Hi Scorpn,
I only know the basics of what I have read on this app for you and your partner but I will say this, no matter how hard it may seem to do, you owe it to yourself to set boundaries with anyone who is crossing them. No matter how much you love and care for someone, you have to love yourself first. (can’t pour from an empty cup ;))
Whether you send the message to them or not I am proud of you for writing out what is on your mind and making the choice to come here and talk to us instead of throwing away your awesome progress by picking up.
Keep going, you’re doing amazing. Sending hugs.
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Day 9 had some mood swings today, but otherwise good. Kept busy doing some cleaning. Read a few books. Getting out of my head some.
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Day 819
Feeling a little down and sensitive. And guilty that I am feeling that way when I am very blessed, really. I sometimes feel I just suck at being happy, and appreciating what I have. Should probably get back on the gratitude thread or something. Have a good sober day/evening folks. If nothing else I will be sober today. 
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Evening Check In
Day 267
I am sooo ready for bed lol. All the caffeine i consumed thruout the day kept me awake and i didnt even nap. I think im on hour 37 of being awake. Ugh. Probably for the best tho so that it doesnt mess up my sleep tonight. We have our usual full time nurse in tonight for my son as well as a new nurse training. Will be happy to have another floater nurse around.
Health wise… i exercised well today and even ate well. So happy with that!
Recovery wise… all good here. Except today for some odd reason i ended up replaying a traumatic situation in my head. Like it was a tape in my mind. Had to physically tell myself to stop thinking about it to snap myself out of it. But other than that im okay. Grateful that using drugs doesnt even pop into my mind when experiencing intense emotion anymore
Thats about it for tonight! Hope everyone is doing well! Proud of everyone on here!
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I added a bit with help from @Butterflymoonwoman (typed further down the thread this one’s on) and sent it and this is how he responded. I’m really happy that he’s open to talking about this issue with me instead of shutting down or getting defensive. 
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Ur absolutely sooo welcome but honestly u did all the work on making it sound perfect. Lets hope the best solution comes out of this 
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It’s ok to feel down sometimes. You can’t be happy all the time. As long as you don’t dwell on the negative for too long anyway.
I hope something makes you smile today. A beautiful view, a kind word, or a fond memory.
I’m sending positive energy your way 
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@Scorpn amazing! So happy for you, hoping you guys can talk and work out a solution. Also love that you had some help from @Butterflymoonwoman 
always helpful having some support.
Xoxo
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Hello friends. Checking in on day 514. The days are getting shorter and I am craving some mad carbs 
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Checking In Day 10. Terrible day at work today but thankful I wasn’t hungover or too tired trying to deal with it. Have to learn how to start packing lunches too. I never really ate more than once a day. Now that I’m not getting all those liquid calories I’m actually hungry. And I carve sweets now too. Never ate candy before, but I have been craving Skittles and Snickers bars recently.
I’m really excited for Wednesdays meeting. I missed tonight and most likely won’t make it in time for tomorrow either cause of work.
Really clicked with a few of the ppl I met last week. Hopefully new friends and a new me will come from it.
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Day 247
I did Not want to set the timer to clean randomly for 15 minutes but i did. Floor looks much better and did the litter box and took out the trash. Its hard to start but it made a difference.
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Congratulations on your ten days HBC
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Day 31 for me.
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Day #77
Good Morning 
I hope everybody is in good health today.
Another day of gratitude today. There’s no need for me to ramble on social media like I’m seeing a lot of “friends” doing. Since I’ve started this sobriety journey of mine, I’ve been spending my time focusing on bettering myself, both physically and mentally. Whether that’s through outlets such as exercise, or just engaging in exciting activities on my days off from work, I’m no longer finding the urgency to notify everybody on social media of what I’m doing, when I’m doing it, and why they should even know in the first place. There’s something quite gratifying about taking my life back.
I’m definitely no Saint - alcohol has well and truly ruined my life, but I saw a quote that a good friend mentioned in a post that really stuck with me: “People will notice the change in your attitude towards them but won’t notice their behaviour that made you change”. This really was something that made me stop and think… I’ve burnt bridges through my addiction, and I cannot change my past, but I know that I am a better person now, and that’s all I can focus on. I gave up everything in order to gain one thing, but now, I’ve given up one thing in order to gain everything.
Sure, I’ve lost friendships and I feel like I can’t turn to many people in real life to speak to about how I’m feeling, but that’s ok. Although I’m nearly 3 months into my journey, the raw emotions are still there and I’m still learning about myself. That is also ok. All I can prioritise is attempting to better myself one day at a time. If people want to remain friends; great. If not, then that is also fine - they were clearly nothing more than a short chapter in my book of life.
Have a great day everybody - ODAAT.
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Absolutely gorgeous Menno 
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Enjoy Menno! Texel is a good place to be! 
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- 109 days free from alcohol
- 90 days free from toxic relationships
- 0 days imperfect regular eating (restart)
Today I will just try my best to:
Wishing you the same 
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Hi HBT,
ohyes it’s so important to be prepare with food and make little plans, especially if we have to work. I am trying to plan easy meals or prepare something like soups or banana bread that can be freezed. Porridge, protein shakes or Omelette are also my life savers!
But I just seem like a pro… Big fake 
Had to set m back my regular eating timer this morning, as I had a binge yesterday in the afternoon while working, in a dissociated mood. So let’s go on today. ODAAT. 
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I’m sorry to hear about your struggle with yourself and your stressfull boss.
I hope your better today!
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