70 days/ 10 weeks… cant believe ive actually done this
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Big family 
ur kiddos must be proud of you!
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Wow!!! Huge congratulations on 10 weeks!!! Im so proud of you & the hard work u put in!
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Only 5 live here. 21year old moved out in June. 3 in Florida, and 2 more in the state I’m in but they live with their mothers
But i think they’re noticing the difference in me 
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Thanks lovely couldnt do it without you guys on here 
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Day #76
Good Morning everyone 
Day 76 of sobriety and feeling tired 
I slept really well, but I must have woken up in the middle of a REM-cycle because I’m feeling a bit groggy. Nevertheless, I’m not at work till later this afternoon, so plenty of time to recuperate and rest thankfully.
Not a lot to report today, other than I’ve had a nice, relaxing weekend. Managed to catch up on some sport and TV yesterday while drinking tea by the log-burning stove. With Bonfire Night/Guy Fawkes Night now out of the way here in the UK, attention begins to turn towards Xmas. Albeit give it a few weeks - I walked past a shop on Saturday that was already playing Xmas music 
I felt sorry for the staff.
Cravings wise, I’ve been fairly good these past few days. Had a bit of a moment last week, but I noticed the trigger, ate and within an hour, I felt ok again. The big test (for me personally) will be Christmas and New Year next month, I think. However, I’m planning on stocking up on ice cubes, sugar-free Coke & Hot Chocolate - little treats that I can have over the holiday season that will also hopefully stop me from wanting to go near alcohol. This will be my first sober Christmas in at least 13-14 years, so it’s quite nerve-wracking. I’m aware it’s over a month away, but I’d rather prepare myself mentally now so I can head into it feeling as though I’m ready. Without preparation, I may come undone.
Anyhow, have a good day everybody. ODAAT.
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Kids are smart and very observant! Im sure they do notice and are proud of their mom
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Im sure ull do well during the holidays. Sounds like u have a good plan. Stay close to supports during that time especially. Imagine how proud ull be of urself to get thru it! Hope u have a good day!
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I have to say tho but ur daughter is such a cutie she looks so happy!!!
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Oh thank you, thats my Sofia, im very proud of her shes the sweetest little thing… so kind, intelligent and a real dry sense of humour…and those eyes…im so unbelievably lucky 
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Shes lucky to have u too
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Your so kind, thank you 
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Day 49
Have managed to catch covid from a work mate,
Currently doing ok, bit fevery and fluish so far.
Still om the straight and narrow, thoughts of drinking here and there I think because the warmer weather is here and thats just usual for us here in NZ.
Its definitely so much nicer waking up hangover free,
Knowing im going to get through covid without drinking is also a good thing.
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Your doing great! Sorry to hear about the covid i hope it passes very quickly for you, congrats on 49 days…hey your 50 tomorrow 
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Thank you MTB is my passion and I my trying to get back on that path again. It was great to be out with our beginner ladies in our group!! I miss my group of ladies i ride with!!! Girlz Gone Riding!
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Thankn you for this.
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Checking in on day 310! It’s been a while since I’ve posted life has been opening new doors I never could have imagined when recovery turns into deconstructing of my CPSD . Finding a therapist and working through things to heal fully. Quitting drinking was one of the biggest steps in my journey to recovering and breaking down walls built solid by brick. When you follow your path to true self love and improvement the light that shines is bright and for the first time in my life I’m feeling free! Free from fear and anxiety sadness and despair! There is work to be done still but i don’t have to be unsure and walk a rocky road. I can have my feet planted in the ground. One day at a time has truly saved my life! God bless sending positive energy to all!
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Day 4 early morning. Yesterday was really rough and I’m bracing for more of the same today. I really don’t know how I’m going to get through work. Wondering if I should take a couple days off, but maybe work would be a good distraction. I’ll see how it goes. I’m just barely surviving right now.
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183, checking in.
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13,547 days living in recovery.
PTSD flash backs raised it’s ugly head yesterday.
It has been sometime since I have had any flashbacks.(10yrs. or so)
It certainly was strange, thankfully my reaction to it did not turn into irreparable damage.
Those around me that I Love could not relate to what was happening.
It is always hard to explain what is going on in the moment, since it is a merging of the present and past and the feeling of needing to feel safe first and foremost, even though no dangers are present.
I’m sure those witnessing it are bewildered by the event also. 
So today will be amends day to smooth out any misunderstandings.
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