Isnt it nice to have a choice?
Remember the day when you had no choice? I do, never wanna go back there. Not sure i would have chosen to run in that heat, maybe a swim in a lake though. Hahaha, great job getting through your feelings.
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I love the background 
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Playing the tape trough: how wil I feel the day after I drank?
Be carefull looks like you are testing the waters?
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Day 367 checking in have had a rough nite by partner and baby daughter have covid they have been up most of the nite with the symptoms been giving my daughter calpol and ibuprofen plenty of water hope it shifts soon I start work in 2 and a half hours itās going to be a long day 
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At first congratulations with your little wonder 
And second: I found the happily birth myth stories overrated. I had 3 babies and thought I might die at every occasion 
Back in those days in the Netherlands they want you to give birth at home with no anestetics whatsoever. These days a woman has more to say in it.
Take your time to heal! Both physical and mentally. Accept all the help you get.
Venting helps! Talk about your experience around the birth with other moms, they understand.
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#Day 1465 
Not much to share, all good!
Today? Work and tonight rehearsal with the band.
A picture from Cappadociƫ, Turkey. It was the highlight of our holiday for me. All those balloons in that rocky environment. Almost not real. I made soooo many pictures
I have to hurry now, bye!
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Awwwww 
Polly my doggy baby she will crya and screech if try to leave her with anyone who isnt my son or my mum or dad or brother.
Like even she can see me and my cousin holds her outside the shop it sounds so loud and sad the noise she makes.
He will be okay xx try and enjoy your day and imagine the cuddles tonight when you collect him x
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I used to go to a face to face meeting, but they donāt work the steps and a meeting takes 2 h in the evening. Because I start to work at 5 am, Iām already in bed at this time.
Normally I take part in 1 of 3 specific online meetings every day, but at the moment Iāve to care for our new dog, too.
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Online meetings are great, i lived on the 24 hour one at the begining of my sobriety, but there are smaller ones for different areas too.
I spend alot of time alone, and i feel really lonely and for me i see this as slippery slope to a relapse in the future. So for me the face to face meetings are for 2 reasons.
- I dont have a support network apart from this community, so i have to take the time to build a support network to be apart of.
- Human interaction, as i really need it right now but in a safe sensible place and way thats safe for my sobriety.
You have a new dog thats so exciting
My dog really helps me stay sober, it gets you out when you wouldnt feel like it usually, and the love yoh share between eachother is something so lovely.
Edit : 3. I think im ready to do the steps but going into AA woth no expectations that way im going with the flow and open to having a sponsor and doing the steps where i had not been open to this before. (due to lack of knowledge and my perception of what i thought AA was)
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I first stayed at the 24 h marathon, too.
I got a sponsor at my first online AA meeting after I āleftā the marathon and nobody in the face to face meeting did sponsoring.
Iām glad that youāre going to work the steps! 
It took me a long period of time, before I could fine something that could nearly be a higher power, because Iām a atheist/agnostic.
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Hey all, checking in on day 831. I hope everybody has a good one!
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I believe in god, but i still struggle with how to hand over my problems and surreneder to him.
I have always said though when people get put off of by the words a higher power, that i feel just being in the rooms and powerfulness of everyone being there for eachother is a higher power in itself. The people.
Yes i need a sponsor now, i still am kind of put off from it but as i said iv scrapped all expectations and preconceptions i have/had and im an open book because i dont know, but i know it works for so many and the problems staying sober this time just werent there when i did 8 yrs before. This time around i need the support.
So you got a sponsor through online, usually its face to face but thatās amazing that you did.
Im thinking about going to a meeting tonightā¦ im not sure.
As i am really trying to make a strict routine for myself otherwsie my depression and ongoing trauma (im not in any danger) i get lost and stuck and find myself in bed for weeks where to me it felt like one long day.
So i am going to keep going to the meeting every Wednesday as part of my routine and tonight i may just go just to keep me busy.
I dont allow myself to watch tv in the day unless its the weekend im so strict with myself but it works and to be honest i say strict but its just daily living im learning again, a new routine after a traumatic loss, learning who i am, and how to live sober on top of that.
Awwwww you doggy is so gawjus
I love my furry friends they really are part of the family.
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7 days AF AF!!! Not going to drink today. Woke up with a headache but actually feeling pretty damn good today. I hope everyone here has the amazing day that youāve all earned and deserve. Hard work pays off. God bless you all.
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Congrats on your week, it only gets easier from here 
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Hell yeah man congratulations!!! 
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Day 833 clean and sober today. Going to be running the front office again today at work which is cool but not my favorite lol. The cool part is itās a very easy day physically and that means rest for my newly forming hiking legs 
Have a beautiful day everyone, love you guys!!!
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Congratulations on no cigarettes!
I drank decaf all throughout my pregnancy and I missed the real stuff as well. Iām likec you-I like my coffee strong. I eventually found some decaf that was better. I wish I could remember what it was! There are some better ones out there, and I found even better if I used a French press or did a pour over. Oh talking about this makes me want my coffee. Its 6:30 am here. My cat woke me up and I thought Iād try to lay here and then go back to sleep but I guess itās not working so Iāll get up and get my coffee now after all that talk about it.
Iām sorry to hear about your sciatica.
Are you seeing physio?
There are some stretches that can help alleviate the pain, but I know it can be awful. Thinking of you
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Iām so sorry they are sick I hope they feel better soon and i hope you can stay healthy tooā„ļø
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Day 84. During this past week, each day feels like 100. I am in the eye of the storm, knowing this will pass, and peace in my life will prevail . I will not give in. Grateful to all of you who understand exactly how it feels. Blessings.
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This is the coffee I remember really liking thatās decaf and strongā¦ I donāt know if you can get it where you are?? Oh I was going to post a picture but itās not letting me do it for some reason. Itās Tribal organic coffee itās called Serene spirit and itās dark organic decaf. Maybe you can look it up and see if itās available.
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