Gonna reach 30 days soon. Been feeling very tired.
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,577.
God Bless!
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Day 101 AF!
Wow! I canāt believe I made it over 100 days! Iām so proud of myself! Thanksgiving is in a few days and Iām not even anxious about not drinking or being around people drinking. Iām going to enjoy myself and leave if it becomes too much! Iāve came a long way but still have a long way to go! Iāve been debating about trying to drink socially but Iām nervous so Iām just going to continue not drinking for now! Thanks so much for all of you. Your encouragement and journeyās definitely keeps me going. Everyone have a blessed sober Sunday! 
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Oh my goodness!! Yāall made this tree look amazing! I especially love the āiciclesā so it looks like it could be outside 
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Awe thats sweet!!! Thank you 
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Hi, well done for reaching and passing 100 days, youāre doing so well. Keep doing what youāre doing 
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121 days free from alcohol
102 days free from toxic relationships
12 days regular eating
Had a relaxing Sunday with family, laughing, good food and a lot of naps. 
āRest dayā today despite of a real small walk by the river. Tired already, trying to do nothing more that could excite me.
He tried to call againā¦
Whatās misunderstood after over 100 days? 
Will start new work week with another inner attitude. Keeping away from negative people and taking care to not dissociate by having a walk for lunch break, eating and drinking regular. Will be at office for three days and 2 days at homeoffice. Will write a little meal and sportsplan I can lean on.
Hugs 
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@Scorpn wow that is a lot of stress for one day, let alone with only 2hrs of sleep! Bless you. Virtual hug 
offered, and I hope today has been atleast a little kinder to you, but preferably a lot kinder! 
Congrats on 40 days without substances 
@JDHealing congrats on 40 days
@Lovelylisha congrats on triple digits 
@Juli1 can you disable the function that notifies you when youāve had calls from blocked numbers? Or even better, change your number like I had to recently. Itās such a breath of fresh air not getting unwanted calls or texts. 
832 days no alcohol.
297 days no cocaine.
Just got home from a 2 hour walk in the dark, it was for a mission on the Pokemon game I play, but atleast it got me out for some exercise.
I woke up today with the migraine lingering, but some pain killers, white tiger balm, and a nap definitely helped, it hasnāt been so disabling today and now it seems to have gone away.
Almost time for Iām a celeb which I enjoy watching
I hope youāve all had wonderful sober weekends.
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Thank you for this ideaā¦
I canāt change to not receiving a notification that there was a call or message in the background. Was searching in various forums, but you canāt totally stop it, I think. Itās a Huawei mate 20. Will give it a last chance tomorrow.
If notā¦ Itās an idea for sure to change the number! Because itās triggering subconscious. 
Hope you are doing better!
I love tiger balm although it smells a bit weird
Atm i am using a pain oil, called Aconit from Wala, very nice.
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Checking inā¦
1057 days substance free
577 days self injury free
193 days sugar free
I canāt believe itās been over 6 months since I have eaten sugar, crazy shit. My sugar cravings have gone away except of course when my cycle comes, then itās on like donkey kong. My only saving grace is knowing why itās happening and that it will pass.
These last few months have been different then the summer month had been. I am being challenged by life in a bunch of different ways. I am grateful that nothing seems too much to handle though, and that is simply because itās all out of my hands anyways. What a novel idea hey? When you turn your life over to your HP, you get to turn all the shit that comes along with it over too. I am just keeping myself in check by doing what I know I need to daily to keep myself clean; stay connected, give selfless service, pray and meditate as much as needed, hit meetings and stay in my own lane. Itās working so far so I think I will keep on doing it. Somedays I canāt look past an hour, and that isnāt because I want to get loaded itās just because an hour is all I have in me that day. I am not ashamed to go hour by hour when I have to, I am an addict and I will always be an addict in recovery who needs do whatever it takes to stay on the right tracks. I have found this feeling inside me that I dont ever want to lose, itās probably serenity. 
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Loving your numbers youve come auch a long way! I always enjoy ur posts. Thank you for sharing
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Thanks I will check that out tonight. I have been turning on anything that doesnāt have commercials to at least close my eyes and nap thru the night.
I fell asleep on the couch with the dog last night watching YouTube on my phone
but I slept for at least 4-5hrs. I started sleeping with a fan too for the noise. Going to sleep every night is a total opposite of āpassing outā for the night. I gotta cut down on the coffee too!
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Hey gal! So appreciate your posts. Congrats on sugar as that is a whole other challenge in itself. Sugar is in everything.
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Sick and tired of this fucking disgusting and vile world. Makes it really hard to come up with reasons to stay sober. The government is shit, society is shit, humans are shit, and nothing will ever change that. And donāt hit me with that ābe the good you want to seeā bullshit. No amount of toxic positivity will change my nihilistic views.
What a great world we live in. Canāt wait for it to finally end.
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@Benwa10 thank you so much for the great encouragement, I am ending day 9 and sick with a kind of flu but deeply happy to be sober. Yes, sobriety is a source of joy
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@kamj I hear it. I am glad that you can vent here and being here. Honestly. Yes, everything is a mess, at least letās try here to help each other somehow from our own mess
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Ur absolutely right! This world is full of negativity and toxicity. I often see a lot of pain at my work as well as on the streets, on the news etc. Its all around us. But drinking or using doesnt solve the problem. In fact, if i was to drink or use over the problems of this worldā¦ id be adding to the negativity and to the pain and suffering as opposed to doing whatever i could to make a difference. And i know ill never solve the worlds problems but i can make a difference for a few people in this lifetime by being clean and sober. I hope u dont relapse bcuz of this. I hear alot of pain and sadness in ur post 
just know that i hear you and understand how hard it is to live in this world when we are emotonal, caring people. Especially when first clean and sober, emotions are heightened and we feel alot more. Hope ur day improves 
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I wonāt relapse because of it, since thereās nothing I can do either way.
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41 days no substances
171 days no self harm
4 days regularish eating
Today was much better than the past few.
I stayed home, and had breakfast. I never eat in the morning but it really gave me a lot of energy I am usually missing. I did regular household chores and also rearranged a room (office/sitting room?) Upstairs. I also folded clothes for a couple hours, but lost motivation to finish.
I ate with the kids at dinner time too, and got my little one settled. And I even played a video game with my partner for a while.
Tomorrow i will take my car to the mechanic and hope the bill isnāt super high, and then Iāll pay some bills and if thereās money left over Iāll start Christmas shopping
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