Day 936 clean and sober. Today is my Friday and we have a much needed new employee starting today that I’m training. We have all been sooooo overwhelmed at work it’s been crazy. We are still needing to hire 2 more people to actually balance things out for us, this guy is just replacing someone who quit. I’m looking forward to my weekend for sure. Weather is supposed to be cold and rainy but I just might take a drive up to the mountains and relax in the solitude… Hmmmmm that just gave me an idea to possibly rent a cabin up there for a night 
good job self! Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys 
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A cabin in the woods? 
You know exactly what is going to happen! Slimy axe wielding space zombie mutants will find you at midnight and do some crazy stuff with you! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 934. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,622 Sober.
Thanks
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Hahahahaha I can only hope!!! 
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Day 876
Another decent day.
Took the kids to the city office to apply for new passports, the old ones having run out during covid. There were some hiccups: a slightly dirty document had to be redone, the usual fuss over children writing their signature correctly in the tiny box, a photo having to be taken again, but it got done and it has been hanging over me a bit.
Organised my son’s clothes and because he has hoarding tendancies and has a meltdown if I throw things out, I showed him his too-small clothes and allowed him to choose some to keep as ‘memories’. He managed to get rid of 2/3 which I took straight to the second hand shop before he could change his mind. I hope we can revisit this and get his ‘memories’ down to a t-shirt or two.
Eating is going ok, and sh healing up so I don’t have to be quite so paranoid about cuffs pulling up. Getting back into the swing of daily 10th step emails. I have to keep checking a list for defects and opposite actions. But I am sure it will get smoother to do.
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Awe, thank you!
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You’re awesome!!! 85 days!! You rock!
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Checking in on day 4. Slept a bit better lastnight. (After getting up at midnight and having toast with honey and milk). I had 2 weird dreams last night.
I feel OK.
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Congratulations on four days. One day at a time.
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Congratulations on your 9 days.
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Morning Check In
Day 325
Feeling a bit off this morning. Nothing major but just kind of feeling weird. My mind has been very unfocused this morning. Thankfully, i got up at 515 for the gym. Did weights and cardio. Lifting weights for me is almost like meditation in the sense that when my mind starts to drift and think of other things, i bring my focus back on the task at hand (in the sense the muscle-mind connection). Exercise always grounds me.
But then i begin organzing my sons medical supplies in his bedroom (today i pick up new supplies so im making room for all that), and i smell that weird medical smell that reminds me of many years ago when i used to shoot up. It reminded me of the equipemnt i used to use to get high. And i started tearing up. To be quite honest… out of the many years of using drugs, that portion of my “using career” when i was shooting up was the lowest point of my life. I realized today that i have alot to work thru actually when it came to that time of my life and not just in the sense of what was going on around me (sex work and overdoses and drugs etc) but also how much i hurt over how i disrespected my body so much. I used to think about how much other people have hurt me and abused me and this n that. Yet i continued that hurt and abuse on myself by doing what i was doing to myself, all in the attempt to numb my feelings and to try to be okay living in my own skin. I wish i couldve shown myself the love and compassion that i really needed during those traumatic times, instead of adding to the pain. But i was responding the only way i knew how. Im grateful that i am showing myself love today. That weird smell i smelt in those medical supplies today, reminded really how far ive come and my god am i grateful 
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Checking in Day 5 & feeling alive 
and present in the moment. So much to be thankful & grateful for 
I’m learning to find the beauty in the smallest things in life. 
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This sounds exciting, a great way to forget the stress st work 
And you have a good workout included while smashing the Zombies 
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Day 95
I’m on my way home, thanks God! Today all crazy Karen-Patiens had a meeting at our office to get their eyes checked.
It’s sometimes not easy to not hate humans. I know not all are like this but today was really hard.
Anyway, on my way home. I’ll get me something nice to munch now, but before I get comfy:
Planking Challenge 
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Checking in day 122! Day off today. Got up and went to the store, and going to work out in a bit. I was on call til late last night so a little sleepy- going to honor that and rest a bit, and prepare meals for my next couple work days. Wishing you all a wonderful sober Wednesday!
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Checking in on day 88!
Not much news to report. I’m taking everything day by day.
I’ve got a gig next saturday at a lovely (pretty medium sized) bar with the coverband I play guitar in.
Can’t wait! Lot’s of friends and family are coming to see us. Gonna be great!
Guitars and music are one of the things that keep me leveled and sane. So I’m not planning on living up to the ‘rock n roll’ clichè of drinking a lot before/during of after the gig. NO… not drinking, that’s where the real Rock N Roll lies!
Stay strong! Odaat.
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325 day is incredible! Great job! I hope I’ll get to that number too one day.
You’re on a much better path now. I feel like it’s good to remind ourselfs of where we came from. And after going back to those memories realize how much better a sober life is.
You got this! One day at a time
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reasons not to drink:
to have a clear mind
have time for new activities
show my sister that we’re not doomed to alcoholism
save money
to wake up with no regret or sickness
to heal my mental health and not just drink away problems
so I can start a career
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@DryIn785 thank you, I’ve heard that before actually when doing my guided meditations on the Calm app, will give it a try 
@Butterflymoonwoman I’m proud of you for the boundaries you are starting to set for yourself 
I relate to your today’s post a lot, and I am grateful too 
@Scorpn this gave me all the feels, you’re doing a great job
@Bear21 congrats on double digits 
@Twizzlers I’m sorry about the dream, it is scary how real they can feel, but yes, also a good reminder of the dark time we’ve escaped from 
@Rockstar24777 that cabin in the mountains sounds like a great idea, go for it! 
877 days no alcohol.
342 days no cocaine.
Slept a full solid 8 hours from midnight til 8am, finally some good sleep! Made it to the post office in my hometown early, was there for 25mins bcuz the staff member had never done mail with the service I needed before, he had to call his supervisor who was at home, thankfully she knew what he needed and it got sorted, cost me £25.95 though! I can see why no one uses it 
Then went to my GP surgery for my blood tests, no problem there, used to it.
Then got a lift home from my dad who still lives in my hometown. Gave him all the cat food Prince is refusing to eat anymore.
When I got home I had a sudden motivation to hoover, so I went with it, and I am so proud of myself, the inspection is on the 13th, so I will have to do it again on the 12th as well, but this is the first time I’ve done it, for my own benefit, in about a decade! and sober!
Have caught up with some meditations I’m behind on this afternoon. Then came here, and now my cats are hungry so I’ll feed them, take my meds, and then I’m going to do some reading on my Kindle app.
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