Jeez, 2 years of sobriety! Congratulations to you for this achievement! 
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Nicely done! You earn the cookies! 
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Thank you very much! Im super proud of you cc! Leaving the drink behind has not solved all of lifes problems, but it sure has made the sailing smoother and so much more rewarding. And thanks everyone here for sharing your lives so generously. It has helped me more than you might know.
Bye for now…
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@Cp25 congrats on 50 days
@ReeBee28 thank you for the shout out 
@Newlife5 welcome back 
sending strength
@Staringupfromthewell congrats on double digits
@DryIn785 welcome back
@Alycia feel better soon 
@Sabrina80 I hope things improve ASAP at your workplace sending strength
@Ooooops welcome back
@Planipennia a SAD lamp replicates natural daylight, its helpful for people who suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder, it helps me so much, I’ve been using them for a decade 
@MegaMeg welcome back
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@Charlie_C congrats on 2 years 
@Twizzlers sorry to hear about your Uncle 
sending strength
826 days no alcohol.
291 days no cocaine.
A day of depression today, not uncommon after some bingeing episodes. Used meditation and napping to help. Hopefully I’ll wake feeling better tomorrow. I’ve had absolutely zero energy for anything the past 2 days, also not uncommon after bingeing episodes.
I am typing it here now that I WILL get back to swimming tomorrow! 
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Second check in
I calmed down. Being angry all the time doesn’t help. Ignoring this situation isn’t good either, I have to find a good way to deal with it.
We have a plan how to survive the next weeks, so that’s good.
My plan is to walk home after work almost every day. It feels like meditation. Today my mind was pretty loud while walking, but if I keep on doing it more frequently my mind becomes calmer and it feels awesome.
I get off the train 2-3 stations before mine and walk through the city. That’s something between 2,5-3,5 km, depends on what route I take.
I got me some veggies and fish. Eating nutritious food will help me to not freak out.
Besides that journaling and writing here often will help.
So this time I won’t doomscroll through an App to get distracted. And I won’t compensate it with sugar or fatty food. Its time to face such a situation on another, healthier level.
I think I learned a lot today about myself 
I wish you all a beautiful sober day friends 
Stay strong 
Edit: thank you @CATMANCAM This situation won’t last forever 
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TS Swim club is waiting for your report 
CU at the pool 
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Checking in on Day 49
I have been struggling with lots of feelings over the past few days. Things I would normally drink to block out. And things I would normally talk to my D&A therapist about but she was sick yesterday and couldnt make our appointment. Evenings before bed have become challenging again. I become overwhelmed with anxiety of thoughts of the next day. How I will get through it. How I will cope with each thing I have to do. How I will cope with the stress of it. I am struggling to take it back to one day at a time.
A lot of things in my life have changed in the past few weeks besides my decision to stop drinking. My step daughter came to live with us permanently because her mother is mentallly unwell and was abusing her. My son now comes different days because his fathers marriage broke down and he now comes according to his fathers roster. It is the same amount of days but the 7 days a fortnight are now scattered throughout the fortnight. I said yes to this to ensure my son was not left at his fathers alone when his dad did night shifts. I had my roster worked out for when the kids were here and not here and now that has all changed. I have three children on a different care arrangement now and a roster that doesnt match. I made the roster so I could be home for them the week they were here and utilise my week they werent for compulsory night shifts. Now it doesnt work that way. I am overwhelmed and want to drink knowing it wont help my situation at all.
I apologise for my less than positive check in guys. I am not myself today.
Ree
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Checking in Day 2. Feeling depressed and sad. Its been such a roller coaster year. Thinking i could moderate my drinking. Falling into patterns for a week then trying to stop only to give in at day 4 everytime due to withdrawal. Im determined to get through it this time. TS helped me get there last year so im very grateful to be back. Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
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It’s okay Ree, no need to apologize.
I had to vent too today, my first check in wasn’t positive at all. Some days are like that.
It’s good for us to let that out and talk about it 
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Good days and bad ones. You give a lot here, you’re entitled to get something back too at times Ree. Vent away. Sorry for the impossible angles you have to bend yourself into, to make your life work, for yourself and the others in your life.
You know you need your wits about you, you know you need to be as fit as possible, as rested as possible. I hope coming here can give you some relief from the stress you’re encountering and enduring right now. Drinking won’t help and indeed you know it.
I wish I could do more for you but all I can do is give you a big virtual hug from this fellow nurse and say you’re not alone. XXX
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@Mno thanks friend! Internet is back up so I am back! Wohoo! Feeling really good. 35 days no alcohol and three with no caffeine… hanging in there 
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Sending big hugs Ree. 
Never apologize for venting a bit or needing some extra love and support. We are all human and that’s why we have each other. Here for you! Muah!
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Take some deep breaths everything is going to be okay, it will work itself out.
It seems you have a lot of big changes all happening at the same time. Im so glad you know we are here and thats for the bad days as well as the good.
You will get through this, your doing so well already by trying to work with the changes and i understand why you feel overwhelmed.
The kids know they have you, and things may feel unsettled for a little bit so try not to stress and make yourself feel bad for stuff you have no control over.
Your such a strong woman, how you have beat your addictions you definitely can handle this okay 
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Hehe thank you @Juli1 i forgot to book my swim for tomorrow so i just did it now.
Will be wearing my watch 
and when I feel i cant go anymore im going to think of you and keep going encouraging me from the other side of the world i love it.
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@CATMANCAM Thank you we are just waiting for updates for what will or may happen.
I hope you get a good sleep and wake up feeling refreshed i often find a good sleep helps reset my mind. Although when it doesnt help i think being kind to ourselves and just taking it easy for a few days and not making ourselves feel bad because we need to take time for ourselves can help
Im also geting back to swimming tomorrow, its been about 2 weeks i think since i last went and i always find it really helps me feel so good even if i dont have much energy and dont stay too long in the pool just knowing i did it helps, small steps get us there.
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Congratulations on 2 years Charlie!
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Hey Ree,
don’t worry, that’s okay, this place is for the good days and for the bad. And it’s totally okay to spit out something negative. Respect for your courage to manage all the circumstances with and for the 3 kids. You are wonderful
and you will manage this. Without any drink! Won’t help with anything. Bring your head sober on the pillow tonight !
You got the power 
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I am so happy for you!
And I love motivating and reminding each other. My swim was nice, but took it easy, 1500 with changing style and equipment every 200.
So all 3 swim club members will take a swim tomorrow. That’s like an appointment 
@Twizzlers @CATMANCAM and myself.
Any new swimmers welcome 
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10 days sober
Double didgets
I know what I got to do
Cleaned house a bit
Letting go of haters
I forgot the term slightly young in cheek which means I think communicate softly over tough people or situations so I’ll work on that
I can’t change the world or others
But I can change me
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