Day 241
Im still sober. Working new job. Kind of a nightmare day but it went fine. Need to get up early, like, shift is 6a every day, latest i can leave the house is 530. S
Didnt tidy tonight or last night. Tomorrow hope to do it more. And a load of laundry. Just sad still. Want to do a good job catering and never think again.
I think its awesome that u want to start taking care of ur financial amends. Im doing the same right now 
basically I do have a budget. I see what our home brings in and thrn subtract bills, food, transportation, meds, etc etc. Once thats done u can see what u have left over. I have an emergency fund that i store alittle $$ aside and then i divide the rest into all the areas i owe money. I nevwr leave myself broke tho. I want me and my family to live somewhat comfortably so not every last sent goes to paying everyone back. But i do make a good effort to pay some back every month
There has been so much alcoholism pop up in the HC field. So stressful. Iām in awe of your strength and courage. So glad you are here.
Oh how I have missed you.
okay so Iāve been struggling today I mentioned that. I literally had to be talked out of self harming. I was half convinced I was going to actually do it. just about an hour after I calmed down I got a notification. Iām very glad i didnāt self harm because if I did I would have been so much angrier at myself and probably made it worse
I just need to report that I had 6,5 hours of deep sleep again tonight! 
Thatās soooo outstandingā¦
Didnāt have that for years.
Maybe itās a change because of going on process of healing after 3 months?
Or itās the walnuts! 
I am sooo happy about that 
Day #71
Good Morning everybody 
How is everyone today? Day #71 of sobriety for me, and a day off from work for me. Iām intending on treating myself to lunch before heading to the cinema, and lastly, a local AA meeting tonight.
Iām feeling good after a great CrossFit class at the gym yesterday. Exercise really helps me & sets me up for the day. I feel like I can take on the world when I come away from a class feeling albeit sweaty, but the endorphins are flowing. Work yesterday went ok; nothing major to note in all honesty.
Iām planning on going to see The Banshees Of Inisherin today - a film set on a remote island off the coast of Ireland, starring Colin Farrell & Brendan Gleeson. Its themes include the loss of friendship, which is something I can somewhat relate to since I began my sobriety journey. Although Iāve always been fine with my own company, I am really struggling to arrange or convince people to socialise now that Iām sober - everything that I did before involved alcohol, and without that, it changes the dynamic of everything.
Of course, humans are sociable creatures, so itās only something Iāve noticed in the last few months. Nevertheless, itās supposed to be quite a good film, so thatās my intention for today - along with attending an AA meeting tonight.
Have a great day everybody. Take care. ODAAT.
This is a wonderful picture.
Very expressive.
Thank you 
Day 3 again 
Netflix me finks
Day 3. Off to a rough start. Nightmares last night that were really disturbing. I started crying almost as soon as I got up. My depression hasnāt been this bad in years and itās scaring me. Worried itāll get worse. I did reach out to a local addiction treatment center and have a phone assessment this morning. Trying to keep an open mind. I have lots of questions for them. My therapist sent me a book recommendation- Calming the Emotional Storm. Itās a DBT book. We had talked some about my inability to deal with negative emotions in a healthy way. I downloaded it to my Kindle and will start reading after work today. It looks like DBT has been helpful for a lot of people on here. Right now itās all about surviving one minute at a time.
OK, thanks for information.
Sounds as if you are fine at this moment?
Congratulations to the nice quadruple digits! 
Day 873. Good morning and have an amazing day everyone, love you guys! 
Checking in for day 37.
Day 1 today.
Hey all, checking in on day 871. I hope everybody has a good one!
Just saying hi and hope everyone has a good day. Much love
