Wow, this is a really fancy pool! 
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Congratulations to 1.5 k sober days! 
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Morning Check in
Day 276
Woke up to another day clean and sober! Feeling ready to tackle this day. My plan for the day is: gym, Letting Go Ceremony, coffee shop, cleaning the floors and bathroom, dishes and nails. Thats it! Id say thats enough for today. Hubby was going to dye my hair today but i think ill leave that for another day. Not sure yet.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day. No matter how hard today gets, just dont pick up!
Hugs 
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Checking in for day 51.
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Sober day 13,505+31=13,536
Or 37yrs. and 41 days
Of course I complicate things Iām an alcoholic. 
The program of AA which is the AA program of Recovery and is found in the 164 pages of the Big Book Alcoholics anonymous, here is a portion:
Selfishnessāself-centeredness! That, we think, is the
root of our troubles. Driven by a hundred forms of
fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step
on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate. Some
times they hurt us, seemingly without provocation, but
we invariably find that at some time in the past we
have made decisions based on self which later placed
us in a position to be hurt.
So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own
making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic
is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he
usually doesnāt think so.
Why do I bring up this topic??
Hmm, to be honest, it is to say this.
My discomfort and selfishness go hand in hand.
How much time have I wasted trying to avoid my discomforts???
First with booze and any other substance I deemed appropriate, then through distractions and all manner of feel good time wasters and egoic whatnots.
Today I have to ask myself, if I can sit in my discomforts and fears and Honestly look at them and find out where they stem from??
This self Honesty is hard stuff.
There is a saying āWhat I resist will persistāā¦
Plus the Big Book asks me to ask myself nightly if I have been Loving towards ALL in my nightly meditation!!!
WOW, can I say that I have been Loving towards ALL??
I can say I have progress not perfection.
Though today I can see perfection in my discomfort and imperfections because I see my recovery direction.
PEACE
P.S.
Here is a link to CH. 5 of the Big Book āHow it worksā
https://www.aa.org/sites/default/files/2021-11/en_bigbook_chapt5.pdf
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Now you might also say, go fuck you, Franzi, you donāt know what I am going through. You donāt know shit. Thatās true. I can say that I discovered the impact of alcohol on my depression in therapy back in 2016. I went there for depression. I wanted to die every single day. I drank every day. I knew I had an alcohol problem but admitting this somewhere? Better not. You donāt want to have this label and sure as hell didnāt I want to close this door. Prerequisite for this clinic was 6 weeks sober (a 12 steps clinic). I managed to stop drinking 2 weeks or so. I drank the night before I drove there. When I was there after a week or so of being in therapy, community, a non alcoholic environment, I thought I was paranoid or so. I didnāt even know why I was there. All was fine. I went back to drinking right after I got home from therapy after 8 weeks without a drink. So I had a taste of how much alcohol intervened with my psyche. Still, it took me one year or so to get back into this suicidal despair to admit it was alcohol I had lost power over. I never ever had it. It was my first go to since I had my first drink with 16 or so. Itās hard work to establish new ways to deal with lifeās challenges. Thatās why we are here for. And if the physical withdrawal are too intense then go and get help.
I am sorry this was long and maybe boring.
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Good morning cats and kittens. Day 83 for me and Iām hopefully seeing 2 friends today! One for lunch and one to do some crafts tonight. Hope everyone have something fun they get to do today.
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Day 10. Check.
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Nope, it wasnāt.
Thank you for your story. 
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Checking in day 10. All good x
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Oh when i first had the visual auras i went to the hospital thinking it was the end of me.
Wow you still had to work, i panick alot id iv had called you ambulance and been way ober the top and made you panick too 
glad its just migraines. Iv not noticed if i crave anything before il be on the look out for other signs.
Once the headache starts and i feel its not going i also have to just lay in bed.
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It looks nice in the pic but its actually a really old creepy building and very dark inside its what tey used to call the baths.
I love history and old buildings so its nice but its creepy too.
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It always amazes how many times I have been willing to put myself through that. Just remember it will get better in just a day or so and then your energy will start to return.
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Congratulations on 10 days!!! Awesome job getting into the double digits 
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Good morning, friends! Ended up being awake most of the night because I took too much of a nap yesterday. Forced myself out of bed at 6 anyway, because Iāll be getting up that early once I start working again. At any rate, I have to reapply as a formality even though Iāve basically got the job. I opened the door for Joe earlier and I was blown away by the cold!! 
It is between 14-19 degrees (-10 to -7 for our Celsius friends) out there.
I need to get this in as soon as possible, but Iām actually afraid to leave the house. Outside of that, nothing really happening. Just wanted to check in. Peace! 
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Hi sober twin 
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192, checking in.
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Beginning day 6 today, finally feel better and productive. Last night was hard Iām not going to lie. I could almost feel the monkey in my backā¦go ahead have a drinkā¦itās your Fridayā¦youāve done so good. Had the bartender at work make me a mocktail, it did the trick. I could feel the endorphins release as if I had had the real stuff. I wasnāt in danger on the drive home. Feel a bit of confidence today.
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Day 23 without drugs or booze.
Some days are better than others.
I do have to keep on reseting my carbs and sugar counter though 
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