Thanks @Mno Menno! You have been so supportive all along. Means a lot 
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Congratulations to nicely done 100 sober days! 
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Morning Check In
Day 237
Had a rough sleep last night by coughing all night. But thankful that my sons temp stayed low so we didnt have to go to the hospital. Hubby just left to tattoo, so im getting us ready to go the grocery store for Thanksgiving stuff for tomorrow 
Then probably do some cleaning, a wagon walk in the park with my boy, a bath for him, and then some Christmas prep (yes lol my favorite holiday is Christmas lolā¦ I already bought christmas cards, bought my 1st christmas present for my son, and am planning my baked goods for the holidays).
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Love u guys!
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This is my first Christmas Iāll be sober, because I want it this way. Iāve already bought Advent calendars for my family and dog. And Iām looking for an ugly Christmas sweater. 
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24 sober
23 smoke free
Happy Thanksgiving to all the Canadian ppl out there 
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Yes!!! Go for the ugliest christmas sweater you can find It will be ours too! We didnt use on christmas last year but did on boxing day 
but this year has alot of meaning for many reasons! Im sooo glad that u get to experience this holiday sober! Great memories to be made.
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12 days today. Feeling good about it. Depression is lighter, and I feel I am valuing myself more.
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Lucky 13 today. 
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Second Check in today.
I feel anxious, nervous, racing thoughts. I already prepped food for work tomorrow and did laundry, even fixed some clothes. Now Iām sitting here and donāt feel good at all.
I just realized that I have a second addiction, not only alcohol. I used to take pills that calm me down. Itās an antihistamine that makes you sleepy.
Iām sometimes nervous on sundays when I have to work on mondays, and I donāt even know why?
My coworkers and me are a great team, work is often okay, only stressful sometimes.
I think I really forgot to feel those feelings and shut them up instead on working on them?
Maybe Iāll start a meditation after showering, that used to help me in the past.
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Day 3
Today feeling even worse. All this time I have very bad appetite. A little nausea time to time. Feeling tension in muscles and all kind of other unpleasant feelings. Brain fog all the day. Eyes feels dry and hard to focus. Just back from shower and I was feeling like about to have a panic attack. Canāt say it is something to be worry about, but I did not had similar feelings for years now ( as far as I remember). At one moment I started to think I need to have a little bit of alcohol just to ease these abstinence symptoms, but better to shake it off faster and move forward. Itās day 3 already and I think tomorrow will be better.
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Tomorrow will be better. And day 5 will be better than that. My first few days were absolute shit. Adding a little alcohol is only gonna prolong the process. Stay hydrated, try to eat, even light exercise like stretching. Maybe take some melatonin tonight to help you sleep. Hang in it gets better. This could be the last time you have to feel like this 
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Yes. That stresses me. Iām the type of human that stays up very long and sleeps until 10am. Iāll have a bath now and after that some meditation.
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1047 days without gaming
3 days without technology abuse
I always seem to think Iām a changed person after a few days of doing something better. Often, big steps are temporary and Iām disappointed in myself when I inevitably screwed up again. So much so that I donāt realise I took 10 steps forward, but only 9 steps backwards.
Where stepping backwards is inevitable, so is progress. Iāve changed so fucking much for the better over the last years. But I barely realise it since Iām focused on the losses.
Right now, I feel Iāve flicked a switch. I accept that my best and perfection arenāt the same. I am no longer nearing that burn out I was creeping towards.
But thinking this way is dangerous. I have to be vigilant. Otherwise my hurt and the damage it causes will be exponentially bigger.
-If I expect to succeed and fail, it will hurt like hell.
-If I expect to succeed and do so, it wonāt feel huge.
-If I expect to fail and do so, the pain will be smaller.
-If I expect to fail and succeed, Iāll be fucking proud.
Expecting to lose, or staying vigilant is the best choice. So I should. Best offense is defense kinda thing.
But I wonāt repress the joy that Iām temporarily doing good. Enjoy it while it lasts ya know.
Next step, actually applying all this instead of writing it and forgetting about it 
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Have you ever heard of insight timer? Its a free meditation app that you can download to your phone. There are so many useful meditations, lots for anxiety, you can just search for whatever you like. I have been using it for a while and it is one of the biggest tools in my recovery. Even doing a small 5 minute grounding meditation can center us when we are feeling messed up. Eric suggested this one for anxiety the other day, maybe you would like to try it.
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Thank you so much for this 
I just did some stretching and I had the idea that I might need a workout, move more. But also relearn to relax.
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,536.
God Bless!
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Thank you
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Day 121 
Bit of a weird one this evening. Feeling sad and full of regrets. Iāve wasted so much life and done so many terrible things. Not feeling good or proud of myself right now. Hoping this passes quickly and doesnāt turn into a heavy cloud.
X I donāt know why I feel this way now. Iāve been doing lots of productive stuff today but lying in bed and got smacked with a load of negativity 
nearly finished day 5 no cigarettes, maybe that has something to do with it? I donāt understand it really x
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Day 61. Had a great day for yesterdays milestone. Scrubbed the bathroom and toilet lol. But my son baked me a 
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We bought a smart tv ,set up the Xbox and spent the arvo killing each other n eating cakeā:joy: life is beautiful 
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