Checking in day 88. Almost 3 months Woop! I’ve been getting quite a few bottles as gifts lately. They look lovely in my little bar but I won’t be drinking them.
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Checking in Day 5 AF
Not a good day.
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Made it home from work on day 5 without stopping somewhere for booze. But MAN was it a struggle. Like an internal battle for an hour commute. My mind was playing tricks on me the whole time. Like…youre off tomorrow itll be okay…no one will know if its just a little. …that frustration your feeling can be numbed…yada yada yada…
But I will know, and I dont want to be disappointed in myself yet again.
So im sitting on my couch eating and drinking a sonic drink to help my sugar cravings. Bring it on day 6. 
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Good for you for not stopping, be proud of yourself!
I can tell you from experience that urges like that will go away. You just have to focus on staying sober for today and soon enough being sober will be your routine and you won’t have to fight the urge to stop for booze on the way home.
It takes time and hard work but I know it can be overwhelming at the beginning and wanted to let you know that it isn’t that hard forever 
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Thanks so much. Im really looking forward to that feeling. 
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Checkin in day 63 without alcohol AND day 1 no caffeine. Alcohol wise I’m feeling incredible. Had a really good weekend and am feeling confident in my ability to stay sober (af) today, tomorrow and probably even the next day 
Caffeine is proving to be tricky. Im super grumpy and headachy. I ordered some decaf coffee to satisfy my warm fuzzies during these cold days. From what I’ve read giving up caffeine is miserable for about 5-7 days and then really worth it. Wish me luck!
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Checking in day 29 sober, God bless everyone!
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Checking in on day 7!
I’m impressing myself everyday, will power has never been my strong suit, but here I am!
Still haven’t slept since before my last check-in; currently on hour 31 awake and very much so looking forward to (what I hope will be) an amazing night’s sleep tonight 
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Thank you for your pieces of thought @Juli1 and @Mephistopheles and @CATMANCAM
I was just thinking: it’s been some time for me being squeezed in a circle of 20 or so around a table and being awkwardly forced to talk to your neighbour. And when you are out of the conversation bc both of your neighbours turned to their neighbors than you are fucked.
I tap myself on my shoulder when I think 4 years back after slipping back into drinking in the exact overall situation: new city, job, people. Again. Well, slipping is maybe not quite exact: going right back to where I left.
So, happy 1500 days to me 
@Juli1 not badass just lazy. I take my.bike when I am too lazy to take the bus as this would mean: walking there, waiting in the cold, swearing on the bus driver, walking from the bus stop to work. Then, going home: doing grocery shopping walking? 
Too lazy.
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Congratulations on the 1500 @anon74766472 !! Edit: I tried to pick you something nice and discreet, but looks like it - the greeting- exploded in happiness on the screen! Big congrats!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.
@anon74766472 Huge congrats on 1500! Niemal wieder!
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the lack of sunlight at 5pm is what gets me
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I’m so happy to hear this! I’m way behind on these posts and started reading when you were just on day three I was scrolling down to make sure you were still around and made it this far before I responded and I’m super proud of you!
The mind will always play tricks on you… Even still for me on day 103 but that voice is not quite as loud and I know how to tell it to f*** off more than I ever did before.
Stick around and if you’re struggling, never hesitate to check in, wait for a response because by then you’re craving may have passed and we’ll be here for you♥️
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Congratulations on 1500 days!!! Amazing🎉
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I do wish you luck and I would like to join that Journey soon! I went caffeine free for the whole time I was pregnant but that was 17 years ago now and I know coffee is not good for me but I have not been able to quit again yet.
I know the caffeine is not good for my anxiety or my circulation because I have Raynauds. Let me know how it’s going for you and if you find anything to make it easier 
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Sending congratulations to your 1500 days!
Hope I will still be sober at 1500.
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Sending strength to you 
hope it went well and you felt in good headspace after it 
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Day 2. Saw my psychiatrist yesterday. She increased my antidepressant a little to try to give my mood a boost. We talked about trying to get me into an intensive outpatient program after the holidays. There are a couple that would address both the addiction and the mental health. I think I’m accepting that I need the higher level of care and support.
I still haven’t talked to my family about what’s going on. I really fear their judgment. I saw how they felt about my father’s drinking. Of course they all drink. I do realize that if I have any chance of staying sober over the holidays I need to tell them. It’s tempting to say fuck it until after Christmas. Probably not a good attitude to have.
Getting through work each day is a major struggle. The anxiety and depression are so bad I can barely function. I’m taking a week off at Christmas but that will have its own stress of travel and family. Struggling to feel positive about anything.
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Hi Karen,…
I hope you will get the possibility to joyn this programm. I am glad that you accept more support from the outside.
Sometimes we need a little support!
It’s not forever…
In german we say “unter die Arme greifen” like “grabbing someone under the arms” as a synonym and it’s very pictorial to me!
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66 days tobacco free.
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