Day 7 ! Not sure if it’s a craving or honestly just a habit. On slow and short day from work I would always go “catch a drink or two” which always ended until 3am smh. So I decided to try to kill the crave with a non-alcoholic drink. And I fell in love! It even has the hoppy taste to it. And it’s a mood lifting drink. But I want ya opinion ? Is this bad?? Is it just something that will slowly take me back?
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I dont think the non alcoholic drink itself would take u back to drinking, altho the problem centers in our minds, so i would just be very cautious. For me personally i can not have anything that even resembles alcohol or any sort of drug bcuz my mind will continually want something “more”. So for me I couldnt do it. But some people have success with very similar yet non alcoholic drinks. I would just be cautious. Be very honest with urself and self aware. If u feel like its giving u thoughts of the actual thing, then thats a sign to maybe stop 
Also… a huge congratulations on 1 week!!!
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I’m sending you a big hug! I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough day. I hope you are able to relax and have a moment of peace. You deserve it. You work hard and go above and beyond.
Is there anyone you can go to about the coworkers who aren’t pulling their weight? Or are you maybe in a position to sit them down for a conversation about expectations? It’s not fair to you to have to pick up the extra slack.
Is the child’s mother able to check in with her child to monitor his/her behavior? Is she supportive of you or one of the moms who think their child can do no wrong? I hope not the later.
Anyway, i do hope things can ease up some soon, so you don’t have all the extra stress on your shoulders 
sending love your way
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Stay mindful! Got it. Thank you! Short time but I already feel better, weird to say but I feel a little pretty. I guess what I mean is I’m starting to see myself in the mirror. I use to avoid it…I know I looked rough everyone at work would nicely say “you look tired” all the time. Code for I look like crap.! Thank you for your advice and taking the time to read my thoughts. 
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I’ve talked to the managers about them, which is why it was addressed in the meeting last night. I’m not very confrontational but I might just have to talk to them myself at this point. so many kids have been sick and the fact that they’re not washing their water bottles is definitely not helping. right now I’m talking to one of the managers about potentially having one of the girls close their room a couple times. that way they actually see all of the work and how exhausting it is to close a room that’s even already clean. even after all the toys are put away, closing shift has to:
- wash and sanitize all of the bottles
- take out the trash, sanitize the trash cans, put new trash bags in
- sanitize the tables and chairs.
- sanitize all the toys
- vacuum
- sweep
- mop
- wipe down all of the countertops and clean the sinks
that is all the bare minimum and that implies that all the toys are already put away which they almost never are. I’m hoping if they see how difficult it is they will start to at least clean up a little bit towards the end of the day so it’s not as difficult for the rest of us.
his mom tends to make excuses for him. if he acts out in any way she says that oh yeah well his brother does this or his cousin does this. but then she never addresses the behavior. he knows that is a problem because I went to take him to the bathroom and when she heard us coming down the hall I saw her go to another room and hide from him. he was throwing things, hitting people, screaming and waking up people from nap. I get the impression that his mom just lets him do whatever he wants and then when we don’t do that here, he just gets extra upset.
sending love right back, thank you❤️
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Yess!!! Have them do it!! That’s the best way to see just how much effort it takes. Hopefully that will help
Ugh. I hate when parents make excuses for poor behavior. I mean i love my kids to death but they need to be taught to be respectful, and responsible so if they’re doing something wrong I am definitely there to get to the bottom of it.
Also, ps off topic for sure, but do you still have the post up somewhere that showed 3 pictures you made…the third one was a girl in an astronaut helmet with a blue hue…?
I saw a cup at my job and for some reason it made me think of your art. But i cant put my finger on why it did 
and I’ve just gone scrolling but can’t seem to find it
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Yes! It’s the same colors! I absolutely love it. I almost bought the cup to keep it in mind. Do you mind if I save the image?
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Day 3. Still fighting withdrawals. Hopefully the worst is over after this long night ends.
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It took me time to letting go of the competition aspect. I had to let go of competing with myself as well. I had to give up the fight and I am grateful that in respect to alcohol it was given to me.
There is no advise I can give and from what I read you don’t want any, anyway. Which is fine. I think we all will find our way. I went back and forth, thought I’d ‘got’ it all after 90 days or so. Was corrected. Had to start from scratch. Still am starting each day learning. I hope you can find the perspective of a baby sleep like you had during the weekend more appealing than drinking soon.
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That’s right man congratulations 3 days seemed forever for me that’s huge! Just hold on tight you’re not alone you got this bro.
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Thank you for these wonderful words…
May I ask where it is from? 
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Thank you! This resonates 100%. Had to copy it 
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Day 14 goin into 15 in 58 min. First off I had a brutal using dream and felt loaded was nuts woke up happy it was a dream they have been often lately. I got home from work, slept over, was late to my meeting but caught the last hour. It’s been a weird few days but I’m staying grateful, and as positive as I can. When the meeting was over I was going to leave home but my sponsor asked if I wanted to come over, and have Chinese food with him and his wife at there place. I’m tearing up a little because damn man it feels so good to be back clean, and willing. I tend to sit in random parking lots after meetings and just listen to recovery speakers, or even just have dinner in the car with myself and my thoughts. He thought I wasn’t gonna go home so he invited me over. I’m glad he did either way, before my relapse I’d go over and watch drag racing with him and just hang out bullshit. So it was nice to go over watch a show I’m really not interested in and have s great time with them. I love spending time with my sponsor but I’ll never tell that bastard that lmao. Anyways now I’m home stuffed and played 3 $30 scratchers with a $100 I found in my just for today meditation the other day lol. I won 1 ticket and lost. It was entertaining so I wasn’t upset grateful I can splurge on that today and walk away without spending more haha. It was funny I haven’t been to the liquor store till today and they brought in some kind of funky moonshine one had a pickle in it @Twizzlers @anon9289869 
thought about you guys. The cashier’s who know me were like “oh man you have to try this” I told them I quit drinking and one goes “really what do you do for fun?” Before I can say recovery one guy goes oh he just smoking weed now. I reply “no man I quit everything” he just looks at me and says “I’m proud of you that’s not easy.” It feels great to be able to say I’m clean man. Anyways I hope everyone is doin well and if not just hold on man. Much love 
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Day 34
Already checking in this early today (7:12 am) because I’m still stressed. I won’t be able to do the examinations today as I use to on a friday because I can’t sit for hours with my hurting butt.
I have to talk to my coworkers and we have to change our schedule for today. Meh 
I hate when I have to do that because I don’t want to “cause a problem”. I want everyone and everything to be well organized and flowing.
Well, not today.
But this day will pass too, right?
Thanks God the fire training for today got cancelled. I’m a “fire protection assistant” (may be the wrong translation ), means in case of a fire I’m the one who exactly knows what to do. I’m organizing my colleagues and tell them what to do. And if there is a tiny fire I know how to use the fire extinguisher.
Okay friends, this already helped me a little bit to calm down. I’m almost at work, I’ll get through this.
Have a beautiful sober day friends 
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It never gets old!!!
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I can totally understand that. I often avoid for example cycling with others as my diabetes often comes in the way.
Try to think it the other way around: what would you do/think if your colleague came to you with this problem. I am pretty sure they’d say: sure. I am sorry you’re having this problem.
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Day #73
Good Morning everyone 
Day 73 of my sobriety journey today.
Work aside yesterday, it was a tough a challenging day. I’m not sure what triggered me, but I suddenly had a very sharp urge to have an alcoholic drink. The cravings were probably the strongest I’ve had in the last two months. I’d been to the gym, came home, showered and from about 12 midday, all I wanted to do was drink. No particular reasoning behind it; one minute I was ok, and the next, the bad thoughts started to creep in.
I immediately had something to eat and a full-fat Coke just to settle me down. After an hour or so, the feelings subsided, and I was ok. However, the triggers came on strong (for seemingly very little reason whatsoever), but I firmly told myself “No”. Very strange. I’ve been in a few social settings in the last two months, as well as having attended sporting events and been absolutely fine, but here I was yesterday, sat in my own house craving alcohol. Isn’t it strange?
Nevertheless, another working day for me today. 10pm finish tonight, and then my weekend can begin. I’m off tomorrow and Sunday. I don’t have too much planned, but tomorrow marks Bonfire Day here in the UK, so I can watch the local public display from the bedroom window in the warmth without having to stand in the cold I’ve been trying to arrange activities for my days off, but sometimes, it’s good to just relax and recoup some lost energy.
Have a good day everybody. Whatever your plans, I hope it is productive for you. ODAAT.
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Pickles hehe
Im so proud of you for being able to say no and straight say iv quit everything 
It feels so good especially when you get a reaction like you did.
You and your sponsor it sounds you have hit the jackpot with a sponsor one you can chill with doing normal things but that will also be straight with you and help you keep on track.
Those dreams i still have them every now and then and i feel so much relief that it isnt real when i wake up.
Im planning to keep busy today i planned that yesterday too but didnt happen lol.
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