Hello world, almost 5am here and still too dark to go out with the dogs. Waiting for sun up and hoping the the rain holds off.
Its great waking up sober and being really ready to not just get through the day but enjoy getting through the day.
I have so many things to do and being sober is the ONLY way I can get them done.
@Butterflymoonwoman Im sorry your not going through the best of times at the minute Dana. Ive been fortunate enough to never have needed long term medication, I can only imagine what you are going through and do send my best wishes to you 
@icebear your nearly at 500 days Drew, Im certainly not going to tell you how to deal with social events sober, thats great work your doing 
I will be thinking of all of you that are struggling today and wish you all well while im on my walk.
Day 5 AF. Morning checkin. I wonāt drink today. ODAAT.
Went for another AA meeting yesterday. The regulars are advising me to get a sponsor. Isnāt it too early? I donāt feel comfortable with the idea.
Was craving a lot, so went walking. Clocked 12.5 Km (7.8 miles) throughout the day. Slept well after that.
Probably a stupid question, but what does ODAAT mean?
One day at a time 
Ohh 
makes sense. I never would have guessed though. Iām not exactly to ādaysā at a time yet, one day Iāll get there. But for now ill take things OMAAT 
Sending solidarity & support for your situation right now 
i can only imagine how thatās feeling for you, i really hope it can get resolved!!
Hey one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Whatever works!
Day 230
A day.
Hectic morning then I painted 2 ceilings and cut in a wall. I worked fast and was insecure. Im going to deal with the rest tomorrow. But the ceilings look smooth.
Insomnia is horrible. Didnt have melatonin. Now i will set my alarm for 730 and hope for the best.
Day #60
60 full days of sobriety for me today. Itās been an up-and-down experience thus far, but Iām getting there slowly, albeit one day at a time. Thatās all I can do.
Had a pretty rough night last night, and if Iām honest, itās probably the closest Iāve come to having a drink since I decided that I wanted to turn my life around & live a life of sobriety. My ex, who I lived with & spent two amazing years with (whoās also a teacher for the context of the story) went out with friends for drinks last night to celebrate half-term. Ultimately, my drinking was part of the reason why she ended up leaving me. I then had to pack my things & move 300 miles back to my hometown. Anyhow, we still speak & keep in touch; our break-up hasnāt stopped us from communicating.
She isnāt a big drinker & is extremely reasonable, but I canāt help but worry at times. Sheās her own person, but I still miss her a heck of a lot. I think part of me hopes that if I stay in communication & remain friends, that sheāll change her mind & weāll end up back together, but that isnāt the case in truth; sheās already made her mind up. And it hurts; I probably hate myself for it.
All I wanted to do last night (knowing there was alcohol downstairs as I currently live with a member of family who is the occasional drinker) was to head down & just consume the lot. Even if I ended up flat-up passing out (which has happened in the past after drinking too much). I just wanted my self-loathing and hurt to stop; maybe temporary, or maybe forever.
But I didnāt. I didnāt go downstairs & I didnāt drink. Despite that voice in my said saying: āDo itā; I resisted. And today Iām 60 days sober.
I know that some days will be more difficult to contend with than others. I know this journey isnāt easy. But various instances in my life that have tried to bring me down have all failed in the past - I am still here, and I am still breathing!
Thank goodness I can get back to local meetings from this Wednesday coming, at least for a week or two. Work commitments have restricted me from being able to go for a month or so. Although I need to work, my sobriety is also important to me, and realistically, more important than a job that is only a short-term solution until other plans I have come into fruition. I feel like Iāve been venturing slightly wayward recently, but Iām sober, and Iāve not went back on the promise that I made to myself to give up.
Have a great day everybody. ODAAT.
Congratulations to a quarter of thousand!
Congratulations to 4 full sober months! 
Congrats on day 24! 
Not everybody has to be active and find an inner athlete 
Enjoy your good sleep and give body and mind time to heal 
Woooooop!
You made it to 60 days
Cool jobā¦ Thanks for the positive vibes you are bringing in here with every post! 
Hi, well done for not giving in to your thoughts, thatās all they are, thoughts.
Congrats on 2 months, youāre doing really well. I enjoy reading your posts, theyāre very informative.
What are your weekend plans?
Oh no Charlie! I hope it gets better! One day at a time, youāre doing amazing! Hang in there!
Thank you 
Iāve got three late (10pm) finishes in a row at work this weekend. That might explain part of the reason why my mood is all over the place! 
Hope things pick up soon!
I donāt know if it helps but sometimes when I am feeling lost itās a sign I need to stop searching for a direction and try and find some peace where I am. Easier said than done. But striving for a way out often adds to the difficulty. When I can find peace where I am, eventually the path seems to become a bit clearer. Ride the wave etc.
I think I will go to the FRO thread and vent there. Food sucks hard, because, as you said, you have to eat. I would prefere to live from sunlight instead of having this annoying shit with food and caffeine. 
Try to find a group of peers in real life, which has meetings on trigger eventy. I donāt know where you live, so, unfortunately, I canāt give you any recommendations.
Noice! 2 years of sobriety! That is freaking awesome, mate!