that’s amazing super proud of you!!
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I agreed with my parents that I’d start paying my phone bill in 2023. today on the way to work my dad tells me hey not only are you paying phone bill we’re charging you a portion of utilities and rent (even tho they own the house so they don’t pay rent) it’s $250 a month which I know is extremely cheap. it’s just a bit of a shock
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I can relate to that post so much! Go you! You are doing fantastically 
here’s to day 101. You definitely got this 
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@Dazercat congrats on 3 years 
@Sirluca welcome back 
congrats on trying again
@Jennajen therapy is hard, sending strength 
@Noshame congrats on 60 days
@Dan.h84 congrats on double digits and for opening up to your friends and family
@Rockstar24777 if it makes you feel any better, I’ve been single for 6 years this year, can’t see it ever changing either now, working on learning to love myself, and that’s the relationship that’s my priority
@Misokatsu that does sound like a good day, and you deserve it too congrats on getting a new sponsor
@theboroguy welcome congrats on 3 days
@Cp25 congrats on triple digits 
@seaglass welcome congrats on day 1
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@KarenKW @ghostgirl sending strength to you both
876 days no alcohol.
341 days no cocaine.
30 days no cigarillos.
The technician arrived with the wrong glass for my rear windowscreen, so it couldn’t be replaced, only a plastic sheet to protect it from the rain, plus he removed all the remaining broken glass from the windowscreen and hoovered all the bits from my boot. Then I swept all the glass and the plate it was smashed with up from my parking space.
I took my mini Xmas tree down and packed it away, along with the wrapping paper. I also moved the extra TV stand I acquired recently into a space I was hoping it would fit, going to store some clothes in it.
I’ve only had in total 6 hours sleep in the last 3 nights, I feel like a zombie and quite unwell, I have been attempting to nap all day but my sleep settings are all wrong, just as I feel my brain starting to shut down, I become wide awake again, over and over again, so I’m going to wind down with some meditations now, and hopefully sleep through the night. I have my diabetes blood glucose test in the morning and I need to post my friends bday present.
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240, checking in.
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Thanks so much 
really glad to be here
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Thanks so much
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Not trying to throw myself a pity party here, but I can guarantee I’ve been single longer than anyone you know. I’m working on accepting this, as acceptance has always been the part of sobriety I’ve struggled with most. I’m going to spend this new year working on myself and being comfortable in solitude. Besides, after watching a few episodes of Better Bachelor, it looks like the whole dating scene has turned into a total dumpster fire in the last 25 years. I am going to plan for a nice hike once I figure out how far my COPD will let me go.
@Sirluca You’ve only got a couple more days and the hard part will be over. You got this. 
@Butterflymoonwoman Sounds like you’re getting back into your regular routine. I’m glad you’re doing well! 
@Mephistopheles Less than 1%? That’s… discouraging. The best part of this site is the interaction.
Take a deep breath, sober twin. These feelings could be from your holiday coming to an end. You may well feel great once you get back into your routine.
@EFountains That is a beautiful picture. Where is it?
Definitely do not do that. I drank myself out of the same job twice 
If you have to take leave, take it. You’re not going to get anything done feeling like you are now. Sending prayers.
Kudos, that’s what sobriety is about! 
Part of me does wonder though; how much were you smoking that you could buy a new car after only 4 months of quitting? 
This could be a good thing; treating it as a business arrangement could take some of the tension out of the situation. Wait and see, I suppose. Best of luck to you! 
@CATMANCAM Sorry sleep is coming so difficult for you; I found a weird trick that works well. Take a long deep breath, and as you exhale, think about the word “thinking”. Don’t know why it works, but it does.
Day 8
Nothing to report, really. Went to pick up my meds and started nodding off on the bus on the way home, so I took a nap and slept too long. Now I’m full of energy, but it’s too late to start running around. So now I’ll probably be awake all night. 
Anyway, I’ll check back in if something happens. Happy sober day, everyone! 
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@Sirluca You are in one of the hardest times, no doubt about it. But you never gave to go thru it again if you don’t want to. Get thru these early days and you will start to feel better, I promise 
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@Cp25 Congratulations
@Juli1 Sending strength
@SadMemeQueen Well, if they are treating you more like a lodger than a child, by extension you get to act like more a lodger than a child. I.e. they don’t get to control what you do.
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…1747 days alcohol free, 87 days tobacco free.
I find myself drawn to the forum more than in the past months. Its exciting see all the new people, finding their way here.
It gives me some relection on where I was 1748 days ago, and makes me excited to see people start their sober journey.
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Day 9. My anxiety is through the roof.Not going to give into it. I’m going to make another meeting tonight.Hope everyone has a good day 
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Great Idea about talking about it here. Have a good meeting!
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Checking in day 1643.
It’s all about mindset. Everything is. Choose to be sad, you’ll be sad. Choose to be happy, you’ll spend the day smiling. Get rid of all the noise and that is exactly how simple it is.
Get yourself to a mindset where you can conquer anything. Get that toolbox full of all the positive and reaffirming little tidbits you can. Start the day correctly and you will not fail.
Stay strong all you guys starting off on your journeys. The hangovers, comedowns and regret and guilt will all be subsiding by now. Just remember why you started. Why you are here. It may be the last chance you get at having what myself and so many others have.
I’ve had a good day. My wife is a massive Darts fan so we’ve watched the World Championship together with some god awful food I cooked 
. My daughter needed me today. I was there. She needed things to go back to school. I was able to provide them.
She needed a hug because she was sad. I wasn’t passed out in bed so she didn’t have to come and throw a blanket over me and cuddle into me for comfort. Because that’s where my disease took me, and it ain’t never fucking having me back!
Today was a good day.
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Love this👍 Congrats on your sober time
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Thanks buddy. Day at a time 
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Evening Check In
Day 324
Day has been okay overall. I got some errands taken care of. Some cleaning completed. Made a couple of appts for my son.
Had some interesting encounters today. Was standing in line with my son at Tim Hortons to grab a coffee. The woman in front of us smiles at us, so i smile back. She opens up a used peanut/cashew can and pulls out a Tim Hortons gift card. Tells me that God has blessed her and she is paying it forward. She hands me this gift card! She tells me that my son is very blessed and that she can tell that I am a good mother. I thanked her and was sort of shocked. I kind of doubted that there was money on the card but when i got home and checked the balance, sure enough there was $30!! It was just a very diff experience.
Then my mom messages me about her cousins son who is addicted to cocaine and her cousin (the father) is super worried about him and not sure what to do. My mom (without asking) gave out my phone number and said that her cousin (who i have never met) may call me to talk about his son and his sons addiction. I am ALL for helping people but this for me was crossing some boundaries. I dont have experience from a parent point of view of what its like to have a child suffering in active addiction. That is unknown territory for me. I mentioned to my mom that i didnt want my phone number given out. She went back on fb messenger and removed my number from the message saying she is hoping he didnt see it. Then apologized for that. I asked my mom a few basic questions such as if he was willing to seek help? But then I also mentioned that I dont know what i could honestly do to help the father deal with this other than to access an Alanon meeting. They live in a province where i am unsure of the resources but i did mention that alot of info on treatment centres, meetings etc can be found online aswell as mentioned about the online meetings thru the Intherooms app. I hope i did the right thing. I have to protect my mental health right now. Im naturally feeling burnt out right now and i just dont feel up to giving from an already low cup. Yet i dont want to dismiss someones pain either. So the least i can do is provide suggestions or resources etc.
Anyway off to make supper. Hope everyone is having a good day/evening
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i definitely need some kind of experience paying for things so it helps it was just a shock
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actually yeah that makes me feel a lot better. i pay rent here I can live by own rules to a certain extent
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Hang in there. Be gentle with yourself and practice whatever self care works best for you.
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