So pleased for you, warms my heart to see this and proves once again that miracles really do happen 
You deserve this.
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Exactly 
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142 days free from alcohol
123 days free from toxic relationships
33 days imperfect regular eating
Latenight checkin, very tired.
Cravings are still coming up everyday atm, still have to reflect whatâs going on there.
Yesterday, I was so short away to responding to my ex toxic relationship, who still trys to contact me. But I didnât.
Eating thing is okay. Not judging myself. Burned around 5000cal by sport this week 
Still dancing on the wire rope.
I just figured out, if I am not that regulated at all or in emotional trouble, eating thing is getting worse. Feels like I want to fix something by overcontrolling.
Perspective:
I will just calm down everything nowâŚ
Itâs holiday and Tuesday nite i will drive to the airportâŚ
Not focusing on this thing with guys and dating anymore for the next weekâs,
and not doing restrictions in eating.
Just joyning special local food,
Just joyning active lifestyle, sea, air, nature
Just joyning myself, sun, napping, resting
And⌠Just joyning some void,
that @Mno once mentioned.
And step on the path!
Path on this new sober life! 
Hugs 
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This is very hurtful and Iâm very sorry. You are a very nice person. Yâall are a family. And youâre being excluded. Itâs your children. Itâs your husband. Itâs your family. Maybe he should go and leave the children with you. And you and the children can do something special on your own. Iâm sorry, this is not good or right.
And then itâs made worse because youâre tapering off the medicine.
I just wanted to tell you Iâm sorry this is happening like this, itâs not fair to you. Big hugs and lots of love. At this point itâs the way that it is and I hope that you can find something that will give you joy instead of being super upset about it which you certainly have a right to be. I would ask him, demand, that he just leave the children at home . Or you come over here where I am, youâre invited over here! My home is open to you anytime.
Hugs.
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Found this song and thought it might help some of you as well. 
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Thank you Paul! I really appreiate you saying that my friend 
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Iâll do it!
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Congrats on your 63 days! My parents have smoked since they were teenagers. I hear my dad coughing in the morning and it makes me sad that he canât stop poisoning himself. You are doing your future self a huge favour. Not today, nicotine, not today.
On a side note, I almost stopped dead in my tracks at work today. I saw a man who looked very much like you and my head went âwhatâs Thirdmonkey doing HERE??â LOL. Took me a moment to regroup and continue work LOL
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Changing meds sucks. I hope you come off with ease and find a suitable one. Good that they caught that calcification tho!
You know, excluding you from a family celebration doesnât tell much about you but speaks volumes about your bil and their family. Itâs beyond rude not to invite you. I donât know much about Japanese culture nor your family dynamics but it seems itâs important to keep up appearances. If it has to do with your drinking in the past, I hope theyâd be able to let it go and see how far youâve come and how hard youâve worked for it.
Iâd spend New yearâs with you 
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@Mno @anon74766472 @CATMANCAM @DLS @Dan531 @Alisa @Olivia
Thanks so much for the sympathy. Logically I can understand it, the house is small, probably not enough bedding for 4 more people. If they had said âcome for dinner, but then just husband and kids stayâ I would have to cycle home in the cold. That couple do not get on and often just the husband does something with the kids, or just the wife. So maybe for them it is natural. And there is usually a bigger gathering of all siblings at parents in law house that I will go to later next year. I have never been drunk at a family gathering, prefered my lonely drinking in front of the computer, although the sisters know a bit of what went on as husband talked to them. Anyway, have messaged a friend who does not have a Japanese husband so is not going to be busy doing New Years stuff, and hopefully we can get dinne/drinks. We used to get drunk together lots, she is a normie, I just encouraged her, and I have not told her about my sobriety. When life gives you lemons, make lemonade, quite literally, as that will be what I am drinking this time.
@Trustybird I am sure in the future as he trusts you more you can have birthdays together. Blueberry cobbler sounds yum. 
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wow what an absolute dick move. I am speechless. does everyone in your in-law family find this normal? super rude. hope your husband and kids insist you come or stay home with you.
sorry about the meds as well. maybe you can try other ones if they were helping.
hugs
EDIT just saw your reply. good on you for being proactive. 
(itâs still a shitty thing to do.)
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Thank you!
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Checking in Day 4 AF
Changed my name. It was just too depressing to read every morning when Iâm trying to start the day positive. Work is stressing me out with a lot of adult drama. People just stirring 
up instead of handling situations like adults.
A lot of great check ins, so congrats everyone on another sober free day.
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He ended up not having to use his contingency plans. We had a delicious dinner out and will have a quiet night at home. Sobriety helps me be trusty and trustworthy. 
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@waywardwanderer This is sucha beautiful song it really does help when youâre feeling down. Thanks for the share
@Juli1 I just wanted to say I always enjoy your posts you have sucha refreshing perspective on things and your strength really does give myself and Iâm sure others strength. Thanks for sharing and being so vulnerable xo
@Luna2022 love that you chose to have a more positive outlook with your name its the little things that really do add up to our overall perspective
Checking in:
1 month 11 days alcohol free
21 days smoke free
Today was tough emotionally, I was all over the place and definitely had some terrible thoughts but didnât act on anything. Pushed through and did not use which I am actually proud of myself for. It would have made things easier short term but more difficult in the long run. Going to bed early today so Iâm as refreshed as I can be for work tomorrow. Work is always a trigger but going to try to start the day with a positive attitude and see where it gets me. Wishing everyone the best in their own recovery. Itâs not easy but itâs worth it. Gotta keep reminding myself of this.
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Days
62
192
25 (half hour to 26)
Not a lot to say today, except, another day down.
Keep fighting the good fight yâall
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Thank you, that meant a lot. I hope things at work gets less stressing for you. Everyone says leave the job at the doors when you clock out, but that is never as easy as that. Mine triggers me as well. And itâs not the job itself, the job is great, itâs the people I work with.
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Day 10. Canât sleep but in bed sober and ready for a good tomorrow.
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Just finished a long day of work, but no real craving which was nice to see now that Day 8 is in the books.
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Checking in day 1074 AF.
Just For Tonight
I will be grateful. I will give thanks for the past day - itâs failures as well as itâs successes. Itâs sadness as well as itâs joys and itâs pain as well as itâs pleasure. I will take comfort in knowing that every event and circumstance that occurred today can be used for my good and the good of others.
Just For Tonight in Al-Anon
Keep up the good fight people. Weâre all worth it.
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