237 days 
Still trucking along here. Training my new replacement at work. Mentally preparing for the big change in my life and routine soon.
I haven’t been back to the gym since getting Covid 9 days ago. I’ve been for some nice long walks, trying to give myself time to fully heal. I still feel really weird come mid day, tired and crazy head aches.
Another weird thing, I can’t seem to stomach any caffeine/coffee at the moment, I think it’s the headaches that have deterred me. I was drinking TONNES of caffeine before I got sick. I’m thinking of getting some stimulant free pre work out and just enjoying the break. I didn’t really like how reliant I was on caffeine so it’s actually a welcome change.
Anyway, lovely to read all of your check ins. Thanks for reading 
Day 3. Unfortunately woke up feeling like crap. Headache, depression. I had really stressful dreams all night so not feeling rested. Trying to enjoy my coffee in front of my SAD lamp. I’m definitely noticing that my thoughts about alcohol are starting to shift. Realizing that I’m not the problem, but alcohol is the problem. That I’m not somehow morally flawed for being addicted. The reality is alcohol is highly addictive and society conditions us to think drinking is not just acceptable, but necessary to enjoy life. By seeing alcohol for what it is, I think I have a better handle on staying sober. Now just to get through the withdrawals. Thankfully I’m not having serious withdrawal symptoms. Just a bad headache and feeling extra emotional.
I am glad that you are here with us. Scroll back 7 days before and read your post.
It can be the last time you’ll go through it. Hang in there…
Is there anything we can do for you to get through these days? What do you need right now? Is there anything you can do for yourself?
Day 893 clean and sober. Wide awake since 2am ughhhh but oh well. First step of the process done. I got Corey’s urn delivered yesterday and my friend is bringing him over tonight after work. Baby steps as I needed to get acclimated to seeing the urn in my house. I am very unsettled about a lot of things in my life at the moment but am actively seeking the solutions. Have a great day everyone and thank you for the love and support. I love you guys very much 
Here’s a pic of the urn… It looks like it has clovers in the design which I thought was perfect since he had Irish from both his mom and me.
Just listen to me complain? Haha! Not sure what I need. I’ve gotten help at work with some of my responsibilities and that has helped the stress a lot. I think I just need to remember to drink lots of water and eat healthy. Rest when I need to. Thanks!
Checking in on day 45. Tuesday. Just another workday. My shift starts at 2 pm so I have the whole morning relax. No real ‘to do’ list besides changing my bedsheets so I spend some time playing guitar and exploring and learning about my new amp/effects modler I bought. Really happy with that new toy to play around with.
And it keeps my mind of drinking. Win win!
Have a great day sober family!
I think it takes time to find out what we need. Listen to our bodies. We have neglected our needs for so long and often they collide with what we expect us to be, what we have to perform and how.
But I don’t want to nerve you.
Hey all, checking in on day 891. I hope everybody has a good one!
Don’t give up!! You’ll find something better I promise. Maybe your resume needs some tweaking or practice your interviewing skills. Don’t let this bring you down. One door or a few close for that greater one to open. Be patient my friend! Much love! Hope today is a better day.
Thanks 
My resume could use a few extra lies 
I applied to a bunch last night at work, hopefully I’ll get a response from one of them.
Day 11
I’m having withdraws bad: fatigue, headaches… I know the mood swings are around the corner.
You got this!! I believe in you 
take it one moment at a time.
That’s beautiful, Rob. Sending love.
Just know that even though mood swings may come soon, they will also pass!! Hang in there girl. You’re doing great!
That’s awesome news!! Our health getting better is just one more perk to getting and staying sober!
You’re kicking ass!
Buying me some Tylenol today. I would normally drink to get rid of my headaches so I really don’t want to go that route!
Thank you!!
Fingers crossed
And keep applying!
Day 144 AF
I finally hit the “go” button and applied for college. I got everything completed and turned in except for one immunization that I have to get. I called the admissions office to double-check that I had completed everything, only to find out there’s a hold on my account. Apparently when I tried going several years ago, I owe some money for the semester that I ended up dropping. After I had my panicked, drama queen moment (lol because that’s just who I am), I talked myself through it and chalked it up as a small speed bump. I think I’ll be able to pay that off and hopefully be able to start in January. Feels so crazy deciding to start a long college journey at almost 49 years old! But I do feel like this is exactly what my next step is supposed to be.
Hello sober twin, You’re doing awesome keep up the great work! Cheers to day 57!