Thank you @Miranda i appreciate that very much 
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150 days sober today. Truly Grateful for the Community.
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64 substance free
193 self harm free
27 eating daily
I’ve been having a rough couple days. And last night i had a flashback “dream” to when i was someone’s property. It really fucked me up in the head and i didn’t get any more sleep. I think i had 2 hours altogether last night. Bringing my total rem sleep to 11 hours this week…
I am still in a weird headspace. But not in immediate danger of harming myself. I’m hoping these dreams stop…I’d rather not dream at all than have flashbacks.
I am proud of myself for making it through the night without SH and I want to send a big thank you once again to @Alisa for reaching out. As well as @Mephistopheles for replying to my post.
One day I’ll be better. I just have to keep making it through the day I’m on…
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Day 39 
No cravings so far
I need to slow it down and use my head
I need to use empathy and sympathy and compassion in my communication yet express how I feel emotionally without overwhelming.
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It’s great to see you reach the 300-day and 10 month milestone. You’ve put in a lot of hard work. Congratulations! We’ve waited a long time to see this.
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I’m still plugging away. Day 66
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Great job Moose, 100 days is some going. Keep doing what you’re doing 
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Midday check in
Day 303
Today has been good so far but feeling sort of “off” mentally. I recieved some bad news from work about a client in the agency who was found deceased. The staff that was on yesterday did the best they could until EMS arrived but she was gone. Suspected overdose. That sort of threw me off. She was 18… so very young. Other than that, i did some cleaning, had lunch, and now waiting for a package to be delivered before my son and I head out to run some errands. Have to pick up a couple things for the christmas cupcakes im baking for gifts and a few things from the $ store. Im hoping my mind chills out. I have been in good head space overall but something isnt sitting right with me. Not sure what. Its bugging me lol i do know that ive been feeling crappy over not being as present on here. I feel like im not helping or supporting people enough. My reasoning is bcuz things are soo busy, which they are… but at the same time i dont want to not be an active member on here. I need to set more time to interact with everyone and do more reading on here i think. Hope everyone is having a great addiction free day!
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Congrats on 150 days, fantastic
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Thank you kevin!! I honestly didnt even imagine myself getting to this point 10 months ago! Its crazy to think lol im so proud of you too! Congratulations on 66 days!!! Youve worked incredibly hard urself!
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Huge congratulations on triple digits!!! Great job 
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Thank you very Much!
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I just want to say how proud I am of you! I think I said congratulations on 300 days already, but you have been on my thoughts today. And i want to say congratulations again!! What an achievement!! You worked so hard and you are doing so well! I see hope and happiness and joy in your posts and i am grateful for you! Sending lots of 
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Day 73
I’m feeling pretty okay today, although I did a workout yesterday. I tried something new, no HIIT any more because it makes me sick for 2 days. I tried bodyweight training to strengthen my muscles and guys I’m not strong at all 
My sick time is over, I have to work again tomorrow. And I’m nervous 
I hope I don’t tighten up tomorrow, I don’t want to have a headache or back pain again. The last weeks haven’t been nice.
Only 7 days, then I have some days off again.
I’ll stick around here often the next days, that always helps 
I’m sitting in my bed with my iPad in front if me watching Stranger Things. I had a nice bath, some sandwiches and I hope to fall asleep before 3 am (like I did the last weeks).
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in. Day 67
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Checking in day 64 no alcohol. Still here, still sober, still so so grateful. I went to a neighborhood fire safety meeting tonight and there was alcohol and I felt no desire to drink it. I am in a really interesting head space about booze right now… I don’t hate it, I don’t love it, I’m just indifferent to it.
Trying to reframe my mindset that I’m in control, not the booze. I think it’s working.
Day 2 no caffeine. This shit is tough.
The decaf has been helpful, I am making sure to make very yummy decaf drinks to satisfy that routine but man I feel so groggy and unable to focus.
A few more days and I’m hoping to level out.
Thanks for staying sober with me today.
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Day 283
Still sober. Broke. Paid on friday and over half my paycheck immediately goes to tires. But i will make it through and into safe territory if i keep this job.
Mentally exhausting job. Holiday party catering chaos. On time first 2 days. Will sleep now and be on time tomorrow.
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Evening Check In
Day 303
Today got better once the errands were done. Im really noticing how I struggle with being around people 
Some days im fine but today wasnt one of those days. Went to get a few baking supplies for those christmas cupcakes. Dollarstore for a few things. Got a package sent to me. One of the items were 3 kits for doing embroidery pieces. Im excited to start that. Its sort of a newer hobby. Keeps my hands busy. The other item was for working out which i will try tmrw mrng. Overall day was good. Ive been slacking tho on prayer, which isnt good. Will make sure to connect tonight and then first thing tmrw as I normally do. Things are good recovery wise so cant complain there. Eating and exercise had also been good today. Was wanting to eat more than what my body was wanting to during supper, but i stopped at where i planned to end my meal. So thats a plus!
Hope everyone is having a good day/evening!!
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