Checking in Day 28 with no alcohol and Day 3 no marijuana and nicotine. Still here and still ready to fight for a life of sobriety. Wishing the same to all.
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Im resting today with my wife and dogs a little gootball. Been sober 716 days. I never ever thought this could happen. Its a lot of prayer and walking away from bad choices. You always say no ive learned that. Go the other way is what God tells me.
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Day 267
Will be nice to go to work tomorrow tbh. Up early and moving around.
Made omlet today. Giant omlet.
I did some tidying but i hope to do 15 min to elevate the relatively clean room to one that actively feels good.
Roommate meeting tomorrow.
I miss smoking weed in a clean room! I wish I could use once in a while.
Definitely need to go back to work
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Checking in on day 1âŚâŚ again.
Anxiety is through the roof. I am so afraid I have done unrepairable damage to my body, I am afraid Iâm dying, Iâm afraid that I will forgot how bad this is and do it again sometimeâŚâŚ
My problem is not daily drinking, but binge drinking. Once I get going, I just canât stop.
So many regrettable things happened last night. I am deeply ashamed and embarrassed. I am at the lowest of lows. It just feels so impossible to come back from this.
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Iâm sorry to hear youâre feeling this way. You will get through it. All is not lost. You didnât fail if you pick yourself back up and try again. Then you only stumbled. Just donât give up. Sending strength
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Iâm checking in. Day 51.
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If you are breathing you have a second, or third or three hundredth chance. With time you can move on from your past. 
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Im glad ur back but sorry u have to go thru this 
Youre still alive and u have another chance. Literally what i remind myself of every single morning, is how powerlessness i am over drugs and alcohol. I can never have 1 and i will never have control. It truly sounds to me like uv reached this point where enough is enough. Do u have any plans moving forward about what you like to do? Meetings maybe? Treatment? Etc. Somwthing that can help u get ur grounding?
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Evening Check In
Day 287
Juat checking in and hoping for a quiet evening. Hope everyone is doing okay
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Day 16
Iâve conquered another day!
Special thanks to all the support and wonderful community we have ! 
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Days
48 sober
178 no self harm
12 eating daily
Checking in after a day spent cleaning at one of my bonus kids actual home. And letting my kids spend time with their father. He wasnât being very nice to my son and yelled at my daughter too because they told him why they were upset with him.
Of course he told them I was lying to them and making everything up (even things they remember for themselves) so i spent time defending them and setting things straight. But he said I was attacking him by telling him the truthâŚ
I told him his father and sister were visiting his other kids in Florida and he replied with yeah I know, everybody is turned against me. He can visit them but not me! You are all attacking me and treating me like the bad guy.
I simply pointed out to him that if everyone is telling him that his poor choices caused people to remove themselves then maybe itâs not that everyone is lying or trying to make him out to be something⌠maybe itâs that he isnât seeing what everyone else seesâŚand he should reflect on what his role is people backing away from him wasâŚ
I was careful not to âattackâ him but whewâŚthe gaslighting is strong with him.
I still donât trust him alone with the kids because of some of the things he allowed/did. But I am trying to move forward and give the kids a chance to have a relationship with him if they want it.
Also, Gabby (bonus kid) told me she doesnât see her house as home and wants to live with me full time, but her dad (my exâs stepdad) told her no. I understand kind of, because without her, he will be all alone aside from my exâŚbut I feel bad for her and wish I could do more to help.
It was a stressful day, but all I can do is try my best.
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Day 407 AF
Didnât do much today. My kiddos woke up sick. They both came down with the flu. Theyâre doing a lil better now. Damn flu season. My eldest is gonna skip school tomorrow til heâs 100%.
Itâs back to the grind tomorrow after a long holiday weekend. Itâs gonna be hard working from home with two sick kids. Hope itâs not too busy on the phones. Thought about calling out. I have about 200 + hours of PTO. Not sure what to do with them, lol.
We might have to skip my companyâs Christmas party next Friday, depending on how the kiddos are feeling.
Have a great night everyone!
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Day 839
Yesterday was my daughterâs dance performance, so that was lovely to watch. I also met some friends for dinner, which was nice. I hate how paranoid and overthinky I get tho - did I talk too much about this, did I not ask enough questions about that, are x and y better friends than me and x or me and y, I am so fat in the photos, etc. I was also hurt by something my husband said and his reaction was âthat is the fault of your sensitive personalityâ and âGod, I canât even joke around with youâ which made me feel worse. I also have a head cold for the first time in maybe two years. But very sober.
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I ran into an old drinking buddy tonight. She went on and on about how much she missed me and how special the time we spent together was and the whole time I was trying to remember her name. I choose sobriety today and always.
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Youâre fine just the way you are, Fleur. You arenât here to be perfect, just perfectly you.
I think youâre someone I would hang out with, 
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Great job, youâve had a tough year and overcome all it threw your way.
Great to see this this morning, I remember you joining TS.
Have a great day 
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Another day sober
Just generally checking in gang, how is everyone? How is life? Hows the mental health? Is everyone good? Not so good feel free to share something.
Went and sorted all the paper work with lawyer today for house refinance finally locked in a great interest rate for the mortgage as weve been paying outlandish percentages.
Getting subwoofer and amp put in car this week which im super excited for! I love music im looking forward to everyone else listening to what i listen to as well 
Got a lot to do at work this week so thats a bonus should make some good hours before xmas rolls around.
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Good morning to all 
still on day 20. Still at my boyfriendâs home. He is supporting me as always. The whole weekend I am invited, I am supported and cared for. He is working on his stinginess. I feel loved.
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Almost a week! Still having trouble sleeping but thats probably from the xanax binge from the last bender⌠ive never felt more awful and truly saw hell after last time so meds and alcohol seem disgusting to me. I really think that this has solidified why I wanted to go on this journey in the first place. Almost finished âThe naked mindâ such a good read !!
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