Love this! My sister just had a baby a month ago and hey named her Stella 
enjoy your time with your kiddos!
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Many thanks @CATMANCAM I often forget to be proud of myself for those achievements because my addiction to alcohol has been by far the hardest to battle. When i gave up smoking and using that was it I never touched them again. This is my 3rd attempt at sobriety from alcohol and it is so much harder for me to achieve. This time is different though because I am not just going through the motions I am actually engaging in therapy, I am taking my meds, I am attending meetings, I am focussing on things that build my self worth and resilience. And this time I wasnt forced to do it by an abusive partner who then offered me no support but threatened to leave me if I failed. Last time I didnt want to do it because it was my only escape from the life I was living. My life is so different now. I have a loving and safe relationship. This time I wanted to get sober. This time I did it for me first and foremost. And then I did it for my children, husband and friends. I have finally set myself free!
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Thank you Jamie! Congrats to your friend on the birth of her little Stella. I love her name too. She was named after Stella McCartney as I loved her perfume and of course the scene out of Seinfeld where Elaine yells “Stella”! very drunkenly at a party lol. I always love kid Friday 
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Wow, 70 days, great news.
I loved reading this 
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Thanks Ree for the encouragement! I really hope the headaches improve soon. That’s been the hardest to deal with. I have a new therapist so just getting started on addressing the underlying issues. I spend a lot of time here reading. I’m hoping once the headaches ease up I’ll be better able to exercise.
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I just gave some advice on a new thread about headaches in the early days of sobriety. It might help you to try some of my suggestions
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I was just wondering about you the other day…70 days is incredible, especially after such a long time!! Congratulations!! If you can get this far you can get as far as you want
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I’m really struggling this afternoon. Nothing is helping this headache today. Usually my coffee and a couple Advil are enough to ease the pain. It’s stayed horrible all day. I was really needing a productive day at work but I’m barely getting by. Everything is making me want to say fuck it and get drunk. I won’t. But I want to. Feeling really depressed and unable to cope. Technically have 2 more hours of work to get through if I can. 
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Day 7
Today I’ve made a big positive decisions in my life. I walked away from buying a flat as, deep down in my gut, there were things about the management company that runs it that I didn’t agree with. Massively over charging for documents, unresponsive and in the 4 1/2 months that I’ve been going through conveyancing I’ve seen lots of flats in the block go up for sale which makes me wonder what is up with that particular block?
What helped with this was the support of my friends who have been great sounding boards and seeing a rental flat not far from where I am now that is super affordable. It will give me a chance to get back on my feet, have my own place, have some independence and crucially my boy will have his own space when he comes to visit me and not just a fold up bed in our one room at this house.
It felt good to take a decision that was the right one for my mental health as the last four and a half months have been really stressful.
What was even more positive was the feeling of release and weight off my shoulders. Even though it was a big decision that may or may not be the right one financially it was the right one for me and my boy and that is what matters.
All through this hectic full on day I’ve not felt the urge to use my DoC once. I struggle to take a step back sometimes, always pushing forward no matter how I feel on the inside. Today showed me it’s ok to make a decision that’s not ploughing on regardless.
I go to see my parents tomorrow with my boy which will be lovely. I’m so excited to spend time with him and I love it when he gets to see his grandparents as it hasn’t happened often enough in the last couple of years.
Sending all my best wishes to everyone I hope you have a great sober day.
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Hi, I’m checking in. Day 34.
As I’m starting to build up the days, I think to myself of how many times I’ve made it past a month. A LOT. Too many to count. Watching others move ahead and move on while I’m stuck on the relapse wheel. How will this attempt be any different than all of the other 100’s of failed attempts throughout the past 30 years?
I’m going to share why. Because it’s not enough to clean up the outside of my cup while my inside is still dirty. My inside is not going to automatically get clean by choosing to abstain from outwardly behaviors. God is working on cleaning up my inside. My lust, my fantasy, my messed up mind, eyes, and heart. If the inside is clean, it’s natural that the outside will follow.
Have a good day, folks.
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Thank you Catman…
These days I am so happy to share it here and spit out without being ashamed… And always receive some support and understanding.
Yes Wednesdays it is bad in the evening at the pool. Tuesdays I have group therapy regulary and Thursdays Yoga.
Today I had the 90 minute yoga class and tomorrow i will hit the pool again! Yea 
Did you have a swim or are you planning to have one?
Hope @Twizzlers can book a swim soon again too 
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@Miranda Congratulations 
@BLOODSHOTJOKER Hreat job! 
@KarenKW Drinking has never helped with headaches or a build up of work. Could you take a walk outside? Do some stretching?
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Day 822
Friday morning for me, TFIF. I am chipping away at work that has built up and needs to get done, plan to do more over the weekend. My son has exams next week so I am going to need all my patience to help him study for them. Going to try to get him to take some initiative, aware that that is an oxymoron. Food is not so great right now, but it is a week before that joyous time of the month. Precarious peace with the husband, but better that overt sniping.
Stay sober, peeps. 
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Day #5 and i wont lie i want to smoke, but i wont!! Cause i am stronger. I am sitting here coloring a picture of a penguin 
, waiting for time to pass so i can check in to my recovery meeting. I do 3 recovery meetings a week and one AA meet and one NA meeting a week. Today is meet #4 for this week. Have to stay strong.
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Day 250
Did 15 minutes of tidying that includes laundry.
Waiting to go to bed after i put the things in the dryer.
I will be on time to work tomorrow. I have a little card Ill put a sticker on every time I have a whole week of being on time. Tomorrow is the second sticker. A little silly but im proud. 2 weeks straight of being on time…idk if its ever happened in my life.
Have goals for the weekend as well.
Remembering where I was when I was about 50 days sober. It felt so long to reach that milestone. I was never happy at milestones. Now ironically I want more time.
Its nice knowing what I need to do at work tomorrow - i know generally what will happen and when. Please let this job work out well.
Tomorrow is an important day. Rooting for everyone to stay sober one more night.
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Evening Check In
Day 270
Day was really good. I made some good changes today. I just want to thank those that showed support to me today on my post earlier. It was definitly me stepping outside of my comfort zone. I went and did some xmas shopping. Got my hunny Jordan Aura 4 shoes. He loves his shoes. And got my son a car racing video game for 1 of his presents. Im really grateful for the extra 3 hour shifts ive picked up during the week recently while my son is at school, to be able to buy these. I got myself a new preworkout for the gym and then once I got home I did a workout. I am really trying today to be more present with my family. Just to be more attentive. Im finding that the evening is better today bcuz im changing my perspective and my focus. I do think that i have to put my phone down more. Im on it alot some days, especially when im stressed. I think i use it for an “escape”. But i will work on that 
Hope everyone is having a good evening/day.
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I’m really having a rough day mentally.
Not tempted to get high.
But i am having a hard time resisting the urge to SH.
I really need to find a way to calm myself.
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you got this woman. Hand on heart, find your breath, close your eyes, feel your chest rise and fall with each breath.
Remember you’re loved, you’re brave, you’re strong. You have a purpose, a reason you’re here in this exact moment.
Reach out if you need anything.
I’m proud of you for coming here instead of acting on your intrusive thoughts.
YOU. GOT. THIS.
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Another Day 1
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Really good day today. Day 77 in the books. Had a good dinner with my older bro and younger sis and her bf. All three of us had huge life changes in the last 3 months. Myself getting a hold on 3 addictions and forced to play single dad all at once, my brother dealing with Parkinson’s and moving to a community that can care for him better and my sister moving on from a brutal marriage and finding someone who she doesn’t have to take care of.
I finally can get a flight home tomorrow to see my son and get on the ice for some hockey. Life is good atm and I want to keep this positivity going.
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