so worn out from the gym Iām ready for bed. Sauna 15 mins, hour workout,15 mins IR sauna, Zero gravity massage bed, hydro massage bed, hot tub. Cravings gone. Will wake up tomorrow thankful and can goto sleep proud tonight.
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Day 433 AF
Worked a half day today. I have the next 5 days off. Yay yayy! Busy with the kiddos and my nephew. Took them out to the park. My wife went out and did some Xmas shoppin. I just got back from a long walk. Still fighting the good fight.
Have a good night/day, fam. Iāll catch up with yall later. Take care and stay safe.
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My gosh! Your gym sounds amazing!
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Merry sober Christmas and Happy New Year. This new year is going to be great thanks we are free of booze. Long life to sober people!, no matter what is said in this day. Alcohol is not necessary at all.
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Checking in on day 77!
Merry Christmas to all and a happy newyear!
Hope everybody can find the strength within to keep a cool head and stray sober/clean throughout all the festivities.
That may be easier for some of you than it is for me so please keep me in your prayers 
I know Iāll do everything in my power to steer clear of that first drink. No matter how many people offer me one.
Questions may comeā¦ Iāll be ready to answer them.
Stay strong!
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That is an awesome day! Thanks for sharing! 
Merry Christmas for you, too. 
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I wish all of you a merry Christmas 
!
Thank you for being here for my first sober days, weeks and months!
I hope everyone has a good time, whatever this means for everyone personally, without too much time thinking about addiction and so on!
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7 days without recreational technology abuse.
A whole week. But Iām too tired to feel excited. Or perhaps lazy. I have been sleeping little the entire week, but Iāve been going to bed very early. Usually around 23:00/11:00 pm which is early for me as Iām used to 3:00 am. Iāve been waking up around 5:00 am each day. That used to be around noon.
Been working everyday since my relapse, but now that Iām at my dadās I have no purpose. All I can do is read game of thrones or make puzzle books.
Iām feeling numb I guess. I donāt want that. I want to feel happy, or at least energetic.
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Day 84
X Mas. Those days always have been a struggle.
Visiting my dad and his new gf wasnāt nice at all. They constantly gave me the feeling that my opinions didnāt count. It made me feel anxious af. Alcohol was around 24/7ā¦okay not really 24/7 but alcohol for lunch and dinner was normal.
Years ago I cut all connections to my whole family. Dad, his gf, his ex gf I still had contact to, my aunts, uncles and cousins. You may think āhow can she, itās family!ā. Yes, but a family can be as toxic as non family. They can constantly give you this passive aggressive shitty feeling.
For my health and sanity I had to cut all connections. And it was the best decision ever. 2 years after this I became sober for the first time. Had relapses but I am sober again now.
Iām not feeling lonely at X Mas. I know I did the right thing for me.
So, if you may feel the same about the pressure around X Mas to be the perfect son or daughter who has to endure the little fights because āitās family, you have toāā¦no, you donāt have to. The only thing you have to do is being honest to yourself, to look after your physical and mental health.
You matter, youāre not alone and youāre loved 
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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Have as good a day as you can all. Love from Amsterdam.
You all, you are my family. Some are closer than others, some I share more with than others, some I feel more kinship with than others. Some I stay in touch with, some I lost track of. Thatās how it goes with family. You all are my brothers and sisters and Iām forever grateful to you all. Iām in all your debt. Thanks so much for being here. You changed my life and are still changing it one day at a time. Sober and clean.
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Happy Christmas Eve! Just a few more hours left for me. It will be a simple, everyday Christmas for us. The kids already got āChristmas presentsā several months ago, so tomorrowās gifts are all small. My daughter is going to a party at her friends house so she will be out all afternoon. I guess I will go to some second hand shops with my son. I plan to try to make Japanese style roast beef (it is pan fried and boiled, not roasted in an oven) for dinner. And I have a small stollen to share with husband. Hope everyone has a lovely festive season.
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Day 925 clean and sober. Hope everyone has an amazing day, love you guys 
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#Day 1558 
Chistmas Eve is toninght. In my family itās tradition to all make a part of the meal. We pull straws to see what we have to cook.
So this morning I was busy preparing a vegatarian quiche and after that I wrapped the Christmas presents. Looking forward to tonight seeing my two oldest kids again. The youngest one has as task to look after our drinks. Saw he bought a non alcohol white wine for me to go with the meal. How thoughtfull.
My life is better sober for Ć nd for them as well.
I do it for me and for them 
I wish you all a happy healthy Chistmas!
And with healthy I mean without drinking/using ore whatever you are here on TS for 
Picture from the tree from wich I make a photo every time when I walk by
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Day 3. Visiting my mom and sisters. Itās actually easier to stay sober around them even though most of them drink. I told them I wasnāt drinking (but didnāt get into why). So I feel like I canāt drink without justifying it to them. Easier for me to be accountable to others than just to myself. Iām here until Tuesday, so hoping that gives me a jump start to my sobriety. I have therapy scheduled for the day I get back. Just trying to look after my mental health with breaks and alone time.
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Hey all, checking in on day 923. I hope everybody has a good one!
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ChuzeFitness 
best $24 a month I spend.
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Day 6 AF
Merry Christmas everyone
Prayers 
to all for strength & sobriety through the holidays.
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Checking in day 8. Me the wife and 2 of the kids and the dogs just gonna hang out at home this Xmas eve, the oldest is in the Carolinas for work this year so wonāt see him till the new year. I hope yous all have a great day. Stay safe.
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I have missed 4 days of posts, due to being on the road. I really felt like my drive was never ending on the way back.
The trip was short notice (like a couple hours thought went into going)
I was anxious that my car wouldnāt make it, and I would be stuck somewhere.
When i got there, i was tired, but i worked through it and helped my mother clean her apartment and got her groceries. I saw an aunt who was nice to me.
But i am sad that nobody could be bothered to visit with my motherā¦when they all live so close to her and i am across the country.
The drive home took twice as long because I got stuck in the storm, and got pushed around the road. Even got blown in a circle at one point. No damage and I didnāt hit anyone or anything or get stuck in a ditch. But, it was very stressful.
Anywayā¦
Iām home and Iām glad i made it and that I did what i could for my mother. And Iāll start my daily check ins later today after work
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So glad youāre home safe! Take your time to decompress, we will be here 
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