Thanks. I have found meal prepping with my kids helps with the urges. We play games while we cook and it keeps me busy from about 6-8pm. Nights after 9pm do suck. I just toss and turn all night long. I know it will get easier each day. My day 5 was way worse than today at 21 days.
It didn’t take me 3 weeks to get to this point, It was more like 10yrs so I know I have a lot of work ahead of me.
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Congrats on day 5! Hope you enjoy your hangover free weekend 
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39 days substance free
169 days self harm free
2 days regular eating
Today was weird. My job has protesters… It shut down business for about 4 hours. We had to close 3x today in total. I also had a busy day outside of work… And I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything I am responsible for… At work, I’m a manager, and at home I’m in charge of the house and all the kids and all the schedules. My niece (one of my bonus kids) is going though a rough breakup, and another bonus kid ( little sister in law) is trying to get me to help her sneak time with a boy behind her father’s back… Ugh. I just have too much on my mind today. I will try to sleep soon and wake up at 4 to start another day at work before all the weekend activities for all the kids begins.
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Guys!!! I was craving a drink sooo bad but I said no and went to pick up my kids. I was with family and my cousin opened up a nice cold one, so tempting. But nope!
Then my aunt offered me a drink she wanted to share with me.
I openly said with no shame “ I’m an alcoholic. I can’t drink I’m trying to be a better person for myself and my family. Unfortunately once I have one I have no ending” surprisingly they all took it very well and didn’t make it out to be bigger deal than it is. I’m just happy I was able to say that out loud with no care in the world or cared what anyone would think of me.
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That’s awesome Katy! What a great feeling. You earned that 
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Wow!!! Thats HUGE!!! Im so proud of you!!!
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Wow!! You are amazing! I’m so proud of you for turning down a drink and doing it more than once!! And even moreso for letting it be known that you are not drinking! And why you aren’t drinking!
I’d like to love your post this many times
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Almost at the three month mark. Been busy living life. Doing service work lately has made me even busier. Except my house is messy again. Tomorrow I sleep, eat, and clean.
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Checking in with 55 days sober!! 
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You 3 are the best!! I’ve gotten so much great advice from all of you in the little time I been here!! Thank you. I’m so proud of myself I didn’t want to ruin such a great day with a week of depression and feeling like crap after.
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U definitly will not regret turning that alcohol down! And ull wake up refreshed and hangover free!
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@SassyBoomer It’s funny you posted today. I was about to tag you in the “You are missed” section. Glad you’re back! I’m sorry to hear about the smoking. I thought once I got my patches again I could quit again. I was mistaken. 
I have one of those nodules too, but they told me at my last exam “it hasn’t grown since your last x-ray in 2019, so it’s probably nothing.” Probably. I’ll absolutely keep you in my prayers. 
You’re one of those people, we love you too! 
You mentioned this is a sad time of year for many of us. I didn’t think it was for me. This year feels different. Not having a family hurts worse the older I get. I’m gonna stop now before I ruin my night. 
Sometimes, those are the best days. Just rest and reflect and recharge. I’m happy things are going good Dana! 
Seriously? No wonder you feel a little overwhelmed. 
@Ktorres Good for you! It should always be that easy. Why does everybody feel the need to railroad us into drinking after we said no?
@Fiarra Congrats on 3 months! 
Day 7 (again)
Been a strange day. Started when my alarm went off at 5am. Trying to get up early so I’ll be ready if work calls. But I didn’t go to bed till almost 3, so I tried to turn off the alarm. Long story short, I ended banging against the nightstand until it was no longer an alarm clock and it just kept ringing anyway, driving me nuts! Then I realized… it was phone alarm that was going off. 
I figured I’m up now, guess I should start the day. Made bed, prayed, ate. Nothing really happened. Too cold to go anywhere - daytime high of 25F but 14F with wind chill (-4/-10C). Called Aegis about getting my job back and left a message, no response. This seemed like a sure thing only a couple days ago so now I’m all apprehensive again.
The cold may be a blessing, keeping me inside. Triggers abound. Between the job situation, the boredom, the loneliness, the holidays, etc. I just really feel the need to drink. I just got back on the wagon a week ago! Tomorrow is goiong to be warmer than today and I don’t know what’s going to happen. 
For now, coffee and Netflix. Good sober evening to all!
P.S. I just realized I’m missing the Leonid meteor shower. 
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Right?!!! I feel like sometimes people want to push us so far just to see if we fail. And crazy how some are so willingly ready to even pay for our poison.
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234 days 
Thought it was a pretty cool number to check in with.
On the mend, still not 
but getting better. Hoping I can find some energy to go outside this afternoon.
Just found out they have a replacement for me at work, which was quick. I was hoping I’d have a chance to train someone up so the next 8 work days will be for training up and handing over my role. It’s bitter sweet. But I’m really happy to be moving on. Just scared. I hope I made a good choice, I hope my new role challenges me in all the ways I’m hoping.
Anyway thanks for reading my check in- stay sober
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Checking in. Day 42
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Day 398 AF
Day 5 no soda
Slow day at work. Short week next week. I’m ready for Thanksgiving. Gonna go buy some Christmas decorations tomorrow with the wife and kids. Just chill at the pad. Got nothing going on this weekend. Anyone a fan of the World Cup? Starts this Sunday. I’ll be rooting for Mexico 
. Games on Tuesday. Can’t wait. Haven’t been craving alcohol. Life is a great. The fam is healthy, can’t complain.
I hope everyone has a great weekend! Take care.
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Second checking in on day 12. Happy weekend for all of you 
today I won’t drink alcohol. Not today.
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day 262 of no self harm
not struggling with any self harm thoughts but still not feeling great. mostly feeling out of control in terms of my eating. I keep eating less and less and I don’t know how to stop. I don’t allow myself to use a scale, but my mom keeps making comments about me seeming to lose weight and my pants do feel loser. but my messed up brain sees it as a good thing even if I’m starving myself to do it. I’m scared but want to fall into it at the same time
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Day 6
Well hello hangover free Saturday morning.
I spent my Friday night working out, eating healthy food and playing with my dog so a pretty wholesome evening by all accounts 
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I did however get a phone call from one of my “mates” at 2am this morning asking me for phone numbers so he can pick up, he knows I’m staying sober and clean yet still…. He rang.
I’m annoyed he did this but also on the other hand it’s made me realise how incredibly grateful I am I made the choice to be sober.
This is the life for me.
Ranting again sorry 
. Have a sober day everyone
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That sounds nice and funny.
Good way to get the kids to learn about cooking too. Enjoy your sober weekend!
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