Evening Check in
Day 213
I guess today overall was half decent. Just gelt really tired but did axtually attempt a nap this afternoon while my son was in school.
Recovery wise I am good. Only one very brief using thought when hubby got home. He recieved a cash deposit on an upcoming tattoo and him counting money triggered that thought of using. A weird anxious feeling came with that. Brushed it off. Its only a thought and nothing more. Triggered in other ways emotionally tho My sister-friend who started back up in sex work is now posting on other social media sites. Pics of her in her outfits and mentioning that shes heading out to a hotel for a returning client. Like my god!! I dont need to see this or get reminders of my past life. Unfollowed her from other places also. So thats that. I worry about her immensly but what can I honestly do being 1300 km away.
Exercising went well today and i listened to my body this time when i needed to stop. No crazy all or nothing thinkingā¦ well maybe a bit but nothing that caused me distress.
My eating has been okay today. I have eaten my alloted daily calories but still wanna eat. I want icecream but I know if i grab some i wont be able to stop. Im not even hungry so am trying to work thru that now.
Not much else going on 
Oh yes!!! Thank u!!! I totally forgot about gum! When i read ur post i popped 3 cinnamon gums into my mouth haha great idea! I just really need to get thru this night and stay on track
Oh really? What changes are u trying to make? I started sept 1st with full on effort. Ive had a couple crappy days since the 1st, but i just try to be consistent with my exercise and daily calorie intake.
Just want you to know that I care about you. Life is hard. Stay on this forum and trust your higher power. Make a change and stand proud. God loves you and we are here for you!
Iām here traveling this world right next to you. Side by side. Do not worry about tomorrow as tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Very cool! Its truly amazing how food interacts with the body. Have u ever u thought of studying to be a nutritionist or something?
Checking in-
Trying my best to stay in the present. Iām struggling and I want to flee, run away and escape my life. Iām down. I just want peace and a sanctuary to rest my head. Still no furniture until next week. Been really upset this week.
Checking in 170 days 
Congrats to everyone staying sober today and all the milestones Iām seeing. Itās really awesome to be surrounded by people with such long stints of sobriety and also to see everyone else checking in early in their sobriety.
This community helps tremendously for someone like myself, who doesnāt have the time to physically go to meetings at the moment. Reading and feeling the sense of connection and understanding from you all.
Makes it easier, I appreciate you all.
Iāve been consistent with my food and exercise this week, which has such a good flow on effect to my mood. Iām happy about that. Trying to just work on being consistent even if I have little slip ups with bad food or missing an exercise.
Happy Friday friends 
Hey there, that sure sounds rough. Life changes, even for a better life, arenāt always easy. If youāve accumulated baggage then dealing with it is usually necessary when you want to turn your life around. Itās a process which can take time and itās also not linear. If you can, take that hate you have and use it as a catalyst to move forward. When youāre having a shitty day or a feeling, remember itās going to pass eventually. It might sound stupid but try to find even little positive good things in your day/life/surroundings and let your mind dwell on those. Honest positivity will help you a lot in the long run.
Wishing you well.
Would it help maybe getting a dog right now for a companionā¦?
Hope you feel better soon
Hello world. 
. Day 4 AF and Day 100 
Im still in the process of waking up. I really dont know what I am doing today, its looking like a good day so it could be spent working in the garden getting ready for Fall/Autunm.
I do need to talk to the guy in the mirror and tell him whatever happens today he wont be drinking, just for today.
Wishing you all a good day.
Have a good sober day Col.
I got an idea if your willing. Head on over to the gratitude thread and tell āthat guy in the mirror,ā ten things heās grateful for when heās not drinking. Write it down.
Then do it again tomorrow.
And the next day.
See what happens.
Good night 
From my part of the world.
1196
Coffee. Going back to work later today after Wednesdayās incident. Not feeling totally relaxed about it. Well. Will see. I do hear and recognise signals from my body these days. Iām feeling, and feeling more than just a big knot of anxiety in my stomach. Thatās a huge gain.
Autumn weather. Going back to the gym first and taking my first spinning class in a couple of months. That will relieve some tension I hope. Sober and clean. Using never helped me with anything so not going to restart that now. Good times and bad ones.
Have as good a day as you can friends. Make it clean and sober. Itās the only right way for all of us. Love.
Day 360 checking in not long until I hit my year after my relapse looked like a long road back but taking it one day at a time those days soon add up hope everyone is well
Good of you to share. You are still early in recovery. For me the first 90 stays my emotions went all over the places. Our brain chemicals have to find a new balance and do more themselves after our time of use.
Keep venting, also to the people close around you. It helps.
If there is not progress after a few months ore you think you cannot handle it I would consult a doctor about it if I where you.
@DB_5197 Reach out on here more. It wonāt be instant, but you can build connections here. Many of those people who look like they have everything feel differently on the inside. Comparing your inside to othersā outside will always leave you feeling shitty.
@Minatasha Donāt think so black and white. Maybe you have been āentitled and meanā at times. Most people have. I know I have. Still am sometimes. But you are recognising it. And you are trying to be the opposite now, I can see by your action. We are all works in progress.
#Day 1458 
Got my nose pierced 
Very happy with it. It looks like if it was there for ages. I did not have to get used to it.
Funny.
Today? Work, band rehersal and my best friend is coming to sleep over because her eldest is using her house to party untill the morning.
He is in his twenties and is cousing a lot of arguing at home. He still lives with his parents, is going to college, has no side job, is partying and drinking loads. It blows up my best friens marriage 
I count my blessings with my kids 
Have a good day TS friends and never forget to count your blessings 
Picture from the Maria statue at the Mexican restaurant we went to yesterday. There was a sign with it: āLight your candle hereā.
And so we did.
reminds me of Zootopia.
Good morning. Not awake yet. Happy friday everyone. Ill take 24 and give 24. Have a good one.