@Ranger1209 congrats on 6 months @Kiks2 congrats on your month @SassyBoomer great to read that things are going so well long may it continue @Butterflymoonwoman I’m glad you found the time to connect with your HP, sending well wishes for your son @Sirluca congrats on getting the job
864 days no alcohol.
329 days no cocaine.
I barely recall it, I genuinely think I was sleep walking and sleep eating, but the evidence shows that late last night I had the biggest binge I’ve had in a loooong time. Including stuff with sugar in that I shouldn’t be eating. I woke up in my bathroom at 6am! Have no idea how long I was sat there for! Then fed my cats and took my morning meds, went back to sleep for what I thought would be my usual hour nap, but the next thing I know it’s 11am! The time I was supposed to meet my brother in my hometown to visit our Mum’s grave. It would have been her birthday today. Anyway, I got ready and headed there, my brother said he’d go for a haircut and wait for me, and I was supposed to buy flowers but he said his wife had bought a Robin and a Sleigh so we took them to put down, it was cute. We will take flowers on Boxing Day before we go to my Dad’s. My brother also invited me to go to theirs on Xmas day morning to watch my niece open her presents, this is the best gift I could have received this year and I am so happy and grateful
Checking in day 109. Feeling a good bit better, and back to work today. Also get to work from home tomorrow because they’re calling for some snowy weather- grateful my job allows that. Looking forward to being fully recovered so I can get back to some exercise!
Day 33. I have been in quarantine with my husband bringing me food and drinks. Glass half full; having Covid is preventing me from drinking through my toughest month of the year emotionally. Also, it gives me an out of all of the parties that would have brought temptation.
Although, we do have big plans for New Years Eve. No excuse not to attend, but I believe I will feel less desire to drink by then. I will focus on dancing.
Just want to say Happy Xmas to everyone, it’s early bc I now have a life and will be spending the day with my family and not thinking about drinking. The great thing about this community is the fact everyone has got your back 24 hours a day so if you are struggling get on here, hit a meeting or phone a sober friend or sponser. The gift I wish you all is your happiness and your continuous sobriety. For now though I’m off to enjoy and appreciate the people I have in my life thanks to the help from you guys and gals. See you next year
Day 195
I am officially fed up of being at home so much
I’ve stayed at home and been good and enjoyed my own space and being at peace and all that but I’m sick to my teeth of the sight of my house need to get out more, there are no walls left to paint
Been busy with work and the family. Worked from the office today for our staff potluck and gift exchange. I needed a lil breather from the apartment. Doing some last minute Xmas shopping right now.
Evening Check In Day 312
Pretty tiring day. Im ready for bed and its only 5pm. My boy is still very sick and needs alot of medical attention to keep him comfortable. Im doing the best i can to help him. I cant even leave his side for literally 2 min as he needs assistance. I gave him a bath and got him feeling a bit better anyway. Hopefully after another good rest tonight, he will be feeling better. Im exhuasted tho. Im trying to stay focused on the “light at the end of the tunnel”. Stay HP centered. And relax when i can. I know this wont last forever. Im grateful that we are so far managing this at home. Grateful he got his flu shot this year, grateful for his surgeries being done sooner than later, grateful for my recovery and being focused on my sons health, grateful for u all and grateful for my HP. No matter what happens in my day, i know that God has my back and gives me the strength to persevere. Grateful to be clean thru this
Day 232. Im checking in because i need to make a promise to someone, anyone:
I will NOT drink today. No matter what. No matter how easy it would be. No matter how hard it gets…
Checking in day 15. I’m starting to feel like myself again. Used to I could barely look at myself in the mirror. I was a shell of a human. Now I’m starting to see the spark in my eyes ignite again.
Day 20.
Thought about drinking several times today and it’s been quite annoying as always but this time I was easily able to talk myself out of it. The physical dependence is gone so it’s all about re-wiring my brain and learning how to beat myself in those moments. Was able to quickly become rational about it so I’m thankful for that. Did all good things today even though I didn’t feel like it and off to bed so I can goto work in the morning. Hope you all are fighting the good fight. Much love.
long may it continue 
Evening Check In 
. Hope he gets better soon
Were u able to rest abit since u posted?