Checking in daily to maintain focus #51

Happy Birthday :tada: Vietual cake is better than no cake eheh

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Aw Stella Iā€™m sorry to hear about your relationship.
Walking away is not an easy thing to do. Stepping back and not trying to fix and help is hard. Especially when we love someone, all we want to do is help. But like you said, it isnā€™t our job. Youā€™ve gotta help yourself or want to change/the help.
Thanks for sharing, itā€™s amazing how much recovery teaches us and spills over into all the lessons in our life :heartpulse:

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My favorite :heart: Place.
Hoping to get there this year.
Got a great friend in East Croydon.
When I got my year I listened to Madonna Like A Virgin forever. Still do on my sober birthdays. I love her :heart_eyes: Wifey canā€™t stand her :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

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Day 335

Still sober.

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I used to sing like a virgin in front of my grandad and heā€™d lose his mind :joy: he was a strong catholic and did not approve :stop_sign:

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Checking in on a Friday night - sober. Hot chocolate, and treats. Finished work late, Did a short gym session and ate too much. Watching TV. Iā€™m happy to not be drowning in the thick sickening drink of red wine, Iā€™m happy to not be poisoning myself tonight :slight_smile: well done every one for sober Fridays. Day 34 xx

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Happy Birthday Claudia.
Was it on the 3rd?
My son was born on the 3rd.
I hope you had a great birthday!!
Sugar free cake right? :blush:

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Hello sobriety family :hugs:

Whoever, wherever and whatever I am right now, Iā€™m 34 days and nights better :seedling::sunflower:

Iā€™m back in touch with one of my friends from before my nervous breakdown 2 years ago actually, I messaged him this new years with an apology and explanation, and to get back in touch and he responded that he was keen too and there was some positive to and fro. Anyways we unexpectedly met yesterday at my work and heā€™s invited me to his birthday tomorrow so all a bit daunting as we havenā€™t properly talked things out as we ought to yetā€¦ Iā€™ll try calling today if we can meet first, but Iā€™m in anyway, one of my leading mottos lately has been: ā€˜Life begins at the end of your comfort zoneā€™, so I want to push my anxieties and embrace lifeā€™s opportunities as much as possible whilst I can.

Iā€™ve found as clear as daylight that the more time I spend sober, the more mature, confident, mindful and responsible I feelā€¦ Iā€™ve definately had my tough cravings, and my moodā€™s been up and down (as is normal and expected), but Iā€™ll tell you what, the experience has definitely been more positive than negative this time around thanks to my commitment and 24/7 caution to maintain mindfulness :slightly_smiling_face: I know what I want. :pray: And it requires (and is worth) my love, attention, time and investment!

How do I feel right now? Relatively neutral. Maybe anxious considering a lot has happened latelyā€¦ But thatā€™s good. Itā€™s a sign Iā€™m doing and trying things beyond my comfort zone, and thatā€™s important if I ever want to grow! It proves Iā€™m aliveā€¦

My plan for today:

  • Meditate
  • Clean up
  • Exercise
  • Try to catch up with one or other friend
  • Work

Thanks for reading, and I wish you a positive rest of your day or night whoever and wherever you are my friend :heart:

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Day 40

Itā€™s been a while since I posted, except for a couple of memes. I can tell Iā€™m in pre-relapse mode. Iā€™m sleeping to much, isolating, not eating right, and just not feeling like doing anything. I even went to my favorite hiking trail and spent less than half an hour there.
So, my subconscious told me I should get back on line and try to talk. Anyway, I get to see my friend Theresa in prison. And I get to see Brian after that, so Iā€™ll at least get some human time in tomorrow. Anyway, Iā€™ll post again when I have more to talk about. Have a good night, sober fam! :v:

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Checking in. Day 119

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Yes it was at the 3th so the same as your son.
Yes the sugarthingā€¦I get a week, sometimes more and then thereā€™s something I canā€™t refuse :face_with_peeking_eye:
And thank you :pray:

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Itā€™s still less sugar than it would have been. At least your cutting down. Being sober is the main game.
:birthday:

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#Day 1599 :walking_woman:
Today itā€™s party time. We invited loads of people in our house tonight. I hope it fits! Theme of the party: celebrate life!
But ofcourse itā€™s for my birthday as well.
Today? Getting our last groceries for the party and make our house look like you can party in it :grin:


Picture from an ā€œSneeuwklokjeā€ (Snowdrop) I saw during my walk. A little glimpse of spring? :seedling:

PS, thank you all very much for all the birthday wishes I recieved from many of you yesterday!! Much appreciated! :pray::pray::pray:

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Yes, cutting down it deffinitely is. I have enough sugar free replacements as a to go to. Itā€™s the special occasions at work for example that are difficult. Canā€™t say no to a birthday cake from a co worker. How do you do that? Just say no? :flushed:

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Day 24, body getting back into a routine and sleep is fab, i keep getting a few fleeting thoughts in my head about the poison but keep telling it to bugger off, bloody AV

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Morning,
Checking in on day 321. Iā€™ve been so busy lately and so tired so I cancelled my usual Saturday morning job so I could have a lie in. My partnerā€™s alarm went off early, Iā€™m wide awake and heā€™s snoring away! Still, I donā€™t have to get up and go out.
Iā€™m going to tidy up, read my book, walk the dog and enjoy my weekend.
So glad I dont drink anymore, my weekend would be very different :sparkling_heart:

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Hi Mark,

I would love to c you checkin tomorrow,
when you are back from your actions.

You are realising your pre relapse mood already, but please donā€™t take the first drink. This is what you have control about!
You know, drinking is a mess!
Ask yourself what is missing and try to add it to your life. Keep trying.

Much love :blue_heart:

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Doesnā€™t matter how much you have to talk about. Please post. Stay connected Mark. Hugs.

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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.


My three day weekend is here. Yay! Stuff to do. useful stuff. Fun stuff. None of it involves using or drinking. Thatā€™d be just stupid. Never again. X

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Day 126
I always miss so many posts so apologies if I miss birthdays or milestones or anything else :heart:
Iā€™m sitting on my couch, sipping a coffee and listen to the radio. Hmmm I love it.
Already did a list of stuff I need for the weekend.
As you may know we in Germany have to separate our garbage. Today I have to dispose paper. We have a paper bin but itā€™s full again only 1 week after it got emptied :roll_eyes: I love my neighborsā€¦
I decided to give away my tv. Since I try to use less power itā€™s only standing here in front of me, all alone and ignored :joy: It needs a new home.
I had some problems with my lower back and my teeth/gums the last week. Both is getting better, the gums need more time and thatā€™s bothering me. Maybe I need to see my dentist next week if Iā€™m not able to make it heal. Meh.
Iā€™ll skip my kettlebell workout this weekend and do some stretching and planking for my lower back. I donā€™t want to overwhelm it and eventually make it worse again.
Ok, thatā€™s all for now :relaxed:
I wish you a beautiful sober weekend fam, stay strong :kissing_heart::muscle:

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