Day 23 AF
Day 1 Nicotine
Moving along good. Ready for bed. Seriously considering letting nicotine go now. Not sure how I’ll handle both this early.
19 Likes
Merry Christmas to all!!! I hope everyone made it through Christmas without drinking. I thought about drinking for a quick minute but did not dwell on it. I’m home in bed sober.
12 Likes
hello @waywardwanderer hope you are doing okay through the holidays, thinking about you xoxo
1 Like
I was missing you, went looking for you and see your post. Big hugs my friend… glad your boy is getting good care and hope he is better each second. Sending you Christmas love xoxo
3 Likes
Thank u. Ur post actually meant alot to me. Im glad we are here, even tho it completely sucks. Hes getting the help he needs. Big hugs to u. Thank u for looking for me in the posts 
4 Likes
Please give this to him, with love… and healing prayers and wishes.
7 Likes
Evening check in
Day 315
We are still in hospital. We were recently moved to an actual unit as an in patient. Hes getting oxygen and support for what he needs. He is still struggling with his chest congestion.
Ive gone thru numerous emotions. Everything from guilt (about sending him to school where he got sick), to anxiety and worry, to anger and sadness (over my sons condition). Im tired. And im feeling slightly sick myself. My body is screaming to sleep and to have a shower for self care. Sleep i will try to get but the shower i cant get until tmrw when hubby arrives to watch him.
Im grateful for the hospital and grateful that hes here. Im grateful for u all bcuz i dont feel so alone right now. And im definitely grateful for my recovery and for God. This too shall pass tho. This situation wont last forever. Just need to push myself thru this and help my boy the best way i can.
Just thank you all for being here. Sometimes i just read when i dont have the energy to type. And u all help me more than u know. Hugs
25 Likes
Aweeee ur gonna make me cry lol i absolutely will show him this. Thank you… hugs back 
3 Likes
Sending you lots of hugs and love! I know it’s hard to sleep in the hospital, but hopefully y’all can get a few hours at least. I’m glad they have brought him up to a room to give him the care he needs. And you couldn’t have known he would get sick. I’m sure he was excited to get back to school after the long break, and you were both looking forward to getting back to normal. I’m so sorry he’s sick and y’all are postponing your celebrations. But when he is better and comes home it’ll be they much sweeter to celebrate together then. 
3 Likes
I love u lady! 
youre absolutely right. It will be soo nice to see his happy, healthy self opening up presents later on. He just needs to get thru this. I will attempt to sleep when i can hugs my friend. Hope ur doing well
3 Likes
Hey congratulations on 1 month!!! Huge milestone 
4 Likes
Day 527
Merry Christmas sober family!
Made it through w/O indulging yay
Never again as Menno says 
19 Likes
You mean everything to us. Turn that frown upside down you’re not alone. And remember feelings are just feelings you’re actions are everything. The fact you have not self harmed is amazing congratulations 
I’m sure there are lurkers here that see you not giving in and that gives them hope you make a difference I hope you know that.
4 Likes
Hey Karen, you can absolutely do this and that you’ve not drunk so far even tho you feel shitty is proof of that. I’m proud of you. Even if it feels as it does now, you’re doing it sober.
You don’t need it. It doesn’t help and you need to stop making yourself believe it does. You know it’s lies. Don’t go back home with the mindset that you’ll go back to the bottle. You can fight this out. It’s up to you and you alone. You have that choice.
It would be good to de-tangle the current mass of anxiety inducing unpleasantness ahead of you. I think I read of a non-judgemental sister somewhere. Can you grab that sister and tell her to just shut up and listen to you and be there for you for 30min while you tell her how hard it is and cry it out? Get a few hugs? Get some human connection? That is THE antidote to depression and that feeling that you’re all alone forever with your shit and nothing will ever change.
You are with family and they care or they would not have intived you up. I know family can be horribly difficult, I’ve posted about my own often enough, but it seems they as least want you there and care. So you can engineer a situation where you actually get to feel some of their love for you. I think that would be good. You seem incredibly lonely to me. But loneliness is never a one sided thing. Is has the aspects of something being given and also of something being received and being able to fall into soft soil so it can leave a mark. So to speak.
Next step. You are on a sobriety forum. Have you looked around at the myriads of other threads and what ppl do on here to get and stay sober? Which of these things are you doing? Cos just not drinking does not work, especially not if you got mental health issues. I’m one of the lucky ones with a very demanding and kamikazi brain aswell so you can take my word for it. I don’t know if you seen this: Resources for our recovery
Look through, pick three things, make one of them AA zoom meetings and start today.
I also advise for one to be some form of exercise, can be any thing you want/don’t hate, because being in your body creates mindfulness and relaxation that helps with depression too. That’s why a lot of ppl exercise in in the first place. Me too.
Stick with your things. If you hate them, mix and match. But give the meetings a fair chance. Couple of months. Transfer to f2f at some point since you are so alone. It’ll help. Keep us updated on your progress. Thats one thing you already are doing that is very beneficial, staying connected here, so that’s plus.
You can do this Karen, there is no reason you cannot if I could and I was just as miserable as you, and so many others could say the same. but you gotta kick into gear and find the things that you need to do to get and stay sober. We all have to do that. It does not just happen. For anyone. You can. You can. You can.
We’re here for you supporting you. Especially us other folks with miserable hurting brains.
Edit I hear there’ll be a TS zoom today so imma put that link to the relevant thread here TS zooms! Welcome! - #187 by Mephistopheles.
11 Likes
1297
Have as good a day as you can all friends. Sober and clean. Love from my place.
@Juli1 Glad you’re back friend. We’re in this together. One day at a time.
23 Likes
271 days
Hey guys. I’m struggling a bit at the moment. I’m still sober, I’ve made it through Christmas. It just sucks. My routine is all out of whack since the new job, I’ve been eating poorly, my brain won’t quit freaking out about it. Everyone is bloody drinking, everywhere. All over socials is just booze and parties and I just feel so crappy and left out and sorry for myself.
I had a nice Christmas, but this silly season has been tough and I’m just feeling really down atm.
Anyway, thanks for listening. Hopefully I can get my self care and routine back, and I feel better soon. Just gotta stay sober. Drinking isn’t gonna fix anything.
20 Likes
Keep moving on!! All those that push downing poison as a society normal are a little lost imo. I just think about all the damage and how short outside of the hour of being numb. Fill what they don’t show about the complete mind fuck, shitty sleep, hangovers, dehydration… it’s a long list of hell😂 I’m fresh into this so all the bad is still very fresh for me.
4 Likes
My new job is actually benefiting my self care routines and healing modalities but being on the wrong side of that is tough and this is a first for me. Hope you can regain yourself that way soon 
6 Likes
I miss routines too. Holidays Jack those all up. I honestly don’t know what day it is. It will pass, though. Glad you checked in.
3 Likes
Best pep talk ever. Well done. Grateful for you.
5 Likes