Good job @KarenKW! There are other recovery places that are non religious like S.M.A.R.T. recovery out there too. I’m going to find the Atheist thread we have here and tag you in it so you can check it out. Welcome to the forum! 
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Day 859. Yesterday was a complete shit show at work and worse of a shit show in my head after work. I had such a sad night last night that I wanted to just cry but nothing would come out. That sucked. As always things are better when I get up, it’s just something I have to push through is all but quite frankly I’m tired of pushing lol. Have a great day everyone I really love you guys and appreciate you all always being here. It’s good to see the familiar check ins every day, makes me feel less alone.
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Day 1492 
Here I am @Twizzlers, no worries. I am on a short holiday in Germany. But also still doing stuff for work because we have problems I had to solve (well they are still not solved 
).
Tomorrow we are going home again and at saturday I work again.
The wifi at this hotel is bad so I cannot upload pictures so I wil do so later.
Bye for now! 
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Didn’t sound like a “meh day”, more like an annoying day. I hope today started kind of better. 
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Yeah, 1 sober full month! Congratulations! 
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Yes, it’s annoying sometimes, but still better than permanent liver damage and blood vessels that you can see through the skin.
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Awe Richard i love this! I love your advice and your prespective on this. I truly appreciate it. The whole taking sides piece… thats exactly what happened when i was a child. And it damaged my relationship with my father for quite some time while i was growing up. I saw the pain my mom was in and blamed him all the time for it. I was young then and didnt really know how to stay neutral or set boundaries. And even tho my dad has always been unemotional and not affectionate, I have worked on my relationship with him by working thru my own stuff that caused me to hold that resentment on him. Today im much wiser and more capable of setting boundaries and knowing when something is effecting me. I love them both and i dont necessarily blame anyone for whats happened. I do feel slightly sort of digusted with my mom tho for her meeting someone while shes still married and thrn asking my dad to work on their relationship thru counselling, when shes doing this? I personally dont think this is okay. But shes a grown woman and she makes her own choices and its not for me to judge. God knows ive done alot of things that can be easily judged lol anyway, thank you for words.
I also agree about this whole affection piece from me. And ur right it does stem from my past for sure. It confuses me tho bcuz i used to, in a sense, be “affectionate” all the time, but i guess it was mainly forced. I got paid to be affectionate so i was this way, but genuinely didnt feel it. Plus with all the toxic/abusive relationships i giess it is normal to have kind of gotten in the habit of being closed off. I think ur right. Youre always very insightful 
I hope you are feeling better today. Its really nice to see u posting more im glad ur here 
have a wonderful day my friend
Holy i went emogi-happy there at the end lol
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Been a while forgot how to use this app for a second lol ive been sober for months then fell off then jumped on again. As that pattern repeated my drinking got less and less and i even if i had a small ammount i would be extremely depressd the next day. So im back on the sober waggon again, it does get easier for me each time as ive fallen out with alcohol the more i have times of sobriety the less i like it wen i do drink so it makes sence just to stop.
I like it that way and life has got so much better since i went on my sober jorney, ive held down my job for almost 2 years now and i stared off cleaning the busses and now ive passed my test and got a bus licence! Yay me yes life kicks me still and PTSD can rear its ugly head hormones going mad every month dont help but i know it will pass and i move on.
Over all life is very good and sobriety has helped all that if u knew me 4 years ago im a very different person nowadays and its lovely. Peace out fellow sober warriors x
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Rob… im so sorry u had such a crappy day at work 
I remember where you said u worked and everything youve been thru and honestly i think alot of days would be hard being there in one way or another. I dont know how u do it. I honestly couldnt. U must really have a passion for helping others. I can sense it.
I feel this. Its exhausting. I get soooo tired of fighting for everything and so tired of pushing forward and so tired of having to struggle in a sense. I feel this 100% but then i think 2 things… 1) what other choice do i have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. The other option of not pushing forward is well… not really an option lol And 2) Surrender. I dont know if you do believe in a HP but when i find myself just feeling overwhelmed and exhausted and im burning out and just ready to scream, i just hand it ALL over to my HP. Surrender everything in my life to my HP, stop fighting, stop trying to control, just let things be as they are and slowing down. Living life as it comes and just sitting for 1 sec and breathing normally. Get grounded out in nature or become present in the moment. You have alot to deal with on a daily basis and uv had to go thru alot in ur past. Ur an incredible person Rob. Uv perserved thru so much and im hoping u get a chance to take a little break for YOU today hugs
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Congratulations on double digits!!! 
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Welcome back to the double digits! 
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200 glorious sober days! Congratulations!
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Hi Karen,
Don’t get scared, because of the god thing in AA. There are plenty of options for atheists. I own the book “A big tent” with articles from atheists and agnostics in AA. I could send you one of the stories if you want or if it helps you.
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Congrats on your 200 days. My wife and son go all the time and get pad Thai, they love it. I don’t eat it so I wouldn’t know. Just a suggestion
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Day 55 check in. That is all. I hope it’s a smooth sailing one for everyone
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14 days clean today!
Lots of scary change but all good things.
Trying to escape an abusive office environment that triggers me and harms my sobriety, but I’m so proud of myself for making it this far and I know a ton of good is going to come from that.
On to the next!
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Welcome! This forum and app have been so helpful to me and many others.
Its hard to be honest with other people about addiction, especially when its hard to be honest with yourself.
Be in bed if you need to! The first 2 weeks are very hard, but it does get easier. There is also a website for 24 7 online meetings - it wasnt for me overall but did help some nights.
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I’m sorry to here that you suffer so much. I know this feeling and as you said, it gets better after some sleep. 
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Congratulations to your two weeks of continuous sobriety!
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Just glanced at my timer and watched it clock the last minute to 1 week sober! Woohoo!!
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