Day 2 starts. Feeling like a zombie. Couldn’t fall sleep till 3am. Rushed for an important 10am meeting and the other party is late 
Thankfully, no cravings and irritability is under control.
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Hey Marianna!! Congratulations on your 200 days 
I hope you enjoy your lunch out.
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@mamador Congratulations 200 days yayy!!! Amazing milestone so happy to see you celebrate this.
@nerd Congrats congrats on your 2 days, the sleep does get better, your doing amazing even managing to get there. Stay strong and you have all us here now so your not alone. 
@Mno Congrats on your 1226 days. Your remind me my dad has a bike for me at his house i just need to put some tyres on it and hey il have a whole new part of life to explore. In fact im going to order the parts today as i often imagine the bike rides but im not doing the action!! Thank you for this, and your lovely pictures from a different part of the world i get to see each morning when i rise out my bed. 
@Minatasha 227 days Congratulations.
I love your 15 minute clean arounds i think its an amazing way to get alot done over a space of time where a person may not have done anything. Its a great part of routine.
Try not to worry about how you will feel when a year comes which isnt far away your doing amazing and we have to remember life has down days unfortunately wether an addict/alcoholic or not, i have to remind myself this all the time and i do get some small comfort knowing its not all because of me why i feel terrible sometimes.
Your doing do well in so many parts of your life try to tell yourself how great you are because you are great 
@Butterflymoonwoman 247 !!! Days !!! Just wanted to say how much you make me so proud and inspire me. I love your check ins theres no such thing as too much checking in 
@DryIn785 10 days is brilliant congratulations to you
I definitely wouldnt see you as someone who fails everything… no way … I see you as a strong person who keeps fighting no matter what happens, see now someone like myself when i relapsed i did for a whole 2 years!! I didn’t try to dust myself off and get back up again and keep trying i just turnt my back on myself you have not done that you are here and your fighting and that makes you a strong amazing person who has will and strength, dont let yourself believe anything different.
@SoberWalker Maybe iv missed you posts ? Just checking in see how you are.
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Thanks! And so agree, just discovered it recently and my life will never be the same lol 
it’s replaced iced coffee which takes some work
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Thanks so much! And I’m always so glad to be here, this place is something special. I’ll enjoy it for dure, I’ve been waiting for another one for a week and i need it lol!
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Thank you!! And I’ll definitely enjoy, it’s one of the highlights of my week!
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Wow 47 days i am smiling reading this!!
Im really sorry to hear your having problems with your hip try not let yourself get to down about it. You never know there may be something that can help in the future i will 
for you. Im so happy to see your doing so well with your sobriety.
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Day 367 AF
Just got back from a walk. Had to walk slowly cuz I think I f’d up my leg. Might’ve pulled something. Hopefully it’s nothing serious. Been feeling pretty good overall. Staying busy with the kiddos. Gotta finish the year strong.
Ty all for the kind words! A lot of people to tag. And I’m a slow typer on the phone. It’ll probably take me an hour to reply. I need to switch to a laptop.
@LeeHawk it’s Goku from Dragonball Z, lol. Jayhawk sounds cool too tho.
Congrats to everyone reaching those milestones.
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Hey Dana,
Hope this finds you feeling a little less anxious. My parents separated after 28 years of marriage and that was the best part of 17 years ago now. They are best friends and have a better relationship with each other now that I recall them having for the last 10 years they were together. The love is still there with your parents, it may not seem it but the simple fact that your mum has gone about it in the way she has says she loves him and the way your father has listened says he cares about your mums feelings too.
I suppose the question they need to answer is quite simply “Are we better happy and single or miserable and together?” Happiness is what we all strive for and although it will cause pain and heartache if they were to separate it may take them to a happier place which you will find makes everyone connected to them happier too. (Or this is what happened with me and my parents anyway)
You are right though, all you can be is neutral and be their daughter. Help them both, there will be times your emotions sway one way or another at times, be true to your feelings and tell them when you think they are right and wrong. Let them know now that you will not be taking sides, that way you don’t get drawn into things and made to feel like you have to choose. Your position on their separation is not about them - it’s about you, you alone so set your stall out if/when it happens (which I hope it doesn’t) and stick to it. Don’t let an outside influence trigger you, especially so far in to your recovery!
With everything you’ve been through in your life there’s no surprise you feel like this, but your past has led you to where you are now, embrace what you have and your hubby and son will understand better than anyone. All you can do is work on you, they love you they understand you. They know it’s not you it’s your past that has made you become the way you are. Showing affection is a wonderful thing but when you have had a traumatic past it triggers a lot of emotions and thoughts so you shy away from it and protect yourself. It takes time to open up those scars because it took a lot of time to heal. Just take your time, it will happen because you clearly have a lot of love to give. We see it here in your posts and support!
Have a lovely day, smile and I’m here if you need to talk.
Love prayers and hugs your way
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Day #57
Another day, and another sober mindset. Truth be told, I’m not sure when I felt more tired - Monday morning at the start of two days off, or this morning with late shifts at work to come in the next few days 
I feel like I’ve had no rest whatsoever.
I’ve normally been quite chirpy, and I’ve really noticed a change in my approach to situations & in my attitude since I gave up on my addiction, but I can’t seem to shake how irritable I’m generally feeling. It’s been brewing for a few days, and I just can’t seem to determine what it is that is triggering these emotions. Weird.
It doesn’t help that I had made arrangements to do something productive on my day off yesterday, but we received a phone call in the AM saying that my uncle had suffered a heart attack & was being rushed to hospital. So of course, that situation took president & priority. Nevertheless, thankfully, after an operation, he seems to be ok under supervision in the hospital now.
Nevertheless, on a positive note, I paid for my deferred 2022 race entry for the Chicago Marathon for 2023 yesterday. That’ll take me to three solo trips next year (Turkey in March, Sweden in May & USA in October). Since giving up alcohol, I’ve been determined to book & plan ahead to 2023 - giving myself things to look forward to, and things that I can work towards. I feel like the only thing missing in my life currently is a relationship, but it’s important that I focus on myself in these early months of recovery first.
Have a good day everybody. ODAAT.
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@mamador Congratulations 
Day 799
The last two days I have tried to do several things, and they were closed or I couldn’t do it for some reason. It almost became comical. Oh well, they can be done another time. Plodding along with not binge eating and my marriage. Both are feeling burdensome. Trying to generate gratitude as there are definitely things to be grateful for.
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Day ten !
Rubbish sleep again
Back at work, i like my job alot so that’s a blessing. I’m hoping by next week i may have also lost some weight from no beer and wine
Today i will be sober
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Thanks Miranda. Today was a good day and I wasn’t tempted too much. I have patches and gum if I need them. I’m glad to know they worked for you.
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Checking in on day 11! Double digits! I’ve been feeling good about myself and the path I took. I’m very clearheaded and determined. I don’t want to go back to drinking like I did.
I choose to stay sober. Odaat. We got this!
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Thanks. I do hope the sleep gets better soon. I remember the Stephen King book - Insomnia. I don’t want to start seing shadowy men from another dimension 
That would be too intense.
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that book sounds right up my street !!
It will get better. For me sleep comes in waves weeks of great sleep then weeks of hardly any. I just have to flow with it.
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You can’t put a price on sobriety.
The ONLY thing you need to value is yourself and others.
Have a good day
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Good morning everyone. 
I have 2 weeks off work and I shall be using these to be 100% selfish. Well maybe not 100%, I shall still do the grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning maybe flick the washer on a couple of times.
My free time these next few weeks will be spent doing positive activities for me.
Firstly NOT going to the pub, instead doing the following…
Garden to get ready for winter and plant bulbs for spring.
A dog to walk everyday and get myself back out into nature.
Ive started doing the daily meditations on the meditation thread.
Ive started cycling again.
Im doing as much as I can in the daily exercise challenge.
I have a camera here that Id like to get out and about with.
I have my drawing pencils that Id like to use more.
I was hoping to take an allotment on this year also.
Then of course I always have a book to read.
I have taken part in online S.M.A.R.T meetings lately and Id like to commit to doing those more often
I think a structured timetable may be in order.
I know whole heartedly that I can do everything above and more. All I have to do is stay out of the pub and make sure I enjoy life out of the pub.
Drinking at home has never been an issue or problem, id rather sit with a cup of tea or coffee .
So im currently on Day 2 and as always Im feeling positive, upbeat and generally happy with my life.
Going to go see my dad now as he has a new phone he wants me to set up. His currently using an old Motorola brick size phone with an ariel.
Sorry if youve read this far I was just jibber jabbering I guess as Im usually at work and thought if I write it down it may make a difference.
Thank you. Please try and make the most of your day. 
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Hey all, checking in on day 857. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 2
Slept okay but woke up with a bad headache. Was finally honest with my therapist yesterday about the extent of my drinking and need for help. Came away a bit disappointed from my session. Not sure where to go from here. I’m hesitant to try AA as an atheist and with bad social anxiety. But did see that there is a local online meeting every evening at 5:30 and that’s when I struggle. So might at least try it. Online seems less threatening. I’m mostly worried about my anxiety levels as I try getting sober. That’s what always gets me. Need to make an appointment with my psychiatrist to see what we can do from a medical standpoint. I just want to crawl back into bed and hide out there.
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