Checking in daily to maintain focus #50

[Dancingwheel]

Thanks! All i want is to be better than i was yesterday

[Juli1]

I am so proud of you badass winter biking queen Franzi

If I feel like I don’t belong (and I often do feel like an alien) i am trying to ask myself:
Belonging to what?
Maybe its just very cool on my side and it’s not always achievable to belong to the other

Okay polarising thought maybe.

[Juli1]

@CATMANCAM

was hard to motivate myself to get changed and out the door to walk to the pool and back, but I managed to listen to my more assertive inner voice and just did it, so I went swimming today for the first time in 2 weeks! Proud of that

I am so glad that you had the courage to go
I will leave to one more evening swim at the indoor pool now…

Before having the atlantic in front of my door soon.

[Jonachav123]

Day 65.
9.04 pm as I write this.

I feel down. I had a confrontation with someone earlier tonight. I’m so bad with confrontation. All my mind can think of to get me calm is drinking.
This will pass I know but I feel so down. Like I’m not worthy of life itself. Sounds stupid I know.

[Zara84]

Thank you I’m getting a new prescription for disulfarim so that will help. I’m gonna do my best. I want 800 days that’s so amazing

[Misokatsu]

That’s a great way to really set out what is going on. And realise there are other ways, better ways, to get the things you want.

[Scorpn]

[TrustyBird]

Hey, I needed to see this today. I had a moment at a Mexican restaurant tonight where I felt that I could just have one margarita, and that would have set me right back in the turmoil.
Keep at it, then try for day 2. Thank you for reminding me that I don’t want to go back. I’ll put a sober head on my pillow tonight. Sending you a hug.

[Dancingwheel]

Niether of us have to wake up with a hangover tomorrow. Thank goodness!!!

[Hollieberry]

Checking in day 88. Almost 3 months Woop! I’ve been getting quite a few bottles as gifts lately. They look lovely in my little bar but I won’t be drinking them.

[Luna2022]

Checking in Day 5 AF

Not a good day.

[waywardwanderer]

Made it home from work on day 5 without stopping somewhere for booze. But MAN was it a struggle. Like an internal battle for an hour commute. My mind was playing tricks on me the whole time. Like…youre off tomorrow itll be okay…no one will know if its just a little. …that frustration your feeling can be numbed…yada yada yada…

But I will know, and I dont want to be disappointed in myself yet again.

So im sitting on my couch eating and drinking a sonic drink to help my sugar cravings. Bring it on day 6.

[Nordique]

Good for you for not stopping, be proud of yourself!

I can tell you from experience that urges like that will go away. You just have to focus on staying sober for today and soon enough being sober will be your routine and you won’t have to fight the urge to stop for booze on the way home.

It takes time and hard work but I know it can be overwhelming at the beginning and wanted to let you know that it isn’t that hard forever

[waywardwanderer]

Thanks so much. Im really looking forward to that feeling.

[JDHealing]

Checkin in day 63 without alcohol AND day 1 no caffeine. Alcohol wise I’m feeling incredible. Had a really good weekend and am feeling confident in my ability to stay sober (af) today, tomorrow and probably even the next day
Caffeine is proving to be tricky. Im super grumpy and headachy. I ordered some decaf coffee to satisfy my warm fuzzies during these cold days. From what I’ve read giving up caffeine is miserable for about 5-7 days and then really worth it. Wish me luck!

[Wolf182]

Checking in day 29 sober, God bless everyone!

[ktiz]

Checking in on day 7!

I’m impressing myself everyday, will power has never been my strong suit, but here I am!

Still haven’t slept since before my last check-in; currently on hour 31 awake and very much so looking forward to (what I hope will be) an amazing night’s sleep tonight

[anon74766472]

Thank you for your pieces of thought @Juli1 and @Mephistopheles and @CATMANCAM

I was just thinking: it’s been some time for me being squeezed in a circle of 20 or so around a table and being awkwardly forced to talk to your neighbour. And when you are out of the conversation bc both of your neighbours turned to their neighbors than you are fucked.
I tap myself on my shoulder when I think 4 years back after slipping back into drinking in the exact overall situation: new city, job, people. Again. Well, slipping is maybe not quite exact: going right back to where I left.

So, happy 1500 days to me

@Juli1 not badass just lazy. I take my.bike when I am too lazy to take the bus as this would mean: walking there, waiting in the cold, swearing on the bus driver, walking from the bus stop to work. Then, going home: doing grocery shopping walking? Too lazy.

[Alisa]

Congratulations on the 1500 @anon74766472 !! Edit: I tried to pick you something nice and discreet, but looks like it - the greeting- exploded in happiness on the screen! Big congrats!

[Mno]

Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.

@anon74766472 Huge congrats on 1500! Niemal wieder!