Checking in! 81 days… can’t wait for my 90 day milestone!
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Who says its not good enough? Are other people indicating that or is this a thought of yours? Can you identify progress youve made in your relationships? @Minatasha
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Hellz yeah! Congratulations on 6 months!!!
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What do you do when you feel a depression wave coming? I’ve been really struggling with sadness lately.
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I’m sorry your feeling like this. It’s hard not to hear our negative voice, but I noticed a lot of positives!
Almost 7 months sober!!! Amazing!
Buying a drink other than alcohol when a craving hit! Super job!!!
Recognizing why u choose to be sober and reminding yourself of that. You got it!
Never giving up
Posting here
Sharing and helping others
You are good enough
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Tonight will be day 212 of no self harm
Apologies for lack of check ins, I’ve been sick for 3 weeks now and work has been having me exhausted.
Felt sick 3 weeks ago, got antibiotics, felt better for 5 days and felt sick again. got stronger antibiotics and a steroid. Felt better for 2 days and now it’s back. Doctor said he doesn’t want to make me take more antibiotics because they always upset my stomach. He said to call him Sunday if I’m not better. So we’ll see.
I think I may have to call my doctor. I got a smart watch a few weeks ago that tracks heart rate. Mine is always 110 or so at the doctor but everyone thinks it’s anxiety ( even though I don’t get nervous around doctors) my heart rate will jump from 70 to 110 in 5 minutes. And I know it’s accurate because it always matches up when doctors check it. I know heart rate elevates when sick, but today it hasn’t dropped below 105 today and it got up to 129. It typically jumps to 110-120 just from standing up but I was sitting down when it got to 129
Something positive: this new daycare is a million times better than the last one i worked at. They really care about these kids here. I love it so much. All my other jobs I have the mindset of " just this many hours until I can leave" and while I look forward to going home at the end of the day I very rarely find myself feeling like I’m actually working. I hope that makes sense. Like it’s hard work, but it’s not the miserable kind of work where you dread every morning and all you can think about it going home. I really think I’ve found my calling.
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Can’t believe I almost missed @Dazercat Congratulations on the 1,000! Awesome!
Kudos also to @Alycia for 6 months, and @Ranger1209 for 100 days!
I know what this feels like and I really wish I had some answers, but all I can say is stick with the cotton candy; the alternative will make it worse. I’ve been trying to talk myself out of a bender for the last week or so.
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I really need to check in more often. Things are pretty underwhelming now. Got some medical testing tomorrow. They’re gonna shove a camera down my throat. They give you sedatives for the procedure and told me I’d have to call a ride. “My place is in walking distance” I told them. “Oh, you won’t be able to walk” they said. So I’m really looking forward to this.
Had an epiphany the other day. A conversation with HP, or maybe my subconscious. Anyway, the voice said “Hey, dingus!” (my inner voice isn’t very nice, as I’ve probably mentioned before) “You really need to work on your anger management”. I was confused by this.
“I’ve never hit anybody in my life, and rarely even raised my voice.”
“You don’t have a violence problem, you have anger problems. You wake up mad at nobody for no reason, you rehash shit that happened 30 years ago and get mad all over again like it just happened. You make up scenarios that will never happen in reality, involving people you’ll never see again. The next step forward in sobriety is doing something about this.”
So, where do I go from here?
Anyway, just rambling before bedtime. Hoping all our friends in Florida are safe, keeping you in prayer. Have a great sober evening, fam! 
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Congratulations! You’ve worked so hard!
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Hey Miranda, I’m sorry you’re going through this too. When it comes sometimes the best thing I can do is just go to bed and usually it’s a little better in the morning when I wake up. Tonight the wave hit hard and that’s exactly what I’m going to do is just get to bed and hope it’s better in the morning. Part of what helps me through though is knowing that it will pass eventually be it a few days or a week or two. It hasn’t been that long for me in awhile but usually 3-4 days. Tonight I’m finding it really hard to want to stay here in this world which happens a lot. I carry this with me every day but when the waves come it’s harder. Plenty of sleep and self compassion will help get you through as it does for me too and don’t forget about the mental health thread, it’s a safe place to let it all out. I use it and people have been very kind and supportive. Hope you feel better soon, goodnight 
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Just checkin in before bad, still sober. Great to read all the sober dates, really proud of you all here! Im doing well, just been busy but grateful for all i have. Have a great day everyone.
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544 days as I start the new year. This forum is a blessing. Thanks to all.
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Congratulations on 6 months 
! You rock, keep on ODAAT
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#Day 1472 
Fist day officail as a manager. I feel the stress 
3 months to go.
I hope I will like it instead of feeling it like a burden, we’ll see.
A lot can happen in 3 months, good ore bad.
Again a lesson in taking it one step at a time
I’m thinking about checking in less. More lurking on the background. I feel like I do not have much to share, but I feel like I must check in. Like I must otherwise I relapse kind of thing 
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Coffee. Back to work later. Lots of rain in the forecast for the coming days, so I’ll be commuting by 
and 
instead of 
. Too bad but it’s OK. I’m sober and clean and sometimes that’s enough for the day.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love form Amsterdam. Going to miss the little jungle in front of my windows the coming half year.
@SoberWalker Keep checking in Claudia. You’re part of this. You do it for you though. While we’re in this together. Share as much you can or want. Not important. The important thing is you’re here with us all.
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Day 112 and I just got my new energy tariffs due to cost of living crisis. Jeez what a shock to the system. I’m going to buy a heated blanket instead and use that 
I don’t see why I should make someone else stinking rich. I’ll have the heating on for an hr when at home to take the chill out the air but that’s it 
Cheeky sods
Good luck to everyone else going through these situations
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Congratulations to the triple digits! Fighting pays off. 
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Day 153 or even better 5 months today. Went to a winery for lunch and was peeved when my mates sat drinking my favourite chard. the Reserve chardonnay. Clearview. one of NZ better wines and a medal winner too. Was I sorely tested? Not really. just a bit put out and be damned if I going to have to reset the ST counter back to zero. Cheers and well done. keep up the good work if you are reading this.
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Congratulations to 3 months of soberness!
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Welcome back! Good luck with the new try!
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