Day 44. Super excited for the long weekend! Heading off to work for a half day then have four off. Going to bury myself in some Christmas art for a market I’m attending next weekend and get my website restocked.
Made a decision to not go to my parents house for thanksgiving. They are amazing, but a HUGE trigger for me, as they drink sun up to sun down and most of my relapses have been in their company. A lot to unpack there but I’m grateful to be doing it with a clear mind. At this point my sobriety is more important to me than missing a holiday with family. In fact I would say my sobriety is the single most important thing to me right now. Hope everyone has a great next few days and thanks for staying sober with me. Future us will be so proud.
Hmmm. Perhaps getting a different phone might solve the issue
Day 30 again, finally. Biggest milestone in months.
Also got a rotten abscessed tooth pulled, the root went all the way up to my sinus so they had to put a bone plug in the socket. Just a week or so of taking things very easy.
It sucks, all dental work does, but I was at risk of some serious brain infection if I didn’t get this thing yanked out of my head.
Mashed potatoes and frozen yogurt for dinner all week!
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,580.
God Bless!
Thank you 
I also find being ready for bed at a normal time helps keep me mentally in the sober routine.
It ll started this time for me with the Titans i binge watched in bout 4-5 nights ago and it totally messed up my pattern.
I was so tired when i posted earlier prob being on computer all day too and no sleep. But i managed to get my butt up and im cooking 3 different curries 
Chicken Tikka masala, chicken korma and a prawn balti. I like mine hot and little bit of each flavour. My son likes non spicy.
Im really looking forward to eating it and watching S3.ep.1 of Titans but … but… im going to watch it in the front room and not in bed.
Im glad your here, your doing so well i mean that 
Relapses are opportunities in which God uses to help me uncover what more I need to learn.
I’ll be interested to know what changes you’re going to implement for yourself.
Have you read Easy Peasy yet?
Haha… I am just hearing the good old “Fm4 Radiokonzert” there is also a cool version of Aurelie at 15.00…just forget how much i. like this music. It changes my mood 
I will do one of it soon.
Although I am still thinking about “was I to hard… Will it work” but a path back to him is a path straight back to addiction.
Hey y’all, hope everyone’s doin well. Came into work today to a free hot breakfast and everyone in pretty good spirits. Its def easier to put out a positive vibration when life is good. Hope everyone has a very nice day.
Day 46! I had some cravings yesterday. And some little ones thoughout today but I managed to get through them. So I’ll keep my head up and continue to work on my sobriety. One day at a time.
Thank god I got rid of all my alcohol at home. That’s a big one for me.
Checking in day 207.
A mixed bag today. I bumped into a childhood friend who it turns out is my new neighbour! She and I have spoken about addiction quite a bit in the past and we have a very comfortable rapport about it. She’s invited us over for dinner sometime soon.
Then I discovered more bites on my body, which after the last two days of intense cleaning was a bit disheartening. A bit of research has informed me that bites can still show up a couple of days or even weeks after they happened so I’m not going to get too upset at this point. I may have to get a professional in if it goes on though.
My parents arrived this afternoon. They have some social engagements tomorrow and will be staying two nights. I just have to keep myself centred!
My son’s report card came through and although it’s not fantastic it is far better than I thought it would be. I’m feeling less worried about him now, although there are times I find my own emotions around his adolescence are hard to deal with. Sometimes I just have to focus on the word “love” when I’m getting overwhelmed. It’s that whole thing of letting go, isn’t it?
And now my back is a little sore, nothing major but I have had back pain in the past so I don’t want it to materialise into anything. It’s always been stress related in the past.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day!
Hey!
That’s a wondeful idea 
I will c how things are going and what the doc recommends regarding the pool.
Switch my yoga from tomorrow to today.
Just hop in the car and go!
I am wearing a dark chocolate matt lipstick. Why? Because I can. 
Sending get well greetings to your ear
honey 
Thank you, you too good luck with tomorrow
And yes wear your lovely lipstick because you can and your beautifull 
Enjoy your yoga that will keep you busy this evening and a good sleep tonight 
If I was in your shoes, I would definitely do something to discourage me from viewing such messages from a toxic ex. That would be a necessary boundary for me. If I gave myself permission read them, it would lead to more obsessing and then to reconnecting with the one person that I deemed not good for me.
I reached a milestone today. I have 60 days sober!!
Congratulations!!! You’re doing so well!
Omg!!! Yes mark things are getting better for u! Cant wait to read ur next update!
Huge congratulations 
2 months is AMAZING!!
Yea congratulations on 1 month!!! Really proud of u 
Day 53
Had to stay longer at work but today that was no problem, I need the extra hours 
Food is in the oven and I already did my back training. The back and neck feel wonderful smooth and warm after, although I’m still stiff like a stick 
Yesterday I did 20 seconds planking, today I made 26 seconds 
Whoop whoop!
Now I’ll eat, then shower and then bed
I hope you have a beautiful sober day friends 
Stay strong
Update: no shower yet. I have to take medication for my back that relaxes my muscles and I can’t walk around now because it makes me dizzy.
It’s a non addictive med 