Yeah, me too then this past summer something incredible happened to me I felt afraid for my life and a feeling that I didnt want to die. I think that for me i just finally came to a place in my life where I am happy and want to protect myself, I value my exisitence. I have had to remember to place faith over fear, like when getting on the back of a motorcycle. However I definitely am not catastrophizing, I am not “worrying”, I just feel grateful and finally dont want to lose what I have.
Has this just sort of flared up recently? If so maybe its some higher anxiety due to PAWS?
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Good morning from Spain. I want to share with you my fifth month of sobriety.
My life has changed a lot. Still I have regrets and senses of blame, but I am happy and calm. Not euphoria but a positive and, more or less objective, feeling of who I am.
Kind regards.
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Been a hot minute so I’ll give an update
I started a new job, totally a fluke, naturally everyone in Tech knows it’s been slowing as of late, a lot of big tech has been slashing jobs and we been leaving early for about 2 months,
I had an option to leave early on a Friday, and there was a job fair for a auto shop down the street, i figured i would go and talk to them worse case they don’t like me I don’t like them no biggie.
So I took the voluntary leave early, and headed over there, they gave me a huge offer, i mulled on it and decided to take it, it was a combo of things, i didn’t want to go back to the auto industry, and i didn’t want to really leave my job, i made a ton of friends, i knew
My job well, but it was a dead end, no raises incoming they cut back incentive programs to a cap to avoid paying more. Slowly but truly pulling the plug on team members as time went on,
I gave my notice of resignation and the same day I was put on administrative leave, then they got back to me to say I was being terminated for using slack for non work purposes, of the group of 40 they found (our sports group) I was the only terminated employee, kinda funny how that works.
But i started my new job last week, and i actually like it, i been sore as hell as I’m used to piloting a desk Vs manual labor, and the guys are pretty decent I got offered almost 50% more per hour than I was making at my old job, And a signing bonus to be paid at 60 days of employment, overall I can’t complain too much
Gigs started kicking, i got two weekends with at least one show, the one we played last night the patrons and the pub owner loved us, we are probably going back, i was hesitant of the songs, we used I didn’t pick, but people liked them; i was not at my 100% and i was not pleased with my performance, but live and learn
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Congratulations @Fury i noticed you hadn’t been around as much but wasn’t sure … sounds great for you, work wise and band wise!
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Aaaahh! Congratulations Owen! How special! And such a lovely ring 
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#Day 1601 
The party was great last saturday. The house was filled with friends and family and I felt loved.
The day after our house seems exploded with dirty dishes and stuff. We had catering so all guests ate with us as well.
I 
our dishwasser even more now!
Picture made during my walk yesterday. Beautiful clouds and blue!
Congratulations @Fury for acting fast for a new job and getting it as well 
@EFountains and @MooseTracks well done for the 5 months milestone!
@zzz congratulations with the 
days!
And congratulations for all milestones I overlooked 
Have a good monday!
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Day 26, had a wobble yesterday but still here fighting for what i need/want/deserve.
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@Fury Fantastic update and congrats on new job. It’s amazing how being sober allows us the ability to make thoughtful (even if quick) decisions with confidence. I really hope you like it there.
@EFountains 5 months! Congrats on your freedom from alcohol.
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Thank you very much!
Monday morning. This evening will officially be 30 days. I didn’t think it was possible. Trying to focus on that positive while this depression is crushing me. I’m continuing the IOP as long as my insurance will cover it. It at least gets me out of the house and gives structure to my day. I know I need to start exercising and taking better care of myself and feel like a failure when the depression makes everything seem impossible. All I want to do is sleep. But annoyingly my insomnia is awful.
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,654 Sober.
Thanks!
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Congrats on 5 months @EFountains !!!
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Hey all, checking in on day 967. I hope everybody has a good one!
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What is the problem with showering?
I ask, because during my alcohol abuse I couldn’t stand upright long enough to shower.
You’re a Canadian without snow pants?
I’m glad you had fun to build the snowman with your son! It’s a nice bonding activity.
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Day 251, good morning. Nothing much going on. Feeling relaxed today, putting in my slip for a weekend pass this weekend. Group at 10 then gym sessions. Grateful for my girls, my mom helping with my girls, being able to work on myself so I can become my best version of myself for for my girls. Much love
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Love you @zzz lol
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Congratulations to your first sober month!
I love John Candy and especially Uncle Buck!
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5 months of sobriety! Congratulations!
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