That’s awesome. Your mother is lucky to have you. Glad you are home safe and sound!
@Mno What a kind post and the feeling is mutual on my end. This community has been with me since the beginning. Grateful to be on this journey with so many wonderful people.
@Misokatsu Id love to hear how the roast turns out. Have a fantastic day with the family!
Just cold as hell in Kansas City but getting out to see family not far away, then back home this evening for an online TLC meeting. Grateful to be sober!
I love this post for sooo many reasons! Ur self awareness amd determination to krep going and change old patterns is incredibly huge! Very proud of you
Morning Check In Day 314
So last night i was going to check in but didnt as i was going thru something pretty bad related to my eating. I wont get into it too much on this thread, but will check in on the Binge Eating Thread for that. All i can say is that i think i need to start holding myself accountable for my eating, maybe start a timer again for it. I dont even know what has been happening to me the past few days. But ive gone right downhill in this area. And last night i woild have definitly considered this a relapse in my eating if i had been keeping a timer for it
Anyway… today my focus will be on my HP and doing my HPs will. Continue to do my best to take care of my son (on day 4 of being sick) and also to take care of me.
Thats about it for today.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
314 days clean and sober going into the Holidays is what’s happening. Your doing such a great job whether you know it or not. My first holidays sober. If it wasn’t moving I was eating it!! I cut myself some slack those first sober Holidays. I indulged in other not so healthy foods instead of my DOC. I didn’t like the way it made me feel at all. But I was sober.
Wishing you and your family a wonderful Christmas Dana
I’m really sorry that this person treated you this way. He was clearly in the wrong. This has to have been very traumatic for you. And he should have not dismissed or minimized your pain the way he did. And it’s no excuse that he was probably drunk while saying those things to you.
Anyways, congratulations on 197 days. I just need to address something of a different matter. I understand your need to get out of the house, relax, and enjoy life a little. But being that you’re still in early sobriety, don’t you think that there might be better ways to relax and socialize than hang out at the local pub? Is this the best thing for your sobriety? I’m asking because I care.
Thanks for your concern. I don’t hang in pubs. This is twice I’ve been to the local in nearly seven months. It’s Christmas and I went to see my friend Mary. I’m aware of the dangers of being in that environment which is why I stay away but I’m not going to hide away for ever. I go theatre and arts events mostly so no need to worry yourself
Awe i love the butterfly christmas tree! Thank you for sharing that! And honestly… thank u for reminding me about this being a clean and sober christmas for me. I didnt actually think of that until u mentioned it and honestly, that very well could be the reason… lots of emotion and then wanting to “fix” that emotion with food. U mentioning this sort of made me feel less judgmental about myself thank you!
Wishing you and your family a wonderful christmas Eric
Feeling tired emotionally but holding it together, might get into bed and watch films in bed.
Hope everyone is ok
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Really wanted to go to the shops and buy a bottle and and disposable vape and just have what I was calling a day off. I cried today because I couldn’t drink but wanted to so bad… I was so close so so close to doing it but am glad I didn’t. Stay strong everyone we can do this
To stay sober and clean is why we are ALL here. Because none of us can do it alone. I’m so glad you’re here with me and us all Twizzle. We’re in this together. We’re not alone X
@Mno So true, every morning when you write this I read it and without you knowing it really helps, a daily reminder that I’m here for a reason a serious reason.
I’m so glad to have you all, I’d been distant past few weeks and I’m sure that also played a role in my silly thinking today.
Thank you for your support always
@Jasty2 I am safe here, your absolutely right and I’m need to be here right now with you all. Thank you for your support too
@Cp25 congrats on 3 months @mx_elle I can relate, sending strength @Hayleylujah I hope your leg is all healthy again now, sorry you went through that @Sirluca proud of you congrats on 3 weeks @SadMemeQueen@icebear sending strength to you both @Scorpn phew! So relieved you are okay and home safe @Noshame congrats on 50 days @Twizzlers stay strong, you’re worth it
866 days no alcohol.
331 days no cocaine.
Feeling kind of empty today. My dad called last night and is making me go round for lunch tomorrow. I had to be firm with my boundary of leaving theirs by 3pm so I can drive home safely before it gets dark and I can’t see, so I’m proud of myself for standing my ground. It feels weird, I don’t feel excited even though I really ‘should’ be, maybe I just need a good night’s sleep and will be more excited when I can get showered and head to my brother’s to watch my niece open her presents in the morning
I also don’t like to drive Inn the dark, for me is the lights on the cars i end up with ocular migraine auras.
Tomorrow after a good sleep you have a nice day too look forward to. For me I often find I prefer not to do the stuff I planned with others but once I’m up and out and with there company I realise it was just what I needed.
Happy Xmas
Similarly, when its dark and oncoming traffic has lights on, I cant see a thing, its like they’ve all got their main beams on, I have to do emergency stops if I attempt it, to let cars pass, so its really not safe for me to drive in the dark. Apparently its because I have Astigmatism in my eyes.
I hope you are right and the next 2 days turn out to be okay.
Woke up at 3am and then lay awake ruminating until about 8am before dropping off until 10.30. I have a sore throat and decided a long hot shower would help me feel better. As I was coming out the shower my teenager told me he has “kind of shat” himself and then while he was in the shower my daughter had a huge meltdown because she had lost her 91 day streak on Duolingo.
She did eventually calm down and came with me to the supermarket to get some Christmas food and treats.
All that remains for the evening is to wrap the kid’s presents and fill their stockings which are actually sacks this year. With it just being the three of us there’s nothing to worry about tomorrow, no travelling or visiting or anything.
Hope everyone has a peaceful Christmas tomorrow.
also soo glad u got home safe!
Morning Check In 
and then while he was in the shower my daughter had a huge meltdown because she had lost her 91 day streak on Duolingo.