Checking in daily to maintain focus #50

6 Months :scream::scream::scream: Great job Hayley
This is HUGE!!
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Wish we could all come see the show.
:pray:t2::heart:

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My second year of recovery was harder than my first. In my second year of recovery I finally had to come face to face with myself. There was no more hiding behind drugs, booze, sex, video games… you name it. Although it was the hardest for me, it was also the year I had the most personal growth. It was the year I forgave myself, it was the year I started to love myself. It was also the year that I really started to see who was underneath all of the armor I had worn. Recovery is not an easy ride, I did not get this way because I am a well individual.
And you are right every day you are fighting, so am I, its what we do so we dont suffer anymore. Letting go of things takes practice, you will most likely need to let go of the things that you have emotional attachment to over and over again. Try to practice patience and compassion with yourself, I have found the less I berate myself for things the easier I can let things go.

I am glad you shared where your heads at. Big hugs. :heart:

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438 Days

Checking in is needed.
I have 2 phones one has all the vidoes and pictures of my daughter that i will never get back and the phone is starting to pack up. So i have been trying for days to transfer the pics and videos also of my son when he was younger too to my laptop it just isnt doing it.
I have managed yo get some onto onedrive but how i save them to the laptop i just have no idea.
And there isn enough space on one drive which is why i need to save and then delete and upload more then repeat.
I decided my laptop is slow and old and i will buy a memory stick with 2tb and take both the phones to my sister’s on xmas day and hope her apple pc will mamage to get them all on the memory stick.
Making me worry the phone wont last.

Also last night the trauma nightmares feeling like im reliving the whole crap again, and then in my dream i had a pack of the strongest drinks and was planning to drink them and surprisingly in my dream i logged on here to tell you all i was about to become a failure to myself and that i cant do it anymore. But every time i logged in i thought no i can’t go ahead with this looking at the drink. TS/all of you helped me even in the dream realm.
The only positive i take from this is that TS is engrained in my sobriety and even in my dreams my brain knows your all here, and in my dream its like its wired into me now this makes me happy.
Thank you all for being here with me on our journey and for sharing yours too.

Only i can access photo’s on one drive '? I have absolutely no idea what im doing.
My new phone i treated myself to was delivered a few days ago, and last time moved the sim card and whatsapp i lost lots of pics so trying to not make the same mistake.
Then once i have everything saved i can clear my 2 old phones to reset so they can be passed on.

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@Hayleylujah Congratulations on your 6 months :hugs:

@Dazercat Huge congrats on your 1074 days huge achievement 1​:dizzy::hugs:

@Tommy9 Congrats on your 8 days.

@Sirluca Congratulations on your Day 10.

@Scorpn Huge Congratulations on all your milestones your doing so well​:purple_heart::hugs:

@JP123 Heres some hugs :hugs::hugs::hugs: Congratulations on your 1 month 11 days and your 21 days.

@Luna2022 4 days is brilliant Congratulations.

@Misokatsu Im sorry to hear about your family situation.
If this was me id tell my family meaning yourself your husband and kids that your all a family and should be spending it together, that you feel its very hurtfull you have not been invited and feel you should all stay home and you will make a celebration dinner and stick together.
I hope your okay x and even invite them all but tell your husband your his family and are hurt inside that he would even consider going without you. I also dont understand the dynamics as every family is different and cultures too. Sending you some healing love and hugs :hugs::hugs::purple_heart:

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I’m sorry you’re having a tough time twizz. If I was any good with technology I’d try and help but I suck with TB and all that stuff :confused:. I just know memory cards of some sort help and transferring them. And yes those days of not feeling so good do to feelings, and nightmares are not pleasant. I know you know I am, and many more here are always here for you. You are a very caring person and are great at reaching out to everyone new and old. You are an inspiration in my recovery and have reached out to me when I would relapse along with others that I am grateful for. I’m glad you are reaching out we love you twizz please message me if you ever need to talk. ( Big hugs)

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Have as good a day as you can all. Love.


Back to working day shifts.

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Thank you :hugs::hugs:
I am okay im learning the dreams are my brain tryinf to heal in its own way.
The phone situation im sure my younger sister can do in minutes so il stop now.
Going for a swim later and just waiting in for some deliveries so prob just eat and watch some films. :rofl: and mess arnd with the new phone without sim in.
Luckily most of the time i can get passes the dreams affecting my whole day.
Thank you for your support.
I also havent been to mertings for a while and i think im ready to start the steps too.
Im so proud of you for going for it and putting so much effort into it. This is what i feel i need to do. Have a lovely day :hugs:

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Morning,
Starting day 267, feeling strong.
I’m putting off getting up, its really icy and foggy outside and it’s my day to take the dog. I’ll drink my tea then go.
:sparkling_heart:

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You can send one drive links to other people.
Twizzle glad you’re here and glad you find strength here … you give so much strength to others. Tech problems esp when it involves moving precious things like family pics is stressful. Hang in. Big hugs. Glad you feel better today.
Edit. Twizzie! Have fun in the snow! Stay warm.

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I wish I was on day 50. It’s been a while since I was that far… currently on day 1, again. Hopefully I can do something healthier, like vent on here, next time I feel triggered. I really need to reduce my stress levels as it’s getting in the way of my sobriety. Hope everyone has a good day :pray:

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65 days tobacco free. Not going to do it today.!!!

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Checking in day 226.
Currently holed up in the living room as the kitchen fitters get to work. There was a lot of packing up for me to do yesterday but I’ve set up a little kitchenette space through here to see us through the next couple of days.

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Thank you :blush: have a lovely day too. It is very cold !

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Checking in!

All things are going well, big exception being my sleep schedule :grimacing:

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SLEEP!!!.. What is this thing you speak of? :wink:

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Keep putting those 1 days together it’s all any of us can do. I’ve managed over 800 of them but they all mean shit if I don’t get through today.

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218, checking in.

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@chey.o Congratulations to 5 months of soberness! :ok_hand:
@Juli1 Have a nice time during your holiday! :sunglasses: :sunny: Are you already in Spain?
@Tommy9 I hope your week will be fine!
@Luna2022 Belated happy birthday! :birthday:
@Private50 Congratulations to two sober years! :tada: :confetti_ball: :tada:
@Hayleylujah Congratulations to half a year of sobriety! :confetti_ball: :tada: :confetti_ball:

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Checkin in! Only clean for today! I wish everyone a good 24!

You can do it!

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Hey all, checking in on day 911. I hope everybody has a good one!

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