Day 265
Still sober.
Just tidied for 30 min before watching La Reina Del Sud. Offset a few days this week where I havent done it. Last night I did deal with dishes and my bathroom. But I can feel myself slipping.
Need to send emails and delete apps. Need to write but shit isnt coming out fast enough. I hope to have a break and then really make my room nice for the weekend/next week.
Its all too much.
241 days 
Hey everyone. My Saturday is starting really early today. I couldnāt sleep, going into a bit of a disturbed sleep pattern again but trying not to freak out about it. Iām going to try back at the gym for the first time since I got covid just about two weeks ago. Will take it easy and ease into my weights.
Iāve also cut caffeine out, as the covid headaches were crazy and Iāve been enjoying the break from the excessive caffeine I was consuming. Itās been just over a week. I got a stimulant free pre workout Iām going to try. Then a half day at work finishing up some duties, I have a few days left of training new staff at the old job and Iām done. Getting exciting now.
Take care friends 
Day 853 drugs and alcohol
Day 1 sugar
Had a great day yesterday! After spending last thanksgiving super alone it felt soooo good to spend it with family (even though I did eat at the kids table lol) anywayā¦
Iāve been battling my sugar addiction! I started trying the week before Halloween and even then on a good day was consuming 35 grams of added sugar! I got stressed out and relapsed 4 days after Halloween. I felt such a high from stuffing my face with candy that I was instantly hooked again. Then I gave up and my goal was after thanksgiving yada yada so here I am, except I already reset twice today!! I am pretty sure I ODed on sugar last night I feel awful today. Couldnāt sleep and so Iām super tired today. But just drank coffee, itās 3 pm but my kid has a bday party to go to soā¦.sugar is a beast but itās killin me so to be continued.
@Pallbearer right there with ya on the sugar!! Congrats on your 30 days!
Day 3
A quick check in today. Iām keeping to my routines:
Less coffee
Less screen time
More exercise
More evening activities that I find calming (painting / reading)
It has helped a bit. The frustration remains. I get the keys to my new place in 6 days and it canāt come soon enough. The place I am in has been fine for what it is but I want to get on with my life. I have my boy this weekend and he picked out a rug for his new room. Tomorrow we go mattress shopping for him as at the minute he has a camp bed when he stays with me. It all changes in 6 days. Itās what I have been waiting for for months and I think my patience has run out. Still, time to focus on the positives. Be present for my boy and enjoy the time with him this weekend.
Time to wind down now. I hope you all have a great sober day.
Im a candy fiend. Its pretty difficult, but we can do it.
Im gonna order some sugar free hard candies soon. But they are still filled with carbs, so i gotta find the right kind.
Thanks for the congrats 
Iām checking in. Day 49
Hang in thereā¦sounds like once youve made it through dinner things can only get better. Push through 
Day 18 
Nailed the interview. So happy about that. Sounds like an epic job, with really great pay, company car and ill be flying around the country quite a bit which im super keen for 
I also feel like a general concern for my own health and wellbeing is also starting to have a positive effect on my life already
Motivated to keep pushing! 
Stay strong everyone, things do get better!
How are you doing today?
better thanks. I only slept a few hours but I got home and spent the rest of the day on the phone with my best friend and actually was able to talk about things
Thatās good, youāre doing awesome.
thank you
Evening of day 1. Not going to drink tonight. My anxiety is fairly bad. Trying not to full out panic. Made myself eat dinner and treated myself to a little dark chocolate. Iāll probably be in bed by 7pm.
@CATMANCAM Thanks for asking about that. Iām actually being treated for depression and anxiety with medication and therapy. My doctor prescribed Naltrexone to help with cravings but a few weeks in I havenāt noticed any help. We talked about options for the headaches. I need to get back with her about those.
Evening Check In
Day 285
Busy day as usual. Workout at 530am, paid bills, and also paid more $$ to the person I owe money to. Ordered some xmas presents for family back home and attended our lunch invite to the Korean BBQ place. I was super excited to try their food and they did not disappoint. I stuck to my Intermittent fasting yesterday and have eaten well lately. Really proud of myself for how i have been with food and with exercise lately. Especially yesterday when i wanted to emotionally eat and didnt. After lunch i ran 5 errands. Walked more than i like to lol im beyond sore. But grateful for this day! God is sooo good Work this weekend and then prep work next week for my custom unicorn cake i need to bake for Icing Smiles
Hope everyones day has been great!
Whoa buddy my addictive voice is loud today. Its like i just want to keep buying and buying. I want want want. I know its not rational and just my addict voice but DAMN. I dont like having to keep telling myself no plus i dont want credit card debt soooo i better get my distraction on
Good evening friends, day 741. Busy with work and home stuff but sober and staying that way. Off all next week. Linda and I have rented a beach condo in Amelia Island (about 45 minutes north of here) for a few days and then weāre hitting WDW for a couple of days. No grandchildren or their parents. Woohoo! 
We love them but every now and then, itās nice to just have some quiet and reconnect.
Have an awesome evening! I am going to continue mine sober!
Someone said Iāve been sober for a long time so when do I think Iāll be able to have a drink again.
Not today.
How are you doing now after some distraction?
Hey thanks for checking on me @Butterflymoonwoman im anxious but not buying anything else! I know a workout would be good for me but i have this mental block preventing me from startingā¦something i need to figure out to get past
I was cleaning out my cabinets today and I found the worst thing possible. A bunch of bottles of liquor staring me down, I must have missed them when I dumped everything seven months ago. I felt the strongest urge to drink, but I stayed strong and dumped them down the sink.
