking in on day 33
Today I had to go back to work. I did enjoy my holidays, so I didnāt really felt like going back! š«£ Thatās a good sign I guess. Iāve been trying to catch up all day long with my mails and pending stuffā¦ itās gonna take a while! 
I also joined the push-up challenge, other than that no exercise today! We have 33C and 65% humidity, basically the weather sucks today! But another sober day on the books! 
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Hi, Maxine
Sorry you are going through this.
Sounds tough and I know that you are someone who tries to be positive all the time.
Donāt feel bad or like a fraud for posting in the gratitude thread.
You can have this going on and still be grateful for other things in your life.
It sounds to me like there might be something you are unaware of that needs some addressing.
Are you able to see a therapist or are you seeing one already.
I have heard this very common phrase in the Sobriety podcast (Our addiction is a symptom of the problem) often times things we havenāt worked through or resolved.
I hope I didnāt botched that. Ill look for it and make sure I worded that right.
Keep on posting here as you know thereās always someone to respond.
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I am craving a bitā¦
Crave crave craveā¦ It will pass!
I am sure.
I would like to have a vision board, maybe I will create a digital one! 
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This has been weighing on me the last few years. I havenāt had anyone since 1997, and at my age (52), prospects are not looking good. Even if I met someone, having children is no longer on the table.
I think itās harder to express these feelings when youāre a man. Everybody tells you itās not a big deal, youāll meet someone, you just want to get laid, etc. It really hurts like hell and I canāt talk about it with anyone. I do know that drinking wonāt fix anything which is unfortunately the best advice I can give.
@Lovelyoutlook Congratulations on your 80 days!
This 
is awesome. I need to remind myself of this more often.
Another great quote. I had a lot of unrealistic expectations the first time I ever tried sobriety. Congratulations on 2 weeks!
@Butterflymoonwoman Glad you are having a great day with your son!
Day 23
Average day. Caught between laziness and restlessness. Got out and moved around a little bit even though itās kind of hot to go for a walk now. Shouldāve gone this morning. Still fighting some urges to grab a drink, not as strong as the last couple of days, but strong enough to make me uncomfortable. Anyway, Iāll check in later. Everyone have a great sober Thursday!
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