Still day 7. Have to go to work. I am fighting with my feelings because of the meeting with my boss last Friday. The company doesn’t want to pay me more mone though I did a lot of extra work this year. The only solution is to change my job.
What I don’t want. But I don’t feel appreciated anymore and I need more money.
Extra stress. But being sober is helping to see my working situation clear and realistic.
Day 393 AF
Busy weekend.
Went to my niece’s bday party (quinceñera) last night. There was a buncha booze. Didn’t feel like drinking any. In the past, I would’ve been drunk and caused a scene. Glad I don’t gotta make a fool out of myself. We had fun too!
I think I got this under control. The days are flying.
I remember around this time last year, I was dying from the alcohol withdrawals. Didn’t think I was gonna be able to do it, honestly. What a trip.
Gonna take the time to catch up on some posts and then pass out. Have a good night everyone! ODAAT.
Congrats on your 9 months clean Dana!!!
Hi… Just a Hi back to you.
Glad you checked in 
You are strong…
Just keep going, one day at a time!
It’s worth it 
Believe me… Stay on your path
Day 15 
pain woke me up a few times in the night not my worst ever sleep had a weird dreams
Todays excitement is binge watching anime lol
Happy sober Monday everyone
@Newlife5 Welcome back! And congrats on a sober day, that’s all we all have. One day at a time friend.
@Staringupfromthewell Congrats on reaching double figures!
@DryIn785 Keep going Mark. Gotta make it stick somehow.
@Alycia Sorry you’re ill. Get better soon!
@JDHealing Good to see you lady! Getting some good time under your belt.
@Joyce19 Congrats on your full week Joyce. Well and truly back on track. Hugs.
@Butterflymoonwoman Huge congrats on 9 months Dana!
Thanks. Always busy it seems, but good busy. I am looking forward to some days off next week. Thanksgiving! Family time!
Day 44
One more coworker called in sick.
I’m paralyzed right now.
So much work and only 2,5 medical assistants (usually 6)…
Gonna update you later. If anything more happens I’ll gonna go home, seriously.
The bosses can do this shitshow alone here in my office…
Morning of day 3. Sleep was really restless so got up still feeling tired. At least I got through the weekend sober. Mood is still really depressed. Don’t know how I’m going to get through the workday. I’m going to be training 2 new people so I have to be social and fake being okay. That’s exhausting. Normally I only interact with people via email for work with limited meetings. This training will be via zoom almost all day for the next 2 weeks. I don’t know how I’m going to do it. I already know I’m going to have major cravings to drink after work. Knowing I have a therapy appt tomorrow will keep me from drinking tonight. Don’t want to have to tell on myself.
My therapist recommended the “5 Minute Journal” (there’s an app or an actual paper journal). It has daily prompts for morning and night. Instead of buying it, I’m just using the prompts in my existing journal. Some days it’s hard to be this positive. Sharing in case it might help someone else.
Hi Karen,
I am very glad that you start doing some work like this Journaling exercises
This will really help you.
If you are struggling with motivation to do some, keep it simple. Just start.
I just stared my morning writing after forgetting about it for 2 weeks. 
Hey all, checking in on day 883. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 521 here. Happy Monday and I hope everyone has a good start to the week. 
Day 198.
The friend who looked after my kids when I was hospitalised with psychosis almost three years ago just came up for a cuppa for the first time since then on her way to a medical appointment. I hadn’t been looking forward to it much as I knew some difficult emotions would come up for both of us, which they did, but it’s better to go through these things than to ignore them. I do feel a bit drained now, so after this check in I’m going to get a decent length meditation lined up on insight timer and spend a bit of time on myself.
She and I have made a promise to get into a regular meet up over coffee from now on.
I had a baking disaster yesterday where I added far too much baking soda to the cake mix. I felt so bad about it, and I knew that the ruined cake was only one symptom of a much larger feeling of disappointment. I did a guided meditation that focused on disappointment and felt much better after that. Then I threw the cakes in the bin and made a nice dinner.
I
Best decision.
It’s just a cake.
It’s just emotions 
Day 1 again. I can’t live in the chaos of my addiction anymore, it’s killing me mentally and physically. Time to get real with myself. Have a good day everyone
Day 885 clean and sober. Woke up to my alarm for the first time in weeks which is AWESOME!!! Today is my Wednesday and I’m excited to try it well rested lol. I hope everyone has an amazing day today, love you guys!!! 
Your work week will be what it will be difficulty-wise, friendliest of reminders that if you choose to drink it will get harder and suck so, so much more. The hangovers/morning afters will be torture.
Woah! Nine sober months for you, lady!
