Checking in for day 43 AF.
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Im sorry ur feeling so down about ur financial situation and just where u feel things are at right now in ur life. I can relate in maybe a sense, just with the amount of debt we incurred bcuz of our drug use and honestly thinking that we should be ALOT farther ahead than where we are. I often compare myself to others which doesnt help either 
Honestly though, im proud of you for staying sober and improving ur life. We canf change the past. Whats done is done. But things WILL continue to improve, sometimes quickly and sometiems slowly, but they always do if we stay clean and sober. Im praying something comes up for u work wise. It will eventually 
im hoping before xmas so that it can relieve some of that xmas stress. Ive been making alot of my xmas gifts this year. It helps with not having to spend so much. Hope ur day improves ladyā¦ hugs!
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Congratulations on 10 whole days! Great work 
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Morning Check in
Day 268
I had an incredible sleep!!! Felt so good! Was sleeping so heavy that i woke up super disoriented thinking i had to work lol. My son and I are waiting for his bus so he can go to school. Today is quite cold (-30Ā°C) so will need to dress well for it. Plans for the day are prayer, workout, doing my nails, cleaning, finishing a dreamcatcher, & a couple errands and phone calls. Thats about it Grateful for another day 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
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Day 38
It was a stressful day, worse than yesterday.
But I decided to not let it consume me fully as it almost happened yesterday.
The worst case at work is there, weāre missing 50% of our staff.
It is what it is.
I didnāt drink today and I donāt want to do it in the future.
So, it still is a good day.
I won.
I wish you all a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in with 45 days sober. 
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Look at you with 45 days 
Congratulations
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It will get better if you stay sober. I quit my job and didnāt work for five months when I got sober. Best decision ever. Hang in there. You are giving your family a great gift by being sober.
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Day 7. Been a long time since a day 7.
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Oh my lord! That is so bloody cold! It was a lovely warm 28c here in Australia yesterday and during winter we dont even get down to zero. No snow where I live. I can not imagine how cold that must be! Have a beautiful sober day my friend and stay warm
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@Planipennia I take Naltrexone which works on the reward centre when it comes to alcohol which takes away the good feeling when you drink and I also take Campril which works on your GABA receptors in the brain to help curb cravings. If you visit your GP and ask for both these meds they will prescribe them for you and they will help. I am not sure why you have not been offered anything to help with your drinking. You have to be sober to start them so you should have no problem getting them 
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Day 29!!! Feeling really good today, but I have to do a trip into town (I live in a very remote area) to do some supply restock and grocery shopping. In the past this is when I would dreadfully stock up on enough booze for a couple weeks since there are no stores around me here.
I am not tempted to buy anything right now and Iām hoping the nice rainy 2hr drive will give me time to reflect on some stuff and I can get in and out safely.
I called my brother this morning, who doesnāt drink and lives near me, heās been a pretty big advocate for my sobriety as we are both watching our beloved parents drink themselves into an early graveā¦ I told him I was going to the store today and asked if I could stop by on my way home to check in and have someone physically see that I didnāt buy.
I got this. We got this. Staying sober today!
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Congrats on day 7!
I personally thought the first week was the hardest (I know everyone is different) Keep up the good work.
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I am so so looking forward to those great sleeps! Still dealing with a bit of insomnia and CRAZY dreams 
but that makes sense since I havenāt actually slept well (passed out doesnāt count lol) Iām 10+ years! 
bundle up! Itās cold and rainy where I am today, but not that cold 
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Hi everyone!
Checking in on Day 43 again (as I was one day ahead of myself for some reason) but still sober so thats the main thing.
It is a really early start for me at 430am as I have to start work at 7am and I love my hour to myself before everyone is up to do my TS writing and reading and then some quick yoga stretches before getting ready to go to work.
Yesterday evening was challenging as my husband and I argued and we dont do that often. We have my 15 year old step daughter living with us permanently because her mother is struggling with her mental health. My step daughter has not been performing well at school in response to her mothers erratic behaviour and natural dislike for anything academic and she has fallen behind on school work. It has been a couple of weeks now since she began living here and I asked if my husband had checked her progress on an assessment that was due weeks ago. He said she had finished it. I went to check and she hadnt even started it. I asked my husband how he knew she was finished it and he said because she told me she had. I told him she hadnt started and he needed to be on top of this or she would fail the year. She needs to be pushed to do this work or she would just not do it and take advantange of the fact he trusted her word. We have had trouble with her lying in the past about school work and he always gets defensive when I say anything or catch her out on her lying. I feel if we continue to just let her do her own thing then she will just not do her school work. He got angry for saying anything.
It makes me angry that I am so new in my sobriety but have now had to except this huge change of her living with us (which of course she is welcome, I love her very much) but now feel like he is doing nothing to support her in her schooling like checking that work is being completed, talking to her teachers or monitoring her screen time. She spends all of her time watching movies on her device or messaging friends and no time on school work. She does all of her writing tasks for school on her laptop due to her dislexia and handwriting problems but when I ask her to show me and her dad what she has done for the day she has typed almost nothing. She has end of year exams coming up and does no study. My husband does not seem too worried about this. I dont expect top grades but some effort needs to be made. I find it stresssful that I am pushing so hard for my husband to give a shit about his own childs education. When it comes to my 2 children I make sure they do their school work and always check that what they tell me they have done is actually true. If I didnt check they just wouldnt do it and that has happened with my step daughter. Do I just stop pushing and let her fail? Or do I keep pushing and she hates me and my husband resents me for getting involved. This causes me so much anxiety and makes me want to drink so I just dont care anymore.
Still not going to drink though.
Ree
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Wow that sounds extremely frustrating. Thats alot of extra added pressure and stress on top of focusing on ur own sobriety. I think ur doing the best u can to try and communicate the importance of education for her. Do you think there may be other things going on with ur step daughter other than her moms mental health? My mental health stuff for herself? Just curious
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I hear u girl. When I used drugs i never had a single dream. Now since getting clean i dream all the time. And they are crazy dreams. My mental health med makes me groggy thankfully so i usually fall asleep well but dont always feel rested getting up. Last night I slept sooo heavy tho. Hope u start getting reatful sleeps soon tho too. Sleep is soo important for our well being
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Thaaaank you.
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My step daughter also has social anxiety, sensory processing disorder and ADHD. All of which she takes medication for (antidepressant and Vyvance). So yes there is alot going on for her that has been made so much worse by her mothers illness. My husband is a big softy when it comes to Maddy. She is his little girl (even though she is taller than me and I am 5 foot 8) and he finds it hard to be tough on her when it comes to anything. But i have tried to explain that you can still be tough and be gentle when it comes to encouraging her to do her school work. I just can not seem to get through to him that if he doesnt put in the work now it will make it even worse for her in the future. 
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