A quick check in today. I’m keeping to my routines:
Less coffee
Less screen time
More exercise
More evening activities that I find calming (painting / reading)
It has helped a bit. The frustration remains. I get the keys to my new place in 6 days and it can’t come soon enough. The place I am in has been fine for what it is but I want to get on with my life. I have my boy this weekend and he picked out a rug for his new room. Tomorrow we go mattress shopping for him as at the minute he has a camp bed when he stays with me. It all changes in 6 days. It’s what I have been waiting for for months and I think my patience has run out. Still, time to focus on the positives. Be present for my boy and enjoy the time with him this weekend.
Time to wind down now. I hope you all have a great sober day.
Nailed the interview. So happy about that. Sounds like an epic job, with really great pay, company car and ill be flying around the country quite a bit which im super keen for
I also feel like a general concern for my own health and wellbeing is also starting to have a positive effect on my life already
better thanks. I only slept a few hours but I got home and spent the rest of the day on the phone with my best friend and actually was able to talk about things
Evening of day 1. Not going to drink tonight. My anxiety is fairly bad. Trying not to full out panic. Made myself eat dinner and treated myself to a little dark chocolate. I’ll probably be in bed by 7pm.
@CATMANCAM Thanks for asking about that. I’m actually being treated for depression and anxiety with medication and therapy. My doctor prescribed Naltrexone to help with cravings but a few weeks in I haven’t noticed any help. We talked about options for the headaches. I need to get back with her about those.
Evening Check In Day 285
Busy day as usual. Workout at 530am, paid bills, and also paid more $$ to the person I owe money to. Ordered some xmas presents for family back home and attended our lunch invite to the Korean BBQ place. I was super excited to try their food and they did not disappoint. I stuck to my Intermittent fasting yesterday and have eaten well lately. Really proud of myself for how i have been with food and with exercise lately. Especially yesterday when i wanted to emotionally eat and didnt. After lunch i ran 5 errands. Walked more than i like to lol im beyond sore. But grateful for this day! God is sooo good Work this weekend and then prep work next week for my custom unicorn cake i need to bake for Icing Smiles
Hope everyones day has been great!
Whoa buddy my addictive voice is loud today. Its like i just want to keep buying and buying. I want want want. I know its not rational and just my addict voice but DAMN. I dont like having to keep telling myself no plus i dont want credit card debt soooo i better get my distraction on
Hey thanks for checking on me @Butterflymoonwoman im anxious but not buying anything else! I know a workout would be good for me but i have this mental block preventing me from starting…something i need to figure out to get past
I was cleaning out my cabinets today and I found the worst thing possible. A bunch of bottles of liquor staring me down, I must have missed them when I dumped everything seven months ago. I felt the strongest urge to drink, but I stayed strong and dumped them down the sink.
Hey @Scorpn my sister was like why are we getting together…im like well we need to plan moms 70th…and i need to make an amends. This amends was one drunken decision years ago that i knew affected her trust in me so im glad we aired that out. It was well received and we went on with coffee. Making an amends is scary and humbling but the relief sets you free. I feel amazing about it
Now i just need to deal with the anxious energy and addictive thoughts grrr
Still here ! Day 5 i believe …? Im going to work my second last bar shift ever which im very nervous about because it can be triggering. Ive done it sober in the past but Im just feeling anxious today. Second last because Im putting my sobriety first and quitting that industry. Wish me luck !
Evening Check In 
