Hi, well done for reaching and passing 100 days, you’re doing so well. Keep doing what you’re doing 
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121 days free from alcohol
102 days free from toxic relationships
12 days regular eating
Had a relaxing Sunday with family, laughing, good food and a lot of naps. 
“Rest day” today despite of a real small walk by the river. Tired already, trying to do nothing more that could excite me.
He tried to call again…
What’s misunderstood after over 100 days? 
Will start new work week with another inner attitude. Keeping away from negative people and taking care to not dissociate by having a walk for lunch break, eating and drinking regular. Will be at office for three days and 2 days at homeoffice. Will write a little meal and sportsplan I can lean on.
Hugs 
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@Scorpn wow that is a lot of stress for one day, let alone with only 2hrs of sleep! Bless you. Virtual hug 
offered, and I hope today has been atleast a little kinder to you, but preferably a lot kinder! 
Congrats on 40 days without substances 
@JDHealing congrats on 40 days
@Lovelylisha congrats on triple digits 
@Juli1 can you disable the function that notifies you when you’ve had calls from blocked numbers? Or even better, change your number like I had to recently. It’s such a breath of fresh air not getting unwanted calls or texts. 
832 days no alcohol.
297 days no cocaine.
Just got home from a 2 hour walk in the dark, it was for a mission on the Pokemon game I play, but atleast it got me out for some exercise.
I woke up today with the migraine lingering, but some pain killers, white tiger balm, and a nap definitely helped, it hasn’t been so disabling today and now it seems to have gone away.
Almost time for I’m a celeb which I enjoy watching 
I hope you’ve all had wonderful sober weekends.
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Thank you for this idea…
I can’t change to not receiving a notification that there was a call or message in the background. Was searching in various forums, but you can’t totally stop it, I think. It’s a Huawei mate 20. Will give it a last chance tomorrow.
If not… It’s an idea for sure to change the number! Because it’s triggering subconscious. 
Hope you are doing better!
I love tiger balm although it smells a bit weird
Atm i am using a pain oil, called Aconit from Wala, very nice.
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Checking in…
1057 days substance free
577 days self injury free
193 days sugar free
I can’t believe it’s been over 6 months since I have eaten sugar, crazy shit. My sugar cravings have gone away except of course when my cycle comes, then it’s on like donkey kong. My only saving grace is knowing why it’s happening and that it will pass.
These last few months have been different then the summer month had been. I am being challenged by life in a bunch of different ways. I am grateful that nothing seems too much to handle though, and that is simply because it’s all out of my hands anyways. What a novel idea hey? When you turn your life over to your HP, you get to turn all the shit that comes along with it over too. I am just keeping myself in check by doing what I know I need to daily to keep myself clean; stay connected, give selfless service, pray and meditate as much as needed, hit meetings and stay in my own lane. It’s working so far so I think I will keep on doing it. Somedays I can’t look past an hour, and that isn’t because I want to get loaded it’s just because an hour is all I have in me that day. I am not ashamed to go hour by hour when I have to, I am an addict and I will always be an addict in recovery who needs do whatever it takes to stay on the right tracks. I have found this feeling inside me that I dont ever want to lose, it’s probably serenity. 
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Loving your numbers 
youve come auch a long way! I always enjoy ur posts. Thank you for sharing
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Thanks I will check that out tonight. I have been turning on anything that doesn’t have commercials to at least close my eyes and nap thru the night.
I fell asleep on the couch with the dog last night watching YouTube on my phone
but I slept for at least 4-5hrs. I started sleeping with a fan too for the noise. Going to sleep every night is a total opposite of “passing out” for the night. I gotta cut down on the coffee too!
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Hey gal! So appreciate your posts. Congrats on sugar as that is a whole other challenge in itself. Sugar is in everything.
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Sick and tired of this fucking disgusting and vile world. Makes it really hard to come up with reasons to stay sober. The government is shit, society is shit, humans are shit, and nothing will ever change that. And don’t hit me with that “be the good you want to see” bullshit. No amount of toxic positivity will change my nihilistic views.
What a great world we live in. Can’t wait for it to finally end.
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@Benwa10 thank you so much for the great encouragement, I am ending day 9 and sick with a kind of flu but deeply happy to be sober. Yes, sobriety is a source of joy
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@kamj I hear it. I am glad that you can vent here and being here. Honestly. Yes, everything is a mess, at least let’s try here to help each other somehow from our own mess
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Ur absolutely right! This world is full of negativity and toxicity. I often see a lot of pain at my work as well as on the streets, on the news etc. Its all around us. But drinking or using doesnt solve the problem. In fact, if i was to drink or use over the problems of this world… id be adding to the negativity and to the pain and suffering as opposed to doing whatever i could to make a difference. And i know ill never solve the worlds problems but i can make a difference for a few people in this lifetime by being clean and sober. I hope u dont relapse bcuz of this. I hear alot of pain and sadness in ur post 
just know that i hear you and understand how hard it is to live in this world when we are emotonal, caring people. Especially when first clean and sober, emotions are heightened and we feel alot more. Hope ur day improves 
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I won’t relapse because of it, since there’s nothing I can do either way.
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41 days no substances
171 days no self harm
4 days regularish eating
Today was much better than the past few.
I stayed home, and had breakfast. I never eat in the morning but it really gave me a lot of energy I am usually missing. I did regular household chores and also rearranged a room (office/sitting room?) Upstairs. I also folded clothes for a couple hours, but lost motivation to finish.
I ate with the kids at dinner time too, and got my little one settled. And I even played a video game with my partner for a while.
Tomorrow i will take my car to the mechanic and hope the bill isn’t super high, and then I’ll pay some bills and if there’s money left over I’ll start Christmas shopping
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Hello, im King_of_Sam and i am new here… after being 4 months sover from alchohol… i only choose to be sober one second at a time… its the only goal im sure i could commit to… some seconds are harder than others, however it seems to be working for me. Learning to control the present moment has really made me stronger instead of looking to the scary future of my sobriety as means to maintain sobriety instead.
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Welcome to the community! I agree that focusing on the present and just staying sober for now is the best way to move forward. Glad you’re here!
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This community is amazing, the support is here for you, you are now part of this and your not alone, it really has helped so many of us here stay sober.
Its great to have you with us 
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Day 260
Walking home in the cold night and passing a gas station was more triggering than i expected. It would have been so easy to go in and get 2 big malt liquors. Or even one would have been enough now.
Close to drinking tonight? Idk. I didnt slow down. But im having more thoughts like that.
I can document it here and check in sober once again.
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Its 3:30am here, but i just read your post and wanted to say im so proud of you all your days 41,171,4 is amazing!!
I wouldnt stress yourself about finishing the washing sounds like you got so much done already 
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