Day 11. I really like the journal feature!
I have a ton of paperwork at the end of the work day so writing in a journal is the last thing I wanna do but having the feature on here is great.
@Juli1 Thank you for the tips.
My daughter actually made my favorite treat last night, Banana Nut Muffin’s for me to take to work.
I work in construction so I don’t have access to heat food up. I did take your advice on soups so I ordered a thermos tonight off Amazon.
I made a sandwich and what I consider a salad today. But that basically consisted of a thin layer of lettuce covered with cheese, bacon, chick peas, red beets and hard boiled eggs with Blue Cheese dressing and Croutons.
I have a lot of catching up to do on this thread. Been busy with work and the fam. Nothing much going on. Going to my niece’s quinceñera this Saturday. I’m sure there’s gonna be a lot of booze. I’m not trippin tho.
I know you have a lot going on with your job, with your own children and now with what’s going on here. I would treat her like your own child and hope that she feels thankful and not resentful. I think if you help her it might take some of your anger away, like you say, just let the anger go… And the hassle with your husband. All that’s agitating… Putting your effort towards her might make a difference with her to do a better job. Hopefully she will feel like somebody cares enough to get onto her about it. Good luck with all of it.
Day 39
Finally I had a good night sleep without any weird dreams. I did some stretching yesterday before bed and my sore back + the dizzyness it caused are much better. I feel almost normal again
I forgot to do my workout tho, the reason was inspiration You can see the result in the “show the artist within you” thread.
I posted my drawings on Instagram too, it’s the first time ever that I show the world what my passion is.
Going to update my brushes in procreate to be able to draw more nature stuff. One day I wanna be able to make a picture of my town and make a solarpunk version of it.
I’m almost at work, not looking forward to it but yeah…if I want to eat, dress and sleep somewhere warm I need this job.
I wish you all a beautiful sober day friends
Stay strong
I’ve thought about rehab but not sure how to manage the logistics. I can’t afford to go that long without a paycheck. And I live alone with pets that need looking after. But it’s still an option. Thanks!
Day 1 and feeling happy to be back with TS🫶🏻, doc this time was weak beer 4% ,mixed with lucozade so haven’t been to points of awfulness as with the cider but still was drink abusing. Lots of love
Day 6. Been up since 3:30 after a bad dream so been reading and responding here. I have such vivid dreams that when they are bad, they leave me shaken. Head hurts again/still. Last time it took until about day 10 to feel better. Trying to hang on. I’ve really been struggling at work. I feel like I’m barely keeping my head above water. So much is getting neglected and I’m getting behind. It would be nice to take a few days off to take care of myself, but that’s not really an option right now. I’m about to start training a couple new people. Honestly I’m not sure how I’m going to manage that. I’m just keeping my fingers crossed that I feel better by Monday. I guess everything is stressing me out right now. I’ve been reading about mindfulness and trying to stay in the moment, but it’s a challenge.
Hope everyone is doing okay today.
The last couple of days have been intense. I’ve had very strong emotions coming up that are all about the solo parenting experience and how much I miss my late husband. My teen boy has been getting into mild trouble at school, really nothing that bad but dealing with it has been flagging up my aloneness. I think I started crying four times yesterday.
My daughter has also been feeling very emotional about her dad. She came through an hour after bedtime and cried and needed a hug. She tells me that she has recently realised that she’ll never see him again. She’s almost 11 now so there has been a big developmental change in her understanding.
Overall things feel very healthy and open and that there is space for this emotion. I’m glad I no longer feel numb to the pain, although that was what was needed at the time of course.
Wishing everyone a good addiction free day.
You can see the result in the “show the artist within you” thread.
