@Butterflymoonwoman Happy Birthday Lovely Lady 
Hi everyone
Im just going to have some food then catch up here i have been soooo busy all day !!
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Day 413 AF
Woke up hungover free.
Bout to go get breakfast with the wifey and then head home.
@Butterflymoonwoman happy bday to you. I hope u have a wonderful day.
Take care everyone. Stay safe.
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@Intothesun congrats on your week 
@Twizzlers thank you 
@Ktorres congrats on 3 weeks
@Staringupfromthewell congrats on double digits
@Wolf182 welcome congrats on your days so far
@Butterflymoonwoman that cake looks so special 
you are very talented in your creativity 
HAPPY SOBER BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU! 
@Scorpn congrats on 6 months SH free
@TrustyBird sorry for your loss 
anniversaries are hard, sending strength
@VeeMaria congrats on 6 months
@emc2018 I’m so sorry about your night, it sounds awful and stressful, I hope today has been better
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@Juli1 I’m sorry your feelings are getting hurt by this swim partner situation. Maybe don’t think about the future too much, either that or you be the first to ask for a meet outside of swimming, but be careful because rejection is possible and may hurt you even more.
845 days no alcohol.
310 days no cocaine.
Nothing much to write about today. Still battling the nicotine demon, but I won’t give up.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends
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Take it as it was/is; you’re fine. If it was just 2 ships passing so to speak then go on like you guys were before.
You shouldn’t feel bad about anything, 
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Thank you so much.
It’s hard to explain.
But thank you!
2 ships passing by is a good picture.
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Thank you ts Swimclub.
I will find a way.
I am able to exist without him.
I will leave for 3 weeks holiday in 1,5 weeks.
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Happy Birthday Dana! I hope you can enjoy it with your son! Big hugs to you with this amazing achievement and you being sober today ,
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I remember a similar situation I experienced some years ago, some time sober and longer single.
It was the first time I could accept it after being hurt for some time. The obsessive tendency to run after him, to make yet another step, me and again me. It hurt and it was good to understand that it was not personal. It was just not me. And I think it’s completely normal if we fall in love we see signs which are maybe not there (idk this in your situation). It was healing for me at least.
Don’t dwell in your bad interpretation route for too long. Big hugs 
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Happy happy birthday lovely Dana!
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Thank you so much.
Maybe its also to early after leaving some toxic relationships a few months ago. I am absolving a programm to reprogram my mind in this field. It’s not easy work, but i am doing steps!
The point is, that his behavior is ambivalent.
That’s why I don’t understand what he wants.
Maybe he was sent as an opportunity to grow in above mentioned topics. Grow and heal.
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That’s maybe he doesn’t know either. Or he knows about his effect and likes to be admired.
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Day 273
Another sober day.
Slow start. Want to leave to do errands soon. Might drive around. Did my 15 minutes for last night just now. Want to get more done. Last night i was so upset.
Ive fallen off a bit with tidying. And on friday i clocked in 1 min late after waking up early and lost track of time.
A new goal as I maintain and struggle with tidying: reach for music and not podcasts. I am nervous about listening to music but i get more done when I do, and I feel better. I want to be braver about just putting music on instead of background voices or silence.
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You hit the point.
Franzi is very streight.
But it helps.
Probably he knows and yes he likes to be admired.
He is a doc and orthodontist.
And he has money to shit!
And sometimes he pointed out that he has.
I always turned to another topic if he did.
That doesn’t impress me.
It is his humor, intelligence, swimming skills, charisma and masculine aura.
Anyway.
Don’t c the happy end.
All shit.
Er kommt nicht in die Puschen.
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We kicked ass today 
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Day 22
Checking in! Just trying to stay focused.
Yesterday was a challenge so far today is going well.
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Wishing you a very very happy birthday!! It is such a joy to read your daily posts and be so inspired by your courage and strength. For your 38th birthday, I wish the moon and stars for you! What you may not receive in a wrapped gift, I hope you feel all the love that is sent your way. Happy Birthday Dana.
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Checking in day 90 (don’t have my official 90 days until I lay my head down nice and sober tonight). Having a pretty blah day honestly- muggy weather, partners depressed. Overall just laying around. But I’m very grateful that tomorrow I’ll officially have my first 90 days in the books- many, many more to come, ODAAT.
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