Congratulations on your 1,500 days thats is something !!
@Butterflymoonwoman I have your mum in my prayers
Your day of self care and a letting go ceremony sounds like it could be really helpfull for you, and taking time after just for yourself sounds like a good idea.
You will know in your heart if your ready to go through with it or not just try not let yourself feel bad what ever you decide to do
@Sabrina80 Glad to hear your headache has gone ! Migraines are horrible.
I get the auras in my eyes flashing zig zags lights but not the headache together bright lights like fog lights or a flashing cyclist light can cause this and i have to stop for 10-30 mins until it goes i am lucky when i have these i dont get a migrain after.
But i do get migraines and i feel then coming a day before i feel nauseous like im going to be physically sick and my neck and head feel tight. I have found as soon as i get these warning signs i take a strong painkiller called naproxen (you prob heard of it its just a stronger version of ibuprofen) and then sleep and it seems to go or not develop into a full blown migraine.
When it does go to a full migraine i cant move and have to sit in the dark and drink orange juice. @Ooooops Congratulations on your 3 days
I had the aura with zig zag lines too but not anymore. I āonlyā have the headache
I remember the first time I had it, I thought I have a stroke. And the boss I had back then said āYou just have a migraine, you can workā
The day before I get an attack I heavily crave sweet, salty and fatty food so I know something is on the way. I had a lot of cookies on Monday and I couldnāt stop, now I know why.
If I start early with medication it doesnāt get that bad, but I need to sleep almost the whole day.
Haha! Funny, for me itās apple juice or pomegranate juice
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Having a busy last few days of my holidays. Therapy, my first ever full massage, my first dentist appointment in some years, taking Luna to the vet. Two nights of eating with friends, my first pedicure ever. All is part of Recovery/Discovery for me. Itās living a life, itās working on improving it, itās trying to enjoy it too. For me a big part of that is live music too. Sober and clean. Saw Jason Isbell play Paradiso last night, first time I was in there in 2+ years. Very happy to be back.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.
Morning of day 5. Work up feeling like crap. Bad headache. Exhausted from not sleeping well. Depressed. Not sure how Iām going to get through the workday. Constantly in tears. Wish I could takes a few days off. At least Iāve been able to take half days on occasion. Sorry to be such a downer.
Day of ups and down. Argument with husband and meltdown of son this morning. Of course those things interelated and exacerbated each other. Ended in sh for me. Had to watch / help out with a kids class that I have to cover for a friend over the spring vacation, and was not in the head space to deal with 30 4 year olds. But this afternoon had appointment with online therapist which was good. Also called my sonās school to book appointment with school counsellor about him. They had a spot open in 30 minutes and I was free so I took it. I have spoken to a school counselor at his elementary school and wasnāt impressed; he was dismissive and superficial. This counsellor at the junior high school was wonderful. He has spoken to my son once and seemed to āgetā him, but also understood and related to me well. He will speak to my son monthly from now, and I can check in every few months. I hope it will help him.
Youāre not being a downer, just honest. You already know that the first couple of weeks are toughā¦quite horrible if Iām honest. Try to just stay focused on today. One hour at a time if need be. I hate youāre having such bad headaches. But Iām glad to hear youāre in therapy. Is it a magical cure? Nope. But man does it help! The more sessions I have, the better Iām able to cope with my depression and anxiety. My hope is that you have the same experience.
Iām sending you lots of hugs and prayers today. If I could sit with you through this, I would.
Day 887 clean and sober. Today is my Friday and Iām very happy about that. I have been in a horrible funk for awhile it seems and I think Iām starting to come out of it a little bit. Negativity breeds negativity and I allowed myself to get caught up in some work place drama/gossip etc and as a result I believe thatās what has been making me feel yucky and pissed off lately. Going to go into work today with a better attitude and set some much needed boundaries. I hope everyone has a beautiful day today, love you guys
Thanks Kristi! Your support means a lot. I decided to take the day off work to take care of myself. Iām blessed to have an amazing and supportive boss. Itās really hard for me to ask for help but thatās something Iām working on.
Please donāt apologize for not being positive! The reality is we canāt always be positive! Things happen in life that make us feel unsettled and anxious. Change is hard (for me at least) so multiple changes at once is even harder. When Iām feeling overwhelmed or negative, quick journaling helps me. I just quickly write down exactly how Iām feeling, no matter how awful those few words/emotions may be. Just to get it out.
There is an EMDR method that has worked a couple of times for me that you can do alone without a therapist guiding you. The āscribble outā method (google it, but if you canāt find enough info, just message me). Sounds very hokey but it actually does help.
Other things that help me when Iām really struggling are meditation (whatever form works for you in the moment) or taking a short walk. When you have that much on your plate, try to break it down into focusing on one problem at a time. Then check it off your list and move on to the next issue.
I know none of this may make a difference for you. But you are doing SUCH a great job handling your lifeās curve balls!! So I know you can handle these things tooā¦one problem, one day at a time! Just rememberā¦.even your worst day is ALWAYS easier without the booze! Youāve got this!!
Iāve got a very busy schedule this week and I am very grateful for it! Iām already exhausted and itās only Wednesday. But itās a good exhaustion. The next couple of weeks look promising too so my stress level is pretty low right now.
I was just sitting catching up on here and thinking about how life ebbs and flows. Iām finally to a point where every day isnāt a struggle anymore. It comes in waves nowā¦sometimes big, sometimes small. Some weeks Iām not counting days, but looking to the next 10-day marker. Some weeks I have days where Iām back to counting hours. And thatās ok. As long as weāre still in the game and staying the course, weāre winning!
Iām not going to drink today. And I hope you donāt either.
Thats interesting that they would actually write that on their packaging lol i suppose that makes sense bcuz i believe hangovers are a result of dehydration. If im not mistaken. Idk. But my son has used pedialyte for various reasons. Ive used hydralyte and i found it helped. I used to drink a lot of electrolyte drinks while on keto. I always felt like i couldnt get hydrated enough
Remember there is as repetitive schemes there. If you stop now and cure it with alcohol and start tomorrow again, this awful cycle will an endless loop. You have the chance to make this time the last time youāll go through these withdrawals. We are here to listen.
