Congratulations to 1 year of sobriety!
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Thank you 
I hope your feeling better now too.
I can say after a long sleep today I feel more like myself.
I feel so gratefull to feel that bit back in control of how I feel and behaviours.
I actually think you just mentioning recovery dharma is so helpful, I have been really meditating and reading pema chodron and others all about Buddhism and I feel throughout my last year being sober this had really helped me be who I am and to live being kind to others and myself like not just for sobriety but for my whole life. Iv never been to a dharma meeting and today I will see how to go about this.
Thankyou for your kind words. 
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Day 150. Almost 5 months sober! I made it through Christmas even with a couple of triggers. Yesterday I cried a bit and sat with my anger about the things that triggered me on Christmas. Admitting to myself that I am angry and hurt is new for me. I am the Queen of IDGAF and you canāt hurt me. I taught my class last night, which was good. It helped tremendously to move everything out of my body and clear my head too. Have a good day everyone!
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233, checking in.
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Thank you! I am doing better too.
If you google Recovery Dharma and go to Online Meetings you can select by your time zone and it brings up every meeting available for the week.
Itās very convenient and I have had a good experience in all the meetings Iāve been to. I hope you like it too!
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Iām glad you made it through the day, despite the many offers to drink. 
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Iām in the UK and when I looked a few months back I could only see online ones, but thatās a start !
Then I guess maybe if I get onto the meeting some one may know more.
So glad your doing better
Also congratulations on your 150 days your doing so well 
I have also cried over the Xmas. Itās okay to cry x
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Checking in Day 44 sober 
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Day 87
I donāt know if this thread needs a Triggerwarning, I put one on anyway.
Self sabotaging.
As some of you know I have Hashimotos, an autoimmune disease. For a very long time I struggled losing weight. I blamed my condition for that, and not only that, a lot more stuff. I told myself I canāt do this, I canāt do that because of my sickness. But the worst was, I thought that I it was right that I have this sickness, that I earned it. Because Iām not worthy to be healthy. I carry this thoughs since my childhood.
I now know that my parents werenāt ready for having a child, it all was too much for them. I donāt blame them any more. Shit happens, it wasnāt okay but it happened because weāre humans, weāre not perfect.
When being a child I wanted to have friends, but at the same time I didnāt want them. I wanted everyone to see how miserable I was. And as an adult I kept this kind of thinking. I wanted something, but at the same time I didnāt.
I think I didnāt want myself to be happy? I was afraid of being happy.
A lot is going on in my head since the last relapse.
I know that there is a fear I have to fight. I know that Iām worthy of all the good stuff out there.
Alcohol was a kind of blanket I wrapped myself in to make it seem that Iām happy. But I wasnāt, because it was an illusion.
I can do this, and for the first time in my life I really believe myself.
Thank you for reading 
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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Checking in day 114! Have a pretty busy day with work, and hanging out with a friend later. Iām on call tonight so no temptation to drink even if offered (though Iām not feeling an urge regardless, itās nice to have a protective factor in place). Feeling much better than I have been
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It is awesome to see you back around and thriving of course. Some old school TS right here
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Day 1870-1880 range?
Post Christmas day trip to NYC. Used to be a time I couldnāt take spontaneous trips like this because anytime I traveled I needed to stockpile enough heroin to get through the trip without getting dope sick. By the time I got enough drugs then I couldnāt afford the trip.
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I exactly know this feeling, happens to me too. I avoid crowded places or events because it makes me feel empty and exhausted.
Have a good calm time with your cats to reload your batteries
And get well soon, migraines suck 
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Check in Day 9 AF
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Morning Check in
Day 317
Morning TS fam. Just wanted to thank you all for the positive thoughts, prayers, etc for my son. We are still in hospital on Day 3. We both want to go home but he has to be 100% before we do that. He has had some improvementsā¦ oxygen was reduced from 4 litres to 1. Tylenol and advil have stopped. Breathing sounds good. All good things
Health wiseā¦ Im still feeling sick with a head cold. RSV (what my son has) tends to show up as a head cold in adults. So im sure i have it 
. Other than that im okay. Im giving myself grace for my eating habits and lack of exercise. Its very difficult to manage these things while sick and in hospital. Will return to it once i get home. Im refusing to beat myself up over these things right now.
Recovery wiseā¦ havent even thought about using. Grateful to be clean and to be able to be fully present for my son 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
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@Andrea4 congrats on 150 days 
@DryIn785 @Planipennia @Sabrina80 thank you all 
869 days no alcohol.
11 months no cocaine.
Pleased to have rested today, in stillness and silence. I also had a short walk mid-afternoon, itās gettting colder again, it was nice to feel the cold wind blowing on my face.
Going to catch up on some meditations Iāve missed the past few days now, then hopefully sleep well afterwards.
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Checking in. One year is just around the corner. Its so unbelievable. Just chilling with watching the walking dead from seson 1 again. I just live that serie. Anyone else huge fan of twd ?
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We loved it and binged it all at the same time. Still didnāt see the final season yet though gotta get to that.
I think I heard theyāre gonna make spin off series following certain characters
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Iām so pleased to hear your boy is recovering well.
This makes me so happy inside I had been v. Worried about you both and thinking about you lots.
Thank you for the update, and Iāll keep praying and thanking God.
Your doing amazing, holding it all together and not thinking to use, this new life you have given yourself is now becoming your new lifestyle and old habits are getting further away and not thought of as go to escape, such progress
Iām so proud of you Dana 
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You have to watch the final seson, the last episode Rest in peace, omg! Yeah I think it was 3 spinoff series, one with Daryl, one with Maggie and Negan and one with Rick and Michonne, if the rumores are correct. I really hope, cause I cried the entire last episode.
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