I have to take Pantoprazol 40mg 2x/day. Today everything is way better than yesterday.
It may be that my skin is upset bc I don’t drink enough water and it dries out I simply am not thirsty bc I don’t move much.
But both, the itchy skin and the cough can be caused by the Pantoprazol
Thursday next week I can half the dosage and one more week later I can stop it
Edit: I just ate and I have no pain and no heartburn. And this is so worth the side effects that will vanish when I stop the medication.
Thanks for all the love and wisdom yesterday, friends. 52 days. Learning the art of sitting in my emotions instead of just trying to run from them. Observe them. Experience them. Sit with them. Acknowledge them. See that they are valid. It’s ok to be happy, sad, angry, and everything else.
Hey. Checking in on day 485. Feeling tired and empty today. I seem to not be able to get anything done without interruption. I just want to crawl back into bed.
I am so happy to be starting the last day of a weekend filled with family and friend sober! I went to my alma mater’s homecoming football game Friday night. My niece is a senior there and that was a great excuse for enjoying some high school football and their amazing marching band. (I kinda nerd out on marching bands lol). Yesterday my boyfriend and I spent the day in our city’s downtown at the annual Fiddlin’ Fest. Multiple bluegrass bands performing all day, local arts and craft vendors, food trucks and perfect weather. I went and picked up my daughter right after. It’s really nice to have her home visiting for a few days. We have a family birthday party to attend later this evening.
While at the festival, it hit me just how grateful I am to be enjoying life again. Enjoying my family and friends. Just being able to be fully present in all the little things. I haven’t been truly living for some time now and I honestly forgot how much I do enjoy my life and the people in it.
Had a much needed, overdue appointment with my therapist Friday. I’ve been extremely unmotivated the past few weeks and have been in a kind of brain fog I guess. It was so helpful to talk this out, pinpoint some things to work on to get me back to a healthy headspace, and to start figuring out why I’ve been feeling this way. I don’t want or need the idle time I’ve had lately….it scares me to think about where that time might take me if I don’t address it now.
100 days ago, I was barely hanging on to making it 1 hour without drinking. I wasn’t even able to take my sobriety one day at a time in the beginning. That was too overwhelming for me. So making it 100 days is a huge thing for me personally! This space has helped me a lot of days when I felt like I was the only person struggling. Knowing that I’m not alone in this battle, and that I CAN be successful at being sober, is such a blessing. So today, I’ll keep on truckin’. I’m not drinking today. And that alone makes it a wonderful day!
It’s the hardest part. I’m abysmal at diffusing an emotion once I feel one and they are SO intense. I used to knock the edge off with a drink. I’ve really had to make my therapy start working now that I’m not self medicating and it’s been a RIDE. Sheesh.
Checking in Sunday afternoon. All good here. Beautiful weather in the northeast. Still dealing with this nagging back injury but much better than it was last week so that’s a plus. Staying sober is always harder when your kinda limited to what you can do when you’re hurting, but could be worse. I’ll chill out today, watch some football and get ready for the week to come. Have a great day guys.
Hey, thank you. I was on this app soon after I stopped drinking 4 yrs ago. I’m still sober with much help from this community …your comment is part of that. Thx
Morning Check In Day 237
Had a rough sleep last night by coughing all night. But thankful that my sons temp stayed low so we didnt have to go to the hospital. Hubby just left to tattoo, so im getting us ready to go the grocery store for Thanksgiving stuff for tomorrow Then probably do some cleaning, a wagon walk in the park with my boy, a bath for him, and then some Christmas prep (yes lol my favorite holiday is Christmas lol… I already bought christmas cards, bought my 1st christmas present for my son, and am planning my baked goods for the holidays).
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Love u guys!
This is my first Christmas I’ll be sober, because I want it this way. I’ve already bought Advent calendars for my family and dog. And I’m looking for an ugly Christmas sweater.
Yes!!! Go for the ugliest christmas sweater you can find It will be ours too! We didnt use on christmas last year but did on boxing day but this year has alot of meaning for many reasons! Im sooo glad that u get to experience this holiday sober! Great memories to be made.
I simply am not thirsty bc I don’t move much.
that’s all. That’s the memo. 
have a good day guys 
Morning Check In 
Then probably do some cleaning, a wagon walk in the park with my boy, a bath for him, and then some Christmas prep (yes lol my favorite holiday is Christmas lol… I already bought christmas cards, bought my 1st christmas present for my son, and am planning my baked goods for the holidays).
but this year has alot of meaning for many reasons! Im sooo glad that u get to experience this holiday sober! Great memories to be made.