Congratulations on two full weeks! 
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How did the artist fuck up the tattoo?
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Day 187
I am on the top of a slippery slopeā¦didnt tidy yesterday either. Could barely drag myself to work on time. I sort of feel I have no idea who I am or where to go.
I am in a disgusting basement hauling out trash. I get to use a sledgehammer to break this cast iron water heater apart. Brought my lunch, and I know what im eating tonight.
No buying unnecessary food for me! Nothing will go bad! I will soak the pinto beans that I was gifted for the weekend. And try not to be so petty.
P.s. i put raspberry vitamin C powder from Aldi in with a can of lime seltzer and some extra water. It is awesome.
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Thanks! 
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Thank you
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Congratulations on your 2 weeks 
@Butterflymoonwoman Every day at the gym is going to be different, somedays i can push myself further than others, taking part is important. A slow progress is better than a fast burnout and then making yourself unwell mentally and physically. I get neck and shoulder pain quite alot im waiting for physio app, i use a memory foam travel pillow from amazon and i use it litrally watching tv to laying in bed on my phone and it has reduced the tension and pain just thought id mention incase it may help you too. Your doing so well 206 days!! Wow. 
@Lorelai Its great to see you hereā:hugs: 30 days congratulations. And aslo 1079 days.
@anon53116147 Amazing and hige congrats on your 100 days you have put an enormous amount into you recovery im so proud to see you be able to celebrate this milestone.
@Lovelylisha 28 days congratulations, im glad your atonach is ok after the antibiotics and hope it no longer hurts
@heyyyitzannie congratulations on your 4 days 
@Miranda you have done so well im super proud of you, huge congratulations on your week. I knew you could it
@Rockstar24777 818 days!! Wow i love seeing this amount of time, it sends a message of so much hope and inspiration to everyone. Nice car too
@icebear 454 days and @Nordique 815 days also sending more huge number sending out hope and inspiration
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1016 days without gaming
16 days without YouTube
8 days without TV, streaming services and the like.
Today has been a really good day. My manager who I am supposed to replace has been informed he can finally move to his next challenge, a bigger store, in just over a week. So I was offered the position and with it comes a huge pay raise 
I declined it. I am not ready yet to take that position. I would be miserable because Iād make it a mess. Iāve still got a lot of skills to learn before Iām capable enough. And besides that, Iāve just started college which is taking up a lot of my time and I still need to settle. So that wouldāve absolutely lead to a burnout which could easily take me back down the hellhole.
When looking at my career, itās a bad choice. But my wellbeing is a lot more important than a career.
And my bosses agreed, they were thinking the exact same thing. But they promised so they gave a choice. Like I said Tuesday, my boss can be a bitch, but sheās not a bad person. She gained a lot more appreciation from me.
Then there was a coworker who we recently promoted who was completely dropping the ball. So I had to sit down with him. My very first time disciplining an employee, didnāt help that I also see him as a friend 
I did really good. At first I let my manager do the talking, but then I took over. I set clear boundaries and told him how it felt like he was giving us the finger.
He understood it and was disappointed in himself. It seems to me like self-sabotage. Perhaps even addiction. Iāve been there so I understand him. I hope this lit a fire under his ass to change his ways. But I know how strong that self-sabotage can be.
All in all, I made a ton of progress today and I did really good
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You donāt want to give up going to the gym. Youāre obsessed with it and need to finish whilst youāre boday says no and you know you shouldnāt.
To me this sounds like the negotiation phase. To me it sounds like youāre addicted. If this post makes you pissed, I think you know your answer.
But perhaps you can go back. See if you will always listen to your body. See if you can let go of the calorie counting and the restricted diet.
I am of the opinion that certain people can moderate certain behavioural addictions. But I wouldnāt try it if isnāt possible to quit 100%. And going to the gym isnāt essential. To me it feels like this behaviour is likely to worsen which will make staying clean a lot harder.
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I love this and youāre absolutely right, your well being has to come first or everything else will fall. So proud of you @anon3131847 heck yeah!!! 
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Happy Thursday all! Have an awesome day!!
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I dont workout on the weekends bcuz i have to work at my job. I actually do believe those days are needed. My body needs that time to rest and repair itself so that I can go abit harder during the week. And since my goal is to build muscle and lose weight, i need those rest days to see results. See if i was to set my goal for 4 days a week to workout, i would be happy that I worked out those 4 days and mentally feel fine with it. Itz bcuz i have no good reason to not workout all 5 days of the week. My son is in school and i have the time, so why not? And i look forward to exercise. It makes me feel good! The only downside is that i need to listen to myself when im done my workout, and then mentslly be okay with that. @anon3131847 you are right in that I am addicted to the gym. I have a history of that and i can see myself bordering on addictive behavior with the gym again. Physically i am overweight, so exercise is beneficial so that i can live a longer and healfhier life. But at the same time i need to be mentally okay with doing my best at the gym and not having to see a certain number or finish a certain number of sets etc. I think me being aware of this right now is good! So now i can make adjustments and start listening to myself to prevent injury or over exhaustion.
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I really appreciate you saying this. Bcuz i honestly dont know if i have build the foundation. I never thot of that and thats tricky for me to see. I was working out 4 days a week before my son started school and i had to workout from usually 545-7am. I couldnt workout any later than that due to coming back up to the apartment to relieve the overnight nurse from watching my son with his medical condition. So i had no choice but stop my workout and be okay with what i did. Now bcuz i have no time restrictions i workout at least 1.5 hours a day sometomes closer to 2 hours. And now that im typing this, to me that seems extreme lol idkā¦ if i was an outsider looking in at what im typing, i would definitly think that my workouts are abit much. And i dont think i have built that foundation to be working out this hard, for this long, 5x a week.
How did u overtrain? What were u doing for exercise and how is it effecting u now? Im just curious about this and if u feel comfortable talking about it, id be interested to hear about it.
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Checkin in to let yall know. Im still sober on my bday. People can not belive im not drinking. I feel pretty good today.
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Hello guys. Just checking in. I have got a big weekend ahead, will be really busy.
I also went back and watched all the avengers movie. My favourite is the first 1 but I also like the rest.
Have a nice day guys. Bye.
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Good going mate. Really pleased for you on 100.
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Thank u so much for sharing ur experience with this. After reading ur post i went online and looked around also. Today i definitly overtrained by what I was reading. I usually dont feel like this everyday but today i did bcuz i already started my workout tired and pushed myself far beyond what i could do. I am trying to practice self love so listening to my body and making sure i eat well and rest well are important. U opened my eyes to what can happen with overtraining and altho i am saddened that u had to go thru this 
i am grateful that u shared what u did to help me and maybe others on here. Hope ur doing well overall tho! 
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Day 31
I canāt believe I slept through my 30th day (and almost two weeks on smoking). I have a lot of catching up to do. But I figured out why I fall asleep so frequently. One of my favorite snacks is a block of cheese and plently of crackers. Turns out, cheese has more tryptophan than turkey! Anyway, Iāll do a longer check in after I run some errands. Happy sober Thursday, fam! 
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