Yet, I’m so glad you are here.
Thank you for sharing.
Don’t lose hope.
I believe God will show you the way the works for you.
Go Bears!
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Yeah that’s what I meant by listening to my heart. Which also tells me to stay and build myself, just would like to be with my girls at the same time. Thanks girl
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Sending wisdom, that’s a tough one. 
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New day!! One day at a time !! We are never alone when we surrender . I stay in the moment which keeps my focus.
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Congratulations kevin!!! Proud of all the hard work your putting in!
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I can understand that temptation and that “pull” to return home. I think u know in ur heart what the right course of action is to take. If you stay, there are plenty of jobs out there and ur daughters will sure thank u for furthering ur recovery there and being the amazing clean and sober dad that u are 
its hard tho. But ur doing amazing Mike and making such progress in many ways
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Wow what an accomplishment!!! Really proud of you!
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You are doing amazing !! Congratulations!!
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Not that you ask me Mike. And I don’t know your financial situation and all that kind of stuff. But I think your counselors are right. It’s too soon. You got your whole new life ahead of ya. Why rush it to get back to where all this shit started. Your doing so well. Congratulations on your 128 days. Give it a year. You’ll be so much stronger. Just my opinion. But your doing so dang good.
Edit @Powerfulmikelamica
And you’re right. This is a tough decision. But you can be selfish to your recovery. It’s ok.
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Glad to see you around Kris!
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Going strong so far. Hope you are as well!
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Checking in! Today is day 5 for me! I worry about the weekend. I started reading the 12 steps on the Everything AA app. I know I can only take it one day at a time and that’s my plan. Not sure I am ready for AA meetings yet. But I am reading up on things about quitting, trying to stay busy and productive.
All is good for now!
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Checking in. 21 days alcohol free for me. I downloaded this app back in the spring but only had a few streaks that only lasted 2 weeks. I have had longer periods of sobriety before though. I have been extremely burnt out from work and I have some challenging things going on with family. I’ve really felt like I’ve been crawling out of a hole for about a month. Finally starting to feel things and get my focus back. Trying to stay positive 
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If i can suggest something about the AA mtgs. I have been attending online 12 step mtgs thru the free Intherooms app. I cant really attend inperson (altho inperson mtgs truly does have its benefits versus online). I like the online ones bcuz i dont have to show my face and i dont have to share. There is the option to share but the only video that is shown on the screen is the person talking and the chair person. I like to go on to listen alot and to get my mind on recovery. If ur having a hard time this weekend and feel up to it, download the app and check it out. There are many mtgs at various hours from people all over. Its pretty cool. Just an idea
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Congratulations on 3 weeks!!! Way to go
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Evening Check In
Day 234
Im definitely excited for a hot shower and sleep. Just winding down now and putting my boy to bed. Overall today was good. As much as Im trying to stay positive and am trying to maybe learn something about having literally no voice, it freakin sucks. Im tired of it. Im struggling with this lol but i have no choice to deal with this.
Recovery wise… im okay 
Nothing to say here really.
Health wise… i am planning to start working out again on monday. I think by then i should be well enough to exert myself. Get back on track with my eating also and just get goal oriented again. This has really thrown me off. But ill manage.
Hope everyone is having a good day/night.
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Hard day, hard week, hard on myself. Im working on letting go. First with the desires to drink (this time of year is always hard for me, idk why) then everything else causing me stress. My mistakes and ambitions. Like passed learning from work errors i beat myself up a lot when im wrong. Beyond taking classes i put a timeclock of my whole day, week, month overhead of me and cook in the pressure. Gotta let things go, not stop learning or working, but have those things be independent of me maybe so they cant push or pull me… Idk, at least im sober.
At least on this path i get to choose.
Take care everyone. Have a good night
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Hi Mike, all my respect to you. Followed your journey a bit from the side line. Can imagine how you feel about this. I started relatively fast with working after some of my treatments. It never worked out really fine. also sometimes at new employers. That never gave room for reintegration with a few hours and then more. Currently I’m about 5 months at home dealing with underlying issues of my addiction (while being 657 days sober). I’ll start next week with “just” 2 times 2 hours and they are aware that I might drop out again if some things are addressed. So from my experience the therapists are right. In such situation I remind myself of:
“Everyting you put in front of your recovery you’ll loose eventually”
This came through in so many ways in the past in a lot of areas, also work. It’s flattering to receive a job offer and of course be able to be with your girls. Also the addictive mind liked to tell me: hey they want you for a job so there’s no problem anymore you’re ok. Not even thinking about whether I liked the job etc.
If it’s not time yet it is not time yet. Enjoy the trust and self-esteem such an offer gives you.
Just my thoughts and experience on this, hope you choose wisely.
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