Yes, sore back and neck. My muscles are so tight that I’m not able to relax them by myself any more. Next week I’ll already start with physical therapy 
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You doing an amazing job and you also handle your addiction in a really impressive way!
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Almost day 405 AF
It’s 4:36 am. We slept at our in-laws. I haven’t been able to sleep. I’m afraid my mother-in-law might kill me in my sleep. Nah, jk. My lil man kept waking up. And this couch is uncomfortable. It’s a lil tight in here. Hoping time speeds up to take a shower and head out already.
Haven’t been thinking about alcohol. I’m more afraid of a relapse, if anything. I’ve had dreams about drinking, but I’m getting use to them. They’re just dreams. I’ve had dreams that I am a multi-millionaire, but still wake up broke.
Anyways, I hope everyone had a great holiday. Keep pushing. Stay strong. ODAAT.
Peace.
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Is this a bearded dragon? 
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You don’t have to apologize. You’re always supportive. I don’t know how u keep up with a lot people. I feel bad sometimes for not replying to everyone’s post. Reading helps me. And I am proud of everyone’s journey. Thankful for everyone on here. Couldn’t have done it without yall.
Hang in there. I hope you have a great day 
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Sending get well greetings…
And if it’s not getting better I hope you will find a way to deal with it in a somehow relaxed way. 
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Yeah, it is. It’s my nephew’s. I thought he was gonna be afraid of it, but he wanted to pet it and carry it, lol.
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Hey all, checking in on day 894. I hope everybody has a good one!
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No nothing serious,…
I am not sure if it’s ok to describe it here 
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Day 896 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys 
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I saved already some money since I am sober. Shame and happiness at the same time about that amount 
This money I will partly spend for a manicure. Can’t wait 
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,582.
God Bless!t
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Checking in for day 60.
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Really appreciate your contributions. I faked it until I made it, so to speak, and believed all those who had long term sobriety saying how awesome sober life was. They were 
correct. I took their suggestions. Did whatever I had to do to not drink. I have a deep toolbox and learned how to use them.
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I know about shitty sleeping. I sleep in hour, half an hour and 15 min intervals with stressfull dreams.
Because of this knowledge, I’m feeling with you. 
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Thank you. I’m really content with letting this go forever. And I don’t just mean the P and MB, but also the lust, the thinking, and fantasy. That part of me on the inside really tripped me up. Focusing on the behaviors hoping that it would clean up my messed up mind and oggling eyes. That was futile.
I realized I needed God’s help to clean up my inside so that my outside would be clean as well. I’m still praying a lot. But I find myself also trying to do it on my own too much. I shouldn’t have so much faith in myself, for when I do that, I stop putting my faith in God.
Anyways, I’m breaking free. I’m finally free. God was there with me the whole time; teaching me; leading me to insight; drawing me to a point where there was no logical solution but to completely turn over all of my will and life over to His care. It’s a good season despite all the problems in my life. Because I’m free. My flesh wants to go back to slavery. There’s no changing what it wants. But I’m done with leading with my flesh. To break free from my old master, I must cling to my new master, my Lord Jesus.
Anyways, look at you, friend. Almost to 2 weeks now! That’s a great gift! Sounds like you’re getting to a better place too. Any new insights from your end?
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Are you doing a course online or teaching one?
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Day 14, two weeks. Today I start to feel really tempted and I am upset because I had been doing so good before. A dream and an obsessive thought are haunting me and I am just resisting. I want to be accountable and to connect and I did but it’s persistent. Pray for me please
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126 days free from alcohol
107 days free from toxic relationships
17 days imperfect regular eating
I am fine 
Work is finished for this week.
Finally had some good moments with professional coworkers at the end of the week.
So i am satisfied.
The operation wound doesn’t hurt, despite i am entering the cold 
she didn’t put a sew on it, it’s fixed with stripes. I am leaving the pflaster on it. Brave girl 
I don’t know why, but I feel very relaxed, calm and I feel healing processes in my body and mind. Just trying to enjoy and take it in! 
Just, as it is.
Does any of you know the hipe about ice bathing or the wim hoff method? Or even practicing?
I am very interested about it…
Started with ice baths for feet and calves last winter…
And joyned the super cold shower at the outdoor pool until middle of September every evening…
I would really like to joyn a full ice bath, but I think it needs practice!
Have the luck to joyn swimming in the Atlantic soon for three weeks every day if I want. It has around 17 or 18 in this season. Cold, but not an ice bath. I have to check out for it returning to Germany in January.
Doing something crazy like this is giving me feelings of pure freedom! This is real freedom, not the escape shit I did in alcohol, toxic guys, self harm and so on.
So, after finishing my coffee I will have a walk by the river and a short cold bath for my feet.
Sending love, peace and ease 
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