Day 5½
Finished day 2 of my new job. It’s pretty darned easy but monotonous. Good way to practice mindfulness. Normally I cope with monotony by just going into my own little mental world (not necessarily a good thing). But data entry requires a certain amount of attention. Time passes by relatively quickly. Although I don’t get my first paycheck until the 28th, I will be able to undo all the damage I did to myself over the summer.
Have a strange feeling of depression when I get home though. I can’t explain it. I am currently watching Yellowjackets. Again. Season 2 should be starting soon I think.
Speaking of TV, I finished Mr. Robot and I’m not sure if the ending was okay. All the characters are there, but it’s not the same show I’ve been watching. Just like the way Lost ended.
Have a good sober night all!
Thank you!!! I am so freaking proud of you for getting 8 months Dana!! I remember when you came back this last time when we first met and it was hard for you to even get a few days… I love that you have recovery in your life !!
Checking in on day 489 here! I’m glad this super busy week is winding down.
Congratulations @Butterflymoonwoman Dana on 8 months! That’s marvelous! I hope you take some time to really appreciate how hard you have worked to get here. You rock!
Evening Check In 8 months
Today has been a good day overall. I really cant complain. Had moments of irritability with other people while my son and I were running errands. But overall I managed to stay calm and be patient. Reminded myself that I wasnt in any rush anyway, so why does it matter how quickly I get there? Lol
It was really nice to read so much support on here for my 8 months. I dont get that anywhere else but here. I mean, Im proud of my recovery either way but its nice to hear it from others.
I finally feel like im almost over this damn cold completely. My voice is back and i feel well. Cant wait for monday when i get back to the gym! My son will be back at school so I will have a bit of me time then.
I have also distanced myself more from my moms situation with my dad. I havent completely backed off bcuz my mom at the moment doesnt have many people talk to so I do allow her to vent and get stuff off her chest. But im not engaging in it and feeding the conversation. My mental health is improving bcuz of it. She has alot of counselling support coming up this month so i know she will be taking care of that way.
Feeling good about my recovery today. No urges to use or anything. Didnt do alot for my recovery today tho (which I said I would start doing). So will pray tonight and then start other things tmrw.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful day/evening! Love u guys!!
Haven’t been keeping up on TS. My bad. Been busy with work and the kiddos. Everything is good over here. Learning how to live sober. I hope everyone is doing well.
Ever so slowly crawling towards the weekend. One final late shift at work today, then I’m looking forward to a busy & activity-filled day off tomorrow.
We haven’t got the biggest of teams at work, so our shifts have all been chop & change due to holiday & leave requests. Hopefully only a few more weeks & everything will begin to settle down again. I honestly don’t mind, but it’s difficult to make arrangements outside of work when your shift pattern is so varied & is prone to changes. Plus, we only receive our rota’s for a fortnight in advance, which I’m personally not a fan of, but anyway…
I’ve been feeling alright these last few days - neither amazing nor feeling like rubbish. I think the initial “honeymoon period” of my sobriety is coming to an end, but it’s not something I am willing to go back on. I’ve worked hard to get to this point, and I’m not willing to throw it away; I enjoy my new life too much.
Long, cold, winter mornings here in the UK are making me want to stay in bed & not move, but I suppose I better - nothing will get done in this house otherwise!
Have a great day everybody, wherever you are & whatever your plans may be. ODAAT!
#Day 1486
Worked a lot lately. Today last day working before a 5 days holiday.
Tomorrow we have a party and afterwards we drive to Germany and have booked an hotel near our route.
Today? Work and in the evening band rehersal.
Still no walks for me, but occasionally I can make a picture when on my way to work.
Nature keeps me grounded and I need more of that now our world is burning on so many places
Last night was once again bad emotionally. I had every plan to just curl up and go to bed without tidying.
And i once again forced myself to tidy random items for 15 minutes. I always do that, decide in my head to skip, and then remind myself at the last second that i need to retrain my brain and that takes commitment even if I go slow or not get things done. A lot of checking to see whether I was finally done yet.
But i wound up vacuuming and crying in a clean room not a dirty room. I did some sad and angry art and didnt make things Even Worse.
And now Ive got a trip. I have been running around packing all day. Somehow its going to get done. Need to do clothes. Finish food. Actually get sleep. Im gonna do so much driving tomorrow!! And hiking. And eating.
I did final 15 min of packing tonight. Room looks like ive taken it apart to pack still…
I am not gonna get much sleep. I feel 10000 conflicts. But I will be outside.
Good morning all! Checking in on day 6.
Yesterday evening I had my first cravings… not really strong cravings but I felt the urge. I did resist the temptation because I want to better myself.
Stay strong everyone! One day at a time
It’s day 239 for me. I have the next 4 days off to study for a professional exam and I hope I can find some motivation. It is my last career ladder rung to climb and I want it I’m just a procrastinator.
Today I felt kind of sad throughout the day and I think I’m mourning lost time and opportunities. I was handed a great education that I lost due to drinking and I’ve messed up a lot of close relationships due to alcohol too. I haven’t felt these losses since I was keeping myself mostly drunk the past two decades and that is sad in itself.
We can’t go back, nor would I want to. But some days the lost time gets to me. Tomorrow is a new day full of opportunities. I’ll do it sober and I’ll keep on trying to get better.
Day 5! Woohoo. Almost at the weekend. I’d normally be panicking about no wine and I’m sure my hairdresser tomorrow will be talking about wine and strictly. But it’s ok. I’m enjoying feeling well and I’m sleeping so well. I don’t feel poisoned anymore and my skin is already less red. Got to focus on the why it isn’t for me.
Happy Friday all x
Checking in as I’m super tired, and it’s Friday arvo. Used to be a big day of beers for me, and my pattern of relapsing is usually spurred on my exhaustion and caving on stupid Fridays when everyone’s having a beer after work. And it was my job to make sure the beers were in the fridge at work, for our workshop boys. I felt this pang, the memory of drinking many stubbies on a weekend, the familiar feeling bubbled up.
Just the universe testing me. But I’m exhausted so I’m checking in.
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Finishing my coffee. Had a good busy day off yesterday. First concert I visited in 2.5 years was very nice. Therapy was helpful. Experiential expertise course was good. Now one more day off before working the weekend. Looking at a second hand car. Exciting. A bit stressful. I shouldn’t hurry right.
One of the perks of not using any substances (including nicotine) is the amount of money not spent. Combined with not going away on any big holidays in the last years I’ve got some savings now. While remaining sober and clean. One day at a time. As I expect from all of you. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from my little square.
Congratufuckinglations sweet friend!!! Wow you are doing so good, I am sooo PROUD OF YOU!!! Interesting fact I just realized is that we share the 13th for the day we got clean but I’m 6/13, cool anyways though! Have an amazing day Dana we all love you and are so happy you’re here and kicking ass!!!
I am currently watching Yellowjackets. Again. Season 2 should be starting soon I think.
Evening Check In 
